smashingcupcakes's blog

I can't take it anymore I'm tired of people calling me stuff everyday. I'm not giving up it's just I'm tried if crying at home and getting yelled at for playing my music to loud. I'm tired of being called a failure and ugly. I'm just tired if being tired. I don't care what people think about my music it's just their words that are tearing me apart. I love life don't get me wrong but right now I don't know who to trust. Well to get out some feelings I'll go write a song. I know you might think it's weird but it helps me get over stuff.

So I havent been on for awhile. Well let me start off with school starts in 3 days for me )': I'm not to excited about it. Well my uncle has been living with my family for awhile which is getting on my nerves I know he's family and he needs to find a new house. But I'm serious no one can talk to anyone about anything without him butting in. Jessica (my little sister is loolong at basses for sale andcheckimg out how much the are and that stuff then he just comes in and says that each one she likes looks horrible. I can't even listen to my iPod withouthim lookIng over my shoulder luckily was able to escape to my room and Ive only been out a few times today day before yesterday my grandma rescued me and Jessica by taking us to her house for a sleepover and then spend the next day with her at the mall and everything. Think what you want about my grandma but she's really cool, she taught me how to paint and draw, act, sing ext.

Well the title says it all as I haven't been on for a while. Well my school starts next week on Tuesdayso only 3 days. I'm nervous about it because well I'm an outsider at school which is fine with me I'm used to it by now. Buttgis year I'm in the 8th grade and at my school that means they make you do more stuff and almost everyone things I'm a faker because I was on crutches 2 times in 7th grade the 1st was in basketball I messes up my knee and had to be out for a few games. The 2nd time was when I was in track and landed a hurtle wrong and almost tore a tendon and ligaments and a whole lot of other scientific terms. But I was on painkillers for it and all of that stuff and people called me a faker and an attention seeker so I ended up losing a lot of friends and by the end of the school year a nasty rumor was going around so I have no idea who is still my friends or who's going to hate me.

So I haven't blogged in awhile because I've been way to busy. So last night I had a HUGE argument with my sister. And then I listened to Desert Song and just started balling I've been keeping my emotions inside and while I was listening to it my sister came into my room and thought I was being a whimp until she heard what I was listening to then after the song she looked at me and was like 'I only have one face expression' doing her poker face that looks like Mikey's. So then we decided to listen to 'I'm Not Ok' and other more happy songs and singing them to the top of our lungs until our dad yelled at us. And I being me yelled "Well their never gonna get me like a bullet through a flock of doves." So now I'm grounded but it was worth it.

So I'm gonna start a MCRmy in Nebraska. Because I think were the only state that doesn't have one. The way I'm gonna do this is by playing their songs really loud in public and spread the word about them. If your a Killjoy from Nebraska then please help spread the word about them and please comment because I would love to know.

So I saw a blog about letters and that got me thinking how cool would it be to communicate with Killjoys from around the world. I'm not trying to idea steal I just thought it was a really awesome idea. So if you want to communicate by letters or if you prefer E-Mail please comment and we could get it set up or whatever you want to call it. I'm in NO way a pervert I'm a teen that loves MCR and wants to communicate with other fans.

Ok so I saw this one blog earlier about sending letters. And that got me thinking how cool would it be to communicate with other Killjoys from around the world. I in no means want to 'idea steal' but if you want to communicate by letters or E-Mail please comment. I'm NOT a pervert I'm a teenager that just wants to communicate with other people

Ok so I saw this one blog earlier about sending letters. And that got me thinking how cool would it be to communicate with other Killjoys from around the world. I in no means want to 'idea steal' but if you want to communicate by letters or E-Mail please comment. I'm NOT a pervert I'm a teenager that just wants to communicate with other people

So I really want to be in a real band but my friends just won't listen to me they claim they don't know how to play any instruments but when ever their at my house they like playing my dad's right handed electric guitar because mines left handed and they're right handed. I also want my littler sister in it because she's my best friend and she's awesome at bass. Sorry this sounds stupid but I just want to know how I could convince them I already have one of my friends playing drums, please help it would mean the world to me.

So I was wondering if there is any Killjoys in Nebraska. If you are or know of someone please comment because I only know like 2 killjoys out here.