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I'm crazy

I can't stop cutting. I thought I was done a month ago but then my friend betrayed me and I just keep cutting. Then I drink the blood.

~NightHawk (I just want my life on track! Oh well I'll write a song about it.)

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Hmm can't decide if today was good or bad

On the one hand I got my iPhone finally. Yeah!

On the other hand got nailed in the face with a soccer ball in gym and I got into fights with my school guidance counselor (DRAC!)
So I wear my ray gun jacket and she flipped. I mean really.
So here is the conversation. (this is at our wweekly lunch group)
Her:"You can't wear that jacket."
Me: Glare "Why can't I break dresscode everyone else does!" (no kidding, you should see the sluts in my school)
Her: "They haven't been speciafically told not to wear it."
Me: Sits with mouth open in disgust
Her: "You can either take it off or turn it inside out."
Me: Glare
Lilly: Ok here's the shocking part. This is the betrayer and she defended me by telling Drac lady about a slut who was wearing a super bad shirt, like bloody and everything
Her: "Oh ok" Indifferent
Me: Thinking "I will kill you."
Anyway she made me take it off but as soon as I left her office I immediatly put it back on. So ha! But she has it out for me.

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Hmmm I hate school

I can't stand it anymore! I WANT OUT! I don't know how I can stand another couple weeks. I want summer already!
I mean don't get me wrong I'm not one of those people who goofs off every year a month before school's out. But this year is different.
So many things have happened, being depressed, losing my best friend, cutting and then getting over it, and a bunch of other stuff it feels like it's been forever. Way longer than any other year.
I just can't even focus on schoolwork anymore and my teachers seem determined to make it last as long as possible. Especially my L.A. teacher.

~NightHawk (I WANT OUT!)

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Stolen (because of boredom)

1. Who was the last person to call you baby/babe?: Um I think my Dad like two years ago.
2. Anyone crushing on you? : ?
3. What is your relationship status? : Single
4. Has anyone ever sang to you?: No
5. Has anyone ever given you roses?: No
6. Who do you text the most?: Satan's Angel
7. First person to text today?: Angel
8. What color are your eyes? Brown
9. What is a compliment you receive often? Um I don't get compliments.
10. Who was the last person to say they loved you and when? Don't know
11. Do you like your parents? I guess. Well my dad drives me nuts but my mom's ok most of the time
12. Do you secretly like someone? Not unless you count horses.
13. Why did your last relationship end? Never had one
14. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone? No-one
15. Who was the last person you kissed? No-one
16. Do you like funny people or serious people? Um a combination?
17. What are you listening to? TV

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Oh Yeah!

I got my friend Satan's Angel into MCR. She claims she doesn't like em that much but she has Teenagers and SING and she texted me saying she was singing Na Na Na!

~NightHawk(I am awesome)

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Someday (song I wrote)

I live in a hell
Everytime I talk they yell
They treat me like nothing
I'm always wrong
They're always right
Just another fight
And someday it'll all just fade away
I'll be alone
But I'll be home
I won't be ashamed
To be myself
And to be me
No matter what they want me to be
It's just another fuckin fight
So I won't be back tonight
You're the poison
The poison in my heart
And it's not my fault
But someday I'll be gone
Yeah and you'll miss me when I'm gone
But someday I'll be gone
And I won't come back again.
Someday I'll be gone.

~NightHawk (you steal this, you die!)

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Hmm amazing what a little betrayal does(also looking for name of a band)

Wow because my ex-friend betrayed me I'm writing a lot of songs. It's really weird. I've written three.
One's about betrayal. One's about a friend who thinks they can control everyone and the last one is about leaving family behind.
Yeah they're all depressing. So anyway I've decided to start a band. First I have to find other people who are interested though. (so if you are message me or leave a comment)
And on another note I'm trying to think of a band name.
So I've already come up with some. Let me know what you think or if you have any suggestions.
Dark Angels
SilverLining
Till The End
The Enemy Within

~NightHawk

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Hey I just worte a song!

Yeah! Now I need to learn to play my stupid guitar in my closet and out music to it. I don't feel like typing it up mainly because my laptop's dying but it's basically about losing friends, saying goodbye to them, and even when everyone tells you it's okay you know it's not.

~NightHawk (Yeah I'm in boredville)

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Life is just... I don't even know

I just can't think straight anymore.
Everytime I try to think and understand something I want to scream. Everytime I feel like I'm finally getting a handle on my life something happens and I want to start cutting again and usually I do. Then I lie about it.
Everytime my life seems to be getting better something horrible happens and I usually break down. And yet sometimes I welcome the pain. I enjoy it my own sick twisted way.
Sometimes I want nothing more than to get over myself and get on with my life and sometimes I wanna curl up in a ball and never face the world again.
I just wish I could be a kid again. I would kill to be ten again. Back then (ha has it really only been 4 years?) I never had to worry about anything. I was always happy.
I mean not always but a lot more often.

~NightHawk

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Ok wait a second.

If I go into edit all my info is there so wtf?