Recently, I started emailing to my dearest friend who I never forget and I always missed searly.
She was an MCRmy member before she left with "I quit" in her very last post.
She left after the break up.
She has been missing for a year now.
And I missed talking to her.
So with given chances, I emailed her now.
I always start with my prayer:
I hope you're resting well and with no suffering,
If you're still around, you can always haunt me,
If it makes you feel better, I'll carry your nightmares,
If you pardon me, I wish you'd hear my tears.
I cannot lie, but I wanted to believe that she is reading my emails.
But I never expect her to reply at all. I never.
I just want her to be my listener only, forever always.
She can laugh, she can cry, she can hate, and she can love.
No more no less, I just want my long lost friend to be my friend until my death.
Because she is the only person who can.
You're the only person who understands.