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OHMYFUCKINGGOD!

DID YOU HEAR THAT?
HOLYSHIT, I THINK, I THINK IT WAS MY HEART BREAKING! (again)

Guys, seriously, i am so upset right now.
I am hurt, dissapointed, angry, frustrated, upset right now. Words ca't even describe how depressed i am that Bob's leaving.
My hands are trembling and i can't stop crying.
I don't even know how i'm able to type right now because thoughts are going through my head a million miles a second right now.
I can't even talk.

Bob, among the rest of MCR is the main reason I'm still alive, and i'm really grateful to that.
I was on facebook today when I read my friend's status that said " Bob :( "
I panicked, and was worried he hurt his hand even more,
I rushed to mcr.com and read what Frank had to say.

I had to read it a thousand times to understand it, because i just couldn't think.
I burst into tears.
It might even seem to others that i'm over reacting or whatever, but you don't understand what i've been through.

Kaay, so I haven't blogged in eons, but HERE'S what i've been up to

I've been, SAD.
(Well, technically, I still am, but yeah.)

Why have I been sad? Well, my brother has recently have surgery on his leg, and i made the huge mistake of being there while it happened, because I'm REALLY sensitive about seeing blood. (suprisingly, btw)
When I heard the killer scream he let out, I couldn't take it.
And I STILL can't get the sight or his scream outta my head.
And now while the nurse is upstairs at my home (i'm in the basement) changing his gauze and stuff, i'm listening to King And Queens by 30STM trying NOT to puke. (awesome song btw)
Aaaaand, I have to say, i'm doing pretty well.
So kudos to myself for that.

OH, and I've also been thinking of that comptetion thing (the MCR poster give-away thing.)
How many of you commented?
I did:)

GOSH, I was thinking of what I would do if I won.
(Which i'm probably not going to eitherways, because COME ON, they recieved ALOT.)

Sometimes I think my parents fought because of me.
If it weren't for me, they'd be living a perfect life.
Then I realize, what the fuck?
If it weren't for me, their life would be a fucking wreck.
But now they're still fighting and calling each names and shit.
They can't see what it's doing to my brother and I.
They're too selfish in their own little world.
Now I know, Every couple will fight in their marriage, but I don't want them to fight so much they get a divorce or something.
Because at this rate, they way they got on each others nerves, it looks like it.
Sometimes I'd give anything in the world just for us to get along.
I'm not used to seeing them fight, we used to be such a great family.
We used to tell each other everything, and now it's just back-talking or swearing, and I REALLY don't like it.

1) Who is the last person you high-fived?
Karan.

2) If you were drafted into a war, would you serve?
DUDE, no way. Peace, is RIGHTOUS.

3) Do you sleep with the tv on?
No.

4) Have you ever wheezed the juice?
No.

5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?
Yeah, bee.

6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?
Nope.

7) How fast can you type?
Quite fast, thanks.

8) Are you afraid of the dark?
Uhh, not unless i've been watching horror movies.

9) What color are your socks?
Pink with blur stripes and yellow dots.

10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in?
Uhh, i don't think so.

11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
Last night.

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Fiiiiinally, FOURTEEN!

Idk why though, I don't really feel like it's my birthday.
OMFG, THATS WEIRD.
Cuz like, I don't FEEL any older.
And DAAANG did I party. HARD.

Lotsaaa Muuuusicc and FOOD! aND GAMES, AND FOOD, and MUSIC, AND FOOD.
Sooooo yeah.

My friends and I got SOOOOOOOOOO hyper.
Well, I still am, but Yeeeeeeeah.:)

OH, And I keep forgetting. Like I'll post a blog then once I publish it, i'll go 'OMFG, i TOTALLY forgot to tell them something."
But yeah, anyone that has facebook and wants to add me, go right ahead:)
Michelle A. Relle Bryar.
Aaaand Twitter, too.
chemxromanced
ADD UP! (:

If..you want...LOL

I'm bored.
HERE'S ANOTHER BLOOOG.

Sooo yeah.

