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Nothing to do


[] Must sleep with two pillows
[] Sleep with window open
[x] Place hands under cheek or under pillow
[] Sleep with a nightlight
[x] Sleep with mouth open (XD)
[] Susperstitious about waking up and seeing a ghost by your bed
[] On stormy nights you sleep under your blankets

Total: 2


[x] Chew with mouth closed
[x] Like to try new foods
[] Vegetarin/Vegan
[] Don't like sharing food with others
[] Prefer fruit over vegetables
[] Don't like using fingers
[] Use napkins as bibs

Total: 2


[] Drink tea, coffee or hot chocolate
[] Drink soda and energy

Hate myself

I hate myself sometimes. I feel useless. Boring. One minute I laugh out lood, the other I cry all my tears. I live on my nerves. I don't sleep well, spending my times thinking about stupid things. I have a dream. Seems impossible. I feel sad. Like the weather. Like the autumn leaves on the floor. Everybody's walking upon me. And I let them do. I am kind too much. Naive. Maybe I am just stupid. It is like no one will understand. I feel angry against myself. All the day. I am tired. I am a zombie. I have the feelings that my emotions will make my body explode.

Songs to sing...


I need advice... I will begin to sing in the school of music band next Saturday, and we have chosen few songs but we need more. For the moment, we have :

- One last time (Dream Theater)
- Hold the line (Toto)
- Imaginary (Evanescence)

Any idea ? I will try to talk to them about MCR, but I am not sure they know it. We are searching for Metal songs (System of a down, Slipknot, ...) or Rock songs. So please write all your ideas !!

Thank you for your help,


It's week end and it's so cool...

Just a message to say that I am on week end, and I feel so happy that I attacked the Nutella pot with the spoon !!! MOUAHAHA...

No, sorry, I am fed up with my fucking allergies, it makes me mad. Tomorrow I will try for the first time to sing in a band, I have never sung in front of people, never sung in a band, I don't know the members yet, and my fucking allergies give me a hoarse voice... Maybe I should sing Slipknot ? Aaaah my throat is burning ! My eyes are burning, I look like nothing. And I kept sneezing all the day... I am sooo tired... What can I take to stop this ? Any idea ?

And I

Nothing else to do...

Level 1:
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
() Kissed a member of the same sex
(x) Drank Alcohol (a very little)


Level 2:
(x) Are / Been In Love
() Been Dumped
() Shoplifted
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight


Level 3:
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
() Seen Someone / Something Die


Level 4:
() Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
(x) Been To Paris (easy too much for me XD)
() Been To England
(x) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking


Level 5:
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding

I feel very bad

Just now, I don't know why, but I am sad. So sad... So hopeless. I feel alone. More than I have felt for a long time. I am here, in my room, just crying in front of my synthesizer. Just thinking of nothing, with a pain into my heart. I feel sad, all my body is hurting. I fancy of bringing my last meal up. Feel like I am nothing. Feel like I don't know why I am here. It is just hurting. I am afraid. I am cold. I am alone. I have no one to talk to. I want to deprive myself of food. I feel very bad. Please help...


Gerard's day

Today, in France, this is Saint Gerard's day. I don't know if American people wish this kind of thing, but in France we do :

So all my wishes to Gee for this day.


Nothing else to do

I am in front of my computer, and I don't know what to do, so : (no iPod, I will try with the computer...)

Put your iPod on shuffle and see what song comes on for each category(: And....... BEGIN!:

1. If I had a band it'd be called: Hidden Track - MCR (XD)

2. When I die, my headstone will say: Look alive sunshine - MCR (NO, I didn't put only MCR, there are more than 100 songs, it is not my fault !)

3. At my wedding, in my vows I will say: Under the bridge - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

4. If I could kill someone, I would kill them with: Rip the heart out in me - Adema

5. When my boyfriend makes me

I am afraaaid

I play the harp at a school of music. Yesterday, this school had organized a meeting. There are several bands, made up of pupils of the school. And there were missing musicians in these bands, so the meeting was about it. I had come with my boyfriend because he is a drummer and wanted to play in one of the bands.

A band was searching for a singer. At once, my boyfriend said that I could sing. I blushed. And when they asked me what I would like to sing, I said "rock and metal", it was exactly the kind of music the band was playing.

So I will go at the school of music on Saturday to try !!!! I


"Sport is health". Of course.

On thursday, I had a lesson of aikido. I am just a beginner, so I don't know how to fall without hurting myself. The sensei told us to start an exercise and I was with a girl that practices for years. She didn't know I was a beginner. She put me onto the floor, I didn't realize anything, but I fell on the right side and my head collided with the floor.

Today, I am wearing a scarf all the time.