Second chance animal's blog

So I'm on the bus with two people I HATE! One is a kid who stalks me. No kidding. He literally told my BFF that he likes me. (UGH!)
Anyway he and his brother are on my bus.
Today they drove me fuckin nuts.

I had to sit near them. (Dear god never again.) I had a really pissy conversation and it went like this.

Nick (Stalker): Hey Rebecca (He says my last name too. GRRR!) do you like Jack?
Me (Pissed): Are you annoying? YES!
Nick: You do like him?
Me(Really pissed!): UGH NO! (Jack's a friend. He gets bullied alot so my Bff and I hang out with him at lunch)
Nick: (another question. Not sure what it was because my music was way too loud.)
Me(Ready to flip them off if not for the bus driver): Why do I have to talk to you?! Oh wait I don't!
Danny(Brother): Talking (Music still too loud)
Me: (*Bla bla bla with my hand*)

I don't know why I hear voices in my head
I don't know why I don't fit in
I don't know why I'm different
I don't know why life is shit
I don't know why I CAN'T pay attention in school
I don't know why my bird hates me
I don't know why school starts at 7:30 andI have to get up at 6:00
I don't know why teachers watch me like I'm a timebomb
I don't know why my friends all pick on me

I do know...
I will never fit in. I'll never be normal. i will be different. I can always turn to my horse. My friends will be there when I need them. I won't ever grow out of it.

MOST OF ALL I KNOW IT'S MY LIFE AND NO-ONE (NO WAY NO HOW) IS GONNA CHANGE THAT!

~NightHawk
(I had a pissy day and I need to complain)

So you know the whole thing where supposedly Justin Beiber (Beaverface) got some woman pregnant? (I feel really bad for her don't get me wrong but this conversation I had with my mom is funny.)
My mom: So supposedly Justin Beiber got some women pregnant.
Me: Really? *sarcasticly*
My mom: Yeah which is weird because I thought he was gay
Me: He probably is. I mean let's look at the facts. He looks like a girl. He has his ears peirced. He has that haircut. He has his own brand of nailpolish or something like that.
My mom: He has nailpolish? Really.
Me: Yeah.
My mom: He's gay
Me: Yep.

(I don't have anything against gay people either in case anyone takes it like that. I'm just making fun of Beaverface)

(he he I'm bored.)
Go to iTunes/iPod and use shuffle to find the soundtrack to your Life Story:

Opening Credits: Basket Case- Green Day

Waking Up: Skylines and Turnstiles- MCR

First Day At School: SING- MCR (ha I wish)

Falling In Love: It's all Over- Three Days Grace (???)

Fight Song: Look Alive Sunshine- MCR (eh)

Breaking Up: The only hope for me is you- MCR (Shit it should be something else)

Life’s OK: Drown- Three Days Grace

Getting Back Together: Fuck Off and Die- Green Day (That's off..)

Wedding: Wake me up when September ends- Green Day

Birth of Child: The sharpest lives- MCR

Final Battle: Just like you-Three Days Grace (ookay)

Death Scene: Burn- Three Days Grace (ah ha finally one makes sense)

Funeral Song: This is the best day ever- MCR (huh)

1. All the people who ignore me and are always laughing and smiling. (A lot of the time about and at me and my friends)
2. Being the outcast
3. Not being able to listen to music
4. The L.A. teachers who are asses
5. The math teacher who is determined to confuse me
6. The fifth or sixth grader who stalks me
7. Having a grand total of five friends. One who lives in another town and one who barely even talks to me anymore and one who is an on again off again friend.
8. The people who try to be my friend and once I tell them a single thing they tell the whole universe
9.The people who laugh when I try to be different
10. EVERYTHING!

Ok just as I think things will get better they get worse.
1. One of my friends ever talks to me anymore
2. I think my fucking dentist is trying to turture me
3. I don't even feel better when I listen to music
4. My mom acts like I'm three. "You can't walk down the road by yourself."
5. I'm completely ignored at school.

Ok so probably only a few people know what I'm talking about but my story Demolition Lovers has been put on hold. Well not exactly. I've just been writing it in my notebook instead of typing it and I lost power last Saturday and just got it back like an hour ago. Grr fuck you snow.

Next they postponed Halloween! YEAH THAT'S RIGHT THEY POSTPONED IT FOR A WEEK! I ended up having to go as a vampire because my pit bull costume ended up looking like shit. Not like I'm too upset... I like vampires. In a way I am one because when I scratch myself on a wall (happens more often than you'd think) or whatever and I bleed I actually drink my blood and I like the taste. But whatever...

In case anybody was wondering which I doubt they were the next chapter will be posted within a week.

~NightHawk

I just found out that a series of books I'm reading only comes out with one book a year. I just read one tonight and the next one doesn't come out until 2012. Fall 2012. Drives me nuts. I mesn I'm trying to write books (well trying to get them published) and it did not take me a year to write a book. Except for the first one I ever wrote which took like two years but...
Back on topic I hate waiting. I have no paitence.

~NightHawk