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my father really does not give a fucking shit about us, his kids.

He is selling the house I spent ten years in and make it visit while we are there. Shit dude. He could wait . He could do it only when we are at mom's house.

But he doesn't. Because the only matter is him.

To fucking bad right ?

anyway it's always the same. We are not a real part of his life.

Well this is definitly not the best drawing i'v ever made.... But I did it with fucking paint.net and i'm not good at drawing with comps. I'll soon post a homemade version of the characters if I can have access to my scanner.

But here it is : Those are the character for a comic I might draw with a bit of the black parade concept.

If you wanna ask me questions about the drawings the characters the story or anything.... Do it in comments

Dude That shit is pretty sick.

I didn't even remember I wrote them....And I hardly remember the melody :)

but :

fence

today's society, trapped us, suffocating us ....

We are all in the fence of political correctness.

We can do everything.

In the space of the fence.

Because your freedom stops where the other begins.

We all live in our own world
We walk on each other feet
We can't think in this insanity
We don't give a damned when we meet.
We are so blind
And when you try
to be kind
We treat you like a sucker
we are all looser

and so what ?

Today's society, trapped us, suffocating us ....

We are all in the fence of political correctness.

We can do everything.

In the space of the fence.

Because your freedom stops where the other begins.

They say, come on !
We won't eat you
But when you come
They're gonna fool you.
We live in a world
Where big bad wolf
Is shoot
By little red riding hood

And what about

Because I am a stupid brat,
this morning when I went to my mom's house to get my swimwear for the sport at school,
I decided that i had time left and that i could have a cup of coffee (well it was a mug but who cares ?) .
So I poured the delicious coffee...and I drank it.... But I didn't eat anything and the night before I had slept something like 5 hours...( Not my fault I just felt like watching L.O.T.M.S).

I guess the coffee was too strong or something, 'cause I like it black ya know....Very black.

And then I went to school.

at the begining it felt great...I had that energy that strength....And because my teacher was missing I didn't have class in the afternoon.

But I went to the english class....And my hands couldn't stop trembling.

The world was fucking shaking....and I could not speak without stuttering.

This I can stand it....

But then things were shaking even more....And my mouth was trembling....And I wanted to barf...And my tummy hurt.

So they told me I should go to see the nurse. That's what I did. She gave me some food. And told me I could not going to sport like this.

So I began class at 9am and finished at 10 am....

But I feel guilty.

Hope my parents won't heard of this....Because I don't wanna say "goodbye coffee...."

i know I'm a coffeholic. (and a cocaholic....But that's another story.)

D.E.S.T.R.O.Y

Drowning in a world of desillusion, it kills your faith believers dead ! to the end...
*Evil people hiding behind your back trying to killing you in the night
*Strangle by the monster under my bed oh it hurts can't stand much unafraid
*Terror is the reason that they gave you , and so what ? all we need is to fight !
*Rare are the people that will help you, they are killers they are fuckers they know you...
*Oh! horrible things 's gonna happened to you let's hope vampires forgive you !
*You're the one i love and I will find you I Will kill you I will hurt you

soo

Destroy me Destroy me destroy my body
*take off my skin i wanna feel the sin
*destroy me destroy me destroy my brain
*you may eat it , you may take it ! I wanna be zombie

Devil 's eyes those fucking brats are always watching you... give'em hell eat their brains, i'll show you how to do....
Even monsters can't help you, they are tired they are scared you can't rely on them.
Struggle has just start, honey where is my gun ? I will need it I will use it ! I swear I kill a lot.
Terribly tired is how I feel terribly needed is what you are. Don't leave me ! Rely on me you're the only one for me !
Rules the world and killed my brothers take my hand follow the leaders.... i'm alone and i don't care i'd be better than you anywhere.
Oh ! All the things I would have told you all the cuts I would have made you in my dreams....

You looked like a goddamned angel but felt like hell with that knife in your hand

sooo

destroy me , destroy me,
destroy my body
Teake of your skin
I wanna feel your sin baby

Destroy me , destroy me
destroy my brain
You may fill it with pain
I don't care since you love me.
if ya love me destroy me.

If you love me destroy me
If you love me destroy me
If you love me destroy....

If you love me destroy me

Oh my goood don't worry people I'm not anorexic....I just hate having breakfast And I was sleeping at lunch time....

But ya know I eat :)

I just ate chilli :)

Happy to know this, isn'it ?

But my tummy till aches :(

I'm ruining my own body. i don't sleep, I don't eat, I just drink fucking coffee.

I hate myself for treating my body like that....

Like hell my tummy is aching....

I should eat but I'm not angry. I'm starving and when i'm starving my tummy ache and that's all.

AAAAAAH FUCK THIS !

I should eat something....

It's like looking through a dirty window
Can't really trust it, can't go through it
And can't really see outside
There's only this window and then I'm free

But I can't break it
'cause I feel so weak
For me would ya do it ?
Remember you saiiid

I won't let anybody touch you
I won't let anybody get you
They won't take you alive
And we will survive
I am taking care of you !

***

But that was wrong
and i'm alone
and i can't stand it aymore
I'm so tired
i'm so upset and I swear it
I don't deserve it

***

Remember it when we were holding hands
walking together
happy for ever
in our own twisted world
That hand I held
I thought will never leave me

But you walked away from me
I couldn't follow you
My hands, so goddamned cold
Since you left me....

remember you said

***
I won't let anybody touch you
I won't let anybody get you
They won't take you alive
And we will survive
I am taking care of you !

***

But that was wrong
and i'm alone
and i can't stand it aymore
I'm so tired
i'm so upset and I swear it
I don't deserve it

I remember yesterday when we were
Walking in that place
but you were restless
I dindn't understand why
In the sunset it was the time for your last...Cigarette
I remember that smell
You said i'll give'em hell
You can run honey....
They won't run after you....

and you said

***
I won't let anybody touch you
I won't let anybody get you
They won't take you alive
And we will survive
I am taking care of you !

***

But that was wrong
and i'm alone
and i can't stand it aymore
I'm so tired
i'm so upset and I swear it
I don't deserve it

here , sad and alone
insanity the only one
with me
in my head
the roses you gave
the promesses you made
are watching me like ghost from a not so distant past

The time you were saying
you love me , and having
feelings...
The time where you were
that strong hero
always next to me
here to make my troubles
go awayyy

When I closed my eyes I see mickey mouse...

haha this is getting weirder and weirder

That's it.... waiting mcr 's contest all night long killed me.

But my biggest mistake was to not gonna sleep this morning and overcaffeinne myself instead..... i'm a stupid moron .

I' can't stop trembling, i feel like I'm gonna barf and the simple idea of eating something is just revolting to me....

And you, how do you feel ? :)