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"Four steps" : Chapter Four

Chapter Four

Red leaves. Again. I am so fed up with them that I do not even try to resist. I let them brush against me, I let them touch me, caress me, wind round me…

And suddenly, they all fall down.

In the space of several seconds, I realize that I am now in a completely different landscape. High above, the vault of heavens is shining with thousands of glowing stars, all around me, the plain is stretching as far as the eye can see. Pure air is filling my lungs, wind is silently grazing blades of grass…

And the plain disappears.

Someone is shaking me. I open my eyes. Nora is looking at me, visibly worried.

“We have a problem…”

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"Four steps" : Chapter Three

Chapter Three

We have been walking for hours. A pale sun is declining on horizon, and a fresh breeze has begun to whisper evening words. Nora is still walking ahead, but she let my hand go of, with the result that I am steadily slowing down, imperceptibly. My eyelids keep closing, despite all my efforts. My legs are so weary that I cannot prevent myself from stumbling over a stump at any moment. I am so tired… Like a sleepwalking, I follow the delicate sound of Nora’s steps. I am dreaming awake…

Or, should I say, I am lost into my deep thoughts. The fact is that I do not dream anylonger. Because I have nothing to dream about. The whole morning, I have kept trying to remember what happened before my awakening in the forest, unsuccessfully. I forgot everything. I cannot remember my name. I cannot remember my family. I cannot remember the places where I used to live. I forgot my past. I forgot my life. I forgot who I am…

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"Four steps" : Chapter Two

Chapter Two

Four steps. I am dead. That is the only thing I know by now…

Four steps. Strange sensation of being pulled out of my body.

Four steps. I feel light, ethereal, nearly flying.

Four steps. At the same time, I begin to feel the hand of the woman ahead in mine. It is warm now. It is soft. I cannot explain it, but I don’t feel sick anylonger, walking besides her. I feel… so much better…

Suddenly, I stop. There is something odd. Like a vibration. It is regular. Or, not exactly. It is speeding up. I try to find its origin. I listen. In vain. Then, with a cry of surprise, I realize that the vibration is inside me : I can hear my heart beating again ! My breath has come back too. I am waking up to life again... Or is it… to death…?? The woman turns over, and she says, smiling :

“It is always amazing, isn’t it ?”

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"Four steps" : Chapter One

Chapter One

Skies. Black skies above me. Scraps of clouds fraying in the pale light of a cold dawn. I am lying down, in the depths of an autumn forest. A dying forest... A breeze is whispering across the foliage, tearing out bright red leaves which glide a moment, then reach the floor with a ultimate sigh... I feel so sad...

A sound. I turn over. A shudder runs trhough my whole body. Someone. There is someone. Hiding behind a willow. Still. I sit up with a cry of pain. It hurts. So much... Every move is hurting. As if I was completely rusty. How much time have I been sleeping here... ? Slowly, I get up. It hurts. I stretch. Pain has disappeared. I look at the human silhouette behind the trees...

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"Four steps" : Introductory Chapter

Introductory Chapter

Darkness. Darkness and silence. Oppressive and complete silence. Cold. My body seems to be frozen. My eyelids are so heavy...

Darkness. Still. But this time, I can feel something else. Something different. In the air. Around me. Something moving. Who is here...? My thoughts slide into nothingness again...

Darkness. Something is getting closer. I can feel it. Slowly. I can even hear it now... Fear. Anxiety. Doubt. Hope. Fear again. Steps. I feel so weak, so tired...

Darkness. This is very near by now... Please, leave me alone... I am so tired... I am falling asleep once again... NO ! Wake up. Just wake up...I concentrate. With a superhuman effort, I open my eyes...


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Stolen, boring...

I have no iPod, so I put MANUALLY all the songs in Windows Media Player, it took me a lot of time, and there are 7 hours of songs ! There are many and many songs, but WHY are there so many songs of MCR in this quizz ??? They are three percents of what I put, so why does it always choose MCR ? I have a wonderful computer ! :D

1. What do people assume when they first look at me?
S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W - My Chemical Romance :) (Am I so terrible ?)

2. What will be a big challenge in life for me?
Sunday - Cranberries (the week end :D)

3. Am I a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
Planetary GO - My Chemical Romance (I love all the planet ??)

4. Do I have a Secret Admirer?
All you need is love - The Beatles :)

5. Will I ever become manically depressed in my life?
Eight days a week - The Beatles (OH NOOO ??? So much ??)

7. Is someone trying to kill me?
Sing - My Chemical Romance (I swear I don't do it on purpose)

8. What is my sexual preference?

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My Morgane !

Here is my first celtic harp ! It is called Morgane, and it has 34 strings. It is 9 years old. I looove it. I went to Paris last week, to see it at someone's home. And I bought it. And I carried it on my back in Paris, in metropolitain and RER. And I took the train with it, sitting next to it. I have been holding it in my arms, against it... It was hard, my back still hurts a lot, but it was so magical... I don't regret. It sounds very well, and it is in a perfect state.



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1. How old will you be in five years? 27.
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? My boyfriend.
3. How tall are you? 1m63
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? A concert of my band in December (OMG I am afraaaid), this is the first one for me as a singer.
5. What’s the last movie you saw? Real Steel at the cinema.
6. Who was the last person you called? The osteopath.
7. Who was the last person to call you? My parents.
8. What was the last text message you received? No cell phone.
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? The driving school.
10. Do you prefer to call or text? Call.
11. What were you doing at 12am last night? Playing music.
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married.
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? Two weeks ago.
14. What color are your eyes? Green-blue-brown-grey.
15. What time did you wake up today? 10.00 am.

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Searching for a friend...

The title may look ridiculous, but that's it. My only friends now are boys. I spend very good time with them, we play video games, role playing games and all, we do stupid things, they drink and I am laughing at them, they are really cool. And yet...

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Good news

The first one : I sang this afternoon, and I SUCCEEDED ! It wasn't so bad and I found it sooooo cool !! It is a so wonderful sensation ! I love it. I really love it. It is just one more step on my way to meet the person I am wishing to meet. A little step, but a step after all. The road will be long, but I believe in it. Just wait for me.

The second one is : I made a cake, it is just DE-LI-CI-OUS ! With pumpkin, walnuts and orange... Thank you God for having created a recipe like this one. This is just... unreal sensation when you eat it ! So, a good day ! If only I walked in the street and saw Gee, it would be the best day of my life ! :) But I am in France, so far, so it couldn't really happen. Too bad, but a good day though.


PS : As we say in french, about something wonderful, here about the cake "il envoie du steak !". XD