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FirstL Fuck Me, Second: The Hunting Party Review

First thing first. I fucking hate myself and it is because of a small yet big thing. When I was writing the review on this blog, I was trying to move the horizontal cursor to the left by holding shift and scroll down. And little did I know, that action causes the internet to go back to a previous page. I wasn't able to cancel the process and when I went back to the blog page, all those efforts of putting all of my stupid jokes and passionate criticisms on my review fucking gone!

maybe i just need to be alone or something

Because normally, I would say hi to all my friends and besties on chats. And i have, not a lot, but they came from different chat apps and social networks but one thing that we all have in common is that we all love My Chemical Romance (and also, we like video games, animes, few fandom shows and movies, and Japan!). But, this has not been very recent, but I've been chatting them less and less. I know I'm the problem and I want to solve it. I want to start talking again, but then I lost my will. I give up and never bothered.

I Never Watched The Sixth Sense....Until Now

Really, I'm really honest here. I never, ever, ever have seen the movie who said to be M. Night Shyamalaman (God, why???)'s great works before he went into the pitfall. And I'm pretty sure everyone here knows what I'm talking about. (Because you guys already read the title...soooo...)

Until I watched the movie tonight and I'm so caught up with the movie, I couldn't focus on my project right now (Oh, seriously I feel like giving up right now). But before I said anything about the movie, there is something I want to say.

Firstly, I want to say WHAT I KNOW about the movie before I watched the


I just watched it today and it's still freshed in my mind even after watching other people gave views on the movie. I remembered how I react towards the movie and towards the viewers sitting beside me (seriously, I don't know what's so funny.


I''ve been wanting to write a blog again, but my mind is too fucked up to write something from the heart.
So first thing first, life's is like riding on a Hell Coaster. It is not thrilling, it is suicidal. But not literally. In other words, you'll not get any fun out of it as it keeps on going and going and going, looping your head clockwise and anticlockwise, blurring your eyes with tears and fright, paralyze your muscles and bones.
But I'm still smiling. Yep. Still smiling.
Secondly, I want to apologize for my insanity in the past few blogs (except for one.

That title is a bit from a song by The Strokes: "What Ever Happened?" It is not much about lllllllloooooouuuggghhh.... but it is mostly about disappointment. And I am disappointed, but how can you disappointed at something without feeling so hate until disgust at the same time? And it is also about how you wish to forget all these feelings when you kept being reminded by the person that let you down, by the people that kept talking, by the songs, by the literatures, and by your own twisted emotions that play your mind again and again.
Oh I have tried.

oh yeah sorry right you don't hate me you just ignore for your own good

Because that's what you should when you met a lunatic, psychopathic, crazy, soulless, pathetic, insane guy like me. Hahaha.
Good for you. Hahaha. Good for you. Hahaha. Good of freaking you. Hahaha.
Thank you.
Smiling smiling smiling smiling laughing laughing laughing laughing.
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

really, i cant believe how much you guys hate me

but whatever, i guess that is what written in my DESTINY.

I know, i know. Keep smiling, keep laughing.

im smiling im smiling im smiling im smiling hihihihahahahhohohohuhuhu

Im insane
Drunk with
Depression and hate
I don't care what you say
I'll keep smiling, smiling, smiling smiling, smiling

Like addicts
Im a mess
Love was my
Drug, now is my laugh
A joke I'll never take seriously anymore
So I smile and smile and I smile and smile

Like fuck you,
I kissed you, and I hugged you, and I gave you, and I made you,
Everything that love is worth,
But fuck you,
I hate you, I kill you, I rip you, I shred you, I burn you, and I eat you,
But love hurts,
Yet I keep smiling and laughing and smiling and laughing and smiling

I smile when I cry when I find another piece

Forbidden Love

This is technically about me....And probably others that experienced the same way before and still a nothing man. So yeah....middle fingers to falling in love, and falling from love....woofruckingboohoohoolahoopoop pooppppppppp. (Yeah, I'm being a brat. Love it or shove it.)

We're just friends, right?
That's how it always been.
In my eyes, I moved forward,
But yours burned the illusions in front me.

We're just siblings, right?
That's what you always see,
Trying to be your man in armor,
But I'm just the hearth when you need.

Because I'm just an angel,
I am just an angel to you,
I am just an