OH, almost two more days till my birthday.
DAMN, anyone have ideas for a party i'm throwing?
OHHH, and can anyone explain to me why the fuck so many people are suddenly like "oh fuck, you suck" to others on their recent blogs?
Cuz, well, i've been reading some blogs and they HAPPEN to mention something about a fight. Explanations, people?
Don't fight, please. I'm not going to go through the whole Mcrmy thing (which btw a lot of people have brought up, too) but i'm just requesting you guys not to fight.
I know we've all had some fucked up days, and bitches and bastards fucking our days up, but just don't fight.

Anyways, I went Christmas Shopping today. Got some pretty fucking awesome and hot skinny jeans from Urban Planet.
And a coat. I spent the WHOLE day at the mall with my boyfriend Theo, his twin sister Kaytlin and their elder brother Jaay.

Ohkay, so as usual I was sitting here for like 5 minutes trying to find out a title for this blog, and my friend made up one, and I was just laughing at it for another 5 minutes.
AND, I was supposed to be doing homework, but instead, i'm at mcrworld.
Howwlaah.

OHKAY, so my birthday's in like 4 DAYS. (the 15th for the people who can't count, LOL)
OMFGSH, so I was walking home today, and i stopped by the mailbox since I haven't picked up my mail since mcr's first album(exaggeration, people) and i see my awesome neighbour drive up in his car to pick up his mail too.
here's our convo:
Me:"Oh, hey George."
George: Hey michelle, sup?"
me: nothing much, it's just SO fucking cold!"
g: need a ride?
me: what if you kidnap me?
g: but i wont.
me: ok, but watch out, i'm keeping my eye on you.
g:*laughs* ok.

Ok, ^THAT^ was a random title, but I was sitting here for like, five minutes trying to figure out a title, so i just copied what it said below MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. (The top of the page, people.)

SOO.
I'm super pissed off right now, because well, remember how I wrote (in my previous blogs) that I have to finish a english essay on a book called Cue For Treason? Yeah, well, now i have to fucking PRINT it.

Aaand, Since my printer hates me (non-living things can express emotions too, okay.) it's being a total fucking asshole and it ran out of ink.
This happened last night btw. And I decided since it was so late at night, i would print it at school today.
I go to school, all happy and shit, walk to the entrance of the school library, and what do I see?
A motherfucking board that says "SORRY, LIBRARY CLOSED ALL DAY."

Oh, Fuck My Life.

OOOOhkay, peeps.
BLOOOG TIME!:)

Ohkay, so i'm REALLY tired right now, cuz i JUST came back from the mall.
I went with my boyfriend, his twin sister and his elder brother.
MY LEGS HURT.

But that doesn`t really matter because I`M DONE MY ESSAY!!!!!
(For those of you who didn`t read my previous blog, i have an english essay due monday, it's about a boring book named cue for treason, and its 2 pages long)
So YAAY *does little happy dance*
I'm so happy.
Aaand, my neighbour, is having a REALLY LOUD PARTY, is soo annoying, even though he's hot.
He invited me over, but i'm too tired and lazy to get off my ass.
Soo yeah.
Errm, what else?
ZOMG. i dropped my iPod (4th gen) and its acting REALLLYYY WEIRD.but idk if its because i DROPPED IT, or because if its low on battery.
(I'm guessing its BOTH)
Soo, thats my only FML thing, today.

I'm having another FML day..
My dad`s being an ass.
When he can`t find something, it`s always ME he`ll be yelling at.
Even if i didn`t do it.
If he gets pissed off for some god knows reason, he`ll get all bitchy and shit. FML.

PLUS, I have an english essay which is due on monday, and because I am procrastinator that i am, i haven't started it. FML
I'm pretty sure i've failed my math test, which sucks because i was finally getting my grades to improve. FML.
Oh, and speaking of math, I've lost my scientific calculator which costed SHIT amount of money. It was a rip-off, but i was desperate for a calculator. I have no clue WHY, but i was. Oh yeah, it was because i was failing math. I accidentely left it in my desk at school last week,
and when i searched for it the next day, it wasn't there. It isn't much of a FML thing, but still. FML.
Aaaaand it kinda snowed today in 'Canada, Eh' so that was pretty depressing because it reminded me of the canadian winters.