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First Post of the Year!

So what better way to make this post then make it of Obama's 2013 Inauguration Speech?! hope the next four years go swell!!

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College!! >.<

hey guys :/ so college applications are coming up and im freaking out! i barely have a 3.0 GPA so i dont think i will apply to any UCs. as for the impacted CSUs i will apply to only four. im for sure going to apply to Privates and Out-of-States. one of the schools i really want to got to is Smith College which is an all women Liberal Arts school. but idk if i'll tell my parents about it because they dont know im bi and the stigma about "being a lesbian by going to an all girls' school" is basically what they think. IDK WHAT TO DO!!! >.< and i already have two FAILS on the first report card of senior year!!!!!! T.T i have 3 APs on one day :/

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im not dead!!! x)

so finally after four months i think i am on here again!!! from time to time i would check the news and see if there was anything new with mcr but i never logged in becuase i would always be busy! but today i have the time and the drive to come on here!!!

sooo Update---
i am totally living and dying in my senior year of high school (cant wait to get out!) and i basically cant wait for Conventional Weapons to slowly arrive!!! xD Seriously though, senior year sucks!!!! its so stressfull and i am totally having nightmares about college applications :[ so i'll write more another time...

until then!! *Stay Ugly<3*

~transmission exploder xD

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long time no blog!!

i totally havent been on in a long time!! ive been real busy with school and my lame teenage problems and "sad" life.
im trying to keep up a 3.0 for the junior trip that my school program AVID takes us on and its proving to be very difficult!!
my sister had an episode; meaning she basically wanted to kill herself and wound up in a mental hospital for a coulpe of days. that sucked.
my parent are still doing their drugs and we all hate it but my siblings dont want to bring it up to them. i really want things to change with that.
i myself have been diving into a deeper hole of self loathing and pitty. i guess u could call it depression but i cant bring my self to go the next step and commit suicide. it sucks and i really dont feel happy.
i laugh and smile at school,around friends,at home, and basically in public life. but i feel like utter shit and i find myself never having a sane moment...i things will change.

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Gerard!!!!!<3

so i know im a bit late to the party but HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERARD!!!!! XD so you and the band has been my life line for so long but i really appreciate all ur talent and i hope u have an awesome 35!!!! XD <3

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Gerard!!!!!<3

so i know im a bit late to the party but HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERARD!!!!! XD so you and the band has been my life line for so long but i really appreciate all ur talent and i hope u have an awesome 35!!!! XD <3

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grades O.o

so my grades came in andi have 3 Fs in core classes!!! i tried my hardest but APs are killing me!!!! >.< now my dad says im an idiot and my mom just thinks im a total fuck up! im really not liking all this and its so stressful!! and tomarrow im signing up for the SATs T.T

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forgotten by friends?

so i'll be honest, i feel a little lonely n forgotten by my friends at school. i saw on facebook that one of them said "i miss-blah,blah,n blah! we should all hang out and have fun! i miss you guys and i love you!! xD" that kinda hurt cuz i wasnt included :[ i thought i was really close to that chick :/ they all havent really talk to me either. idk wat to do when i go back to school :(

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forgotten by friends?

so i'll be honest, i feel a little lonely n forgotten by my friends at school. i saw on facebook that one of them said "i miss-blah,blah,n blah! we should all hang out and have fun! i miss you guys and i love you!! xD" that kinda hurt cuz i wasnt included :[ i thought i was really close to that chick :/ they all havent really talk to me either. idk wat to do when i go back to school :(

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because im a bored lame-o :D

i stole this 4rm sum1 but i took off some Qs cuz there was a lot!! lol

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
hmmm not really,it was fun :]
3) Do you believe in God?
i believe that there is a higher power but not a dude named god who had an illegitimate kid named jesus.
4) Who last said "I love you" to you?
my ex gf who was my first relationship.
5) Do you think they regret it?
i really dont know,it was last night after we said our goodbyes on the phone :]
6) Have you ever been depressed?
of course! Almost every kid has lol
7) Have a best friend?
a couple i guess :)
8) Are you a boy or a girl?
gal :]
9) What is your relationship status?
taken...but not for long lol
10) How do you want to die?
haha i answered yes 2 being depressed n i get asked this? lol well hmmm in a memorable way :]
11) What did you last eat?
a cookie i made on christmas :>
12) Play any sports?
ha! w/ my coordination?! no x>
13) Do you bite your nails?