shar-deenie's blog

a bit random on my behalf, and some people may be like 'huh?' but trust me, im a doctor!! well... actualy im not, but humor me!
so, i was just sitting here doing what i do, y'no, looking at MCR things on google and i had a thought, "i want to see the world differently today" and so i scrunched up my eyes,went upside-down and looked around. it works, it really does! you can see things that you wouldent normaly see! it made me smile. so, right here, right now, or wherever you are, scrunch up your eyes and look at the world upside-down.
also, a while back i cut all my hair off, and it has finaly grown back, i dyed it black and it is very curly, it is just past my shoulders and the fringy bit is quite short but... wait for it... when i style it.. i. look. like. a. UNI-HORN!!!!!!!! i soooo dont regret cuting it now! :D

i would just like to say, thank you to everyone who helped me see that BADWORD stupid BADWORD monster is wrong. i now realize it was not ment to be and there are other great things comming.
thank y'all so much xx

ok, i think we have established that i am infact in hospital, for serious depresion and i only get 3hours of internet and phone use a day, well i just switched on my phone and a text poped up. from my former girlfriend. i was getting all happy, like "yes she hasent forgotten about me, i love her soooo much" and i opened the text and guess what? it says,
'you are not sane. i hope you DO kill yourself and die it would do everyone a favour. oh, and guess what, im not really bisexual. HA! so ur dumped hoe'
i know its probably seriously sad but i loved her, i actualy did. and i am writing this through tears. i am so sad right now. i am trying not to listen to her but it is so hard not to. what is wrong with people? why do they do this? at least i have the black parade and other MCR albums to help me through this.
i am trying to stay positive, and be a fabulous killjoy.
oh, and i descovered my killjoy name is... bullet fire, what do you guys think?

once apon a time, there was nothing. and then ther was something. y'see, all the atoms and stuff exploded together and out burst one HUGE rainbow. the rainbow made all things magical and err, non-magical aswell. every thing was good. and so man and woman were made and multiplyed and the human race as we know it today was born. but only one horse was created, because the magic was running out.
now. the rainbow was fading and the lonely poney wondered into its fading beams.
suddenly, the horse heared a voice. it said...
"you are one"
the horse said "errm, yeah, bit sad huh?"
"i will use my last strength to create friends for you but i will give you a symbol, so you can proove you were the one and lonely"
the horse said "thanks weird light of many colours"
and with the rainbows last strength, it produced many other horses. and faded.
the horse walked into the crowd of horses desplaying its beautiful gift.
a single horn.
a uni-horn.
right on the front of his head.

i have continued to write my album 'MASQURADE'
i am so exited. i have been working on it for about a month and its finaly making sense to me now. i hope it is apreciated when i finesh it!!! *cue the evil laugh* mmmmWWWAAAAHHHHHHHHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, MWWWHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
aw, you know what is really embarising? i just did the evil laugh out loud and people are staring. oopps!! ah well. listening to the black parade again, xD. teenagers. ah these songs have and are still helping me get through the hard times of being in hospital. *sigh* listening to Gerard sing, its like i am away from everything and i know i am safe because, someone knows how i am feeling. thank you Gerard thank you so much. ah well, back to song writing again, yay! i may share some lyrics at a later date, you never know!

hello, im knew to all this. so i guess i best make a great first impression! righ, here goes...
origonaly, i am blond, last week i was brunett, now i am black haired! so sexy! i love uni-horns (make note, not uni-CORNS uni-HORNS, i may explain in later blogs. the story of the uni-horn)
i spend most of my time on the internet, on facebook, google and My Chemical Romance sites.
currently i am in hospital for severe depresion (don't be alarmed)
i currently listening to the black parade album, track no. 8. cancer. epic songs!
i am the eldest sibling and it SUCKS!!!
my music is my life and i dont have an ipod i have a CD player because im hip like that :)
i have blue eyes and im an atiest.
i am a bisexual and damn it, im proud!
i love MCR and i am currently on my road to recovery.
ok, i think my introduction is pretty good. hopefully you guys understand and dont judge me! so, yeah... welcome to me!