Today was long I'm not sure about your guys days hope they were good. My day wasn't bad just really really long so I didn't get all of the stuff for my Holloween costume thing. I'm being a Zombie Killjoy I came up with it after watching TBP music videos and DD videos. It's realitivley cheapish to so I guess that's good.
So Holloween is on Wednesday and Conventional Weapons first two come out on Monday. I still didn't order it cause my dad is finding our record player. (I didn't even know we had one) yeah and our internet won't let us on really because I have an addiction to Twitter, YouTube, and this website and the whole wifi things going on. Well I've decided that this year for hollowen I'm going to be a Killjoy black parade marcher. Yeah I'm very original so pretty much I'm going to be a zombi killjoy.
I couldn't think of a title/: Ok so yesterday I was like on the point of a nervous breakdown alot happened and I don't want to talk about it I'm over it. Yeah this may sound weird but I've been writing alot today songs, stories all sorts of stuff. Thing is with some of them I can't come up with an ending. I didn't talk today at school much so my friends knew something was up and they cheered me up. In English we have to do a biography on someone. At first I chose MCR and she said what else have they done besides make misic and how can you prove they save lives.
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Well as you all should know firsthand this is NOT SmashingCupcakes aka my older sister. This is her sister Jessie. Don't worry nothing bad has happened she's just drinking coffee right now and GAVE ME permission to use this for one blog thingy. Off to the point of random thoughts. These are what go through my mind. Where do the unicorns live? I mean really the DO exist so were are they? Why does some people make bad music I mean Hey I just met you... Were the heck is the inspiration in that. Why don't MCR come to Nebraska in the USA?
So I've promised myself that I would help others through my music and just helping them in general. Well today U found out one of my other friends also hurts herself and I just didn't expect it at all. She's just so happy I'm NOT stereotyping because I know that it can happen to anyone but I just it's totally inexpected like it always is. Well anyways she told me why she does it today and I literally started crying I've realized how good I have life and other people honestly think my life is perfect even tough in reality it's not.
Ok so if you read one of my older blogs it talked about one of my friends hurting herself and I wasn't sure what to do. Well today she texted me saying she needed to talk to someone and I'm the only one that understands. So I texted her back and then she called me crying told me about all of the stuff going on and said she didn't know how to handle it anymore. Well me being me and able to write songs and stuff I wrote her a song and told her what I've been through suggested this band and other stuff. We talked for a few hours I literally just got off of the phone with her.
Okay so I noticed something that I absolutely hate about myself (Don't worry it's not what you think.) So I noticed that I can't put on eyeliner right the way that goes all the way around your eye. My friend did it for me once and it looked good but I cant figure out how to do it and she moved and lost her phone so that doesn't help me at all.
Okay so I know some people would read the title and go "why would a 13 year old dress up or whatever for Halloween." Well my dear friends (yes I count you guys as friends over the internet (: maybe...) My answer if of course free candy since I'm kinda short. Lets get to the point my sister and I both are going to be something MCR related.
Ok so as not m any of you know I don't think any of you people know this... Anyways I'll skip straight to the point, my best friend is in trouble. I'm not sure if I'm aloud to say what she's been doing (it's not hurting herself, it actually involves her whole family.) So With that going on my I don't know crazieness (sorry for the spelling error.) Life's been kinda upsetting. I HATE it when any of my friends are hurt or whatnot. But this is tearing me apart and do to the part were I found out another friend has been doing somethings that hurt her.