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Cher Madison, Pourquoi n'avez-vous jamais répond plus! Je suis si seul sans ta voix ça me tue lentement. Comme un silence empoisonné. Vous refusez de reconnaître que je n'existe plus! Alors que faire si elle m'aime! je n'ai jamais dit que je l'aimais de retour! je ne suis pas tricher sur vous et comment puis-je vous tromper si nous ne sont même pas de rencontres? que sommes-nous?! Jusqu'à présent, je pense que nous sommes plus que des amis qui sont fixés sur la éléphant dans la pièce mais ne disent rien à ce sujet. pourquoi mon chéri .... pourquoi ...

this is in french

Cher Madison, Pourquoi n'avez-vous jamais répond plus! Je suis si seul sans ta voix ça me tue lentement. Comme un silence empoisonné. Vous refusez de reconnaître que je n'existe plus! Alors que faire si elle m'aime! je n'ai jamais dit que je l'aimais de retour! je ne suis pas tricher sur vous et comment puis-je vous tromper si nous ne sont même pas de rencontres? que sommes-nous?! Jusqu'à présent, je pense que nous sommes plus que des amis qui sont fixés sur la éléphant dans la pièce mais ne disent rien à ce sujet. pourquoi mon chéri .... pourquoi ...

Losing this war

All chances of hope...crushed. Gone. Not there. Hopes for high school, ruined. Its just another freaking hell hole that will hound you like no one's business. Sounds just like this school. My hopes of having a relationship were sparked up again, but its still like a hurricane came a my bonfire man...smoldering and soggy. I'm losing it. I feel ugly because my scars take up most of my right arm. And against my pale skin they stand out ugly, jagged, and dark. How is she gonna love me when my arms looks like it was mauled by Edward Sissorhands with perfect accuracy?

June 1st, 2012

The night that was suppose to be awesome and epic and completely make me smile in joy and rainbows for weeks? It made me cry myself to sleep and dig a little deeper. First of all, my date. The one i spent forever working the nerve to ask was too scared of the public to do anything outside of barely friends (as of to not give the public the wrong ideas that we are not the lesbians you are looking for). That crushed me, killed me, shatter my hope into tiny pieces. The hope that nothing would go wrong.

Where's the love?

DUDES!!!!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE "FAMILY" THAT WE ALL ARE? No one comments when they should, and when if they do, they adviod the problem. Ya know, some of us dont have suppor off the screen, so we need it on. Why can't you guys just stop being scared and comment. Do't silently acknowledge!!!! the author can't see you then!!!!!!!!!!!! tell them something anything. even if its "It gets better" send them a message, reach out. who knows, maybe you'll save their life. Maybe you'll be a hero, but ya will never know if you try so cut the shit and start acting like a fucking family!

once upon a...you know the story

Dear Everyone,
I am a terrible person. I am such a terrible terrible person. I have an almost girlfriend, yet i almost want to be back with my ex because for someone reason, anyone i know. cannot express affection other than a smile but what do smiles do when thats all you get? I feel like a slut for wanting to be back with him, but i cant change that fact and it drives me insane.
A few nights ago i had a dream that i went down a rabbit hole with my almost girlfriend (m1 for everyone who gives a damn) and she got drunk and tried to kiss me, but then i saw my ex over

I love you....just kidding

So my best friend pops up out of the blue and says "Joey (my ex) likes you better." I am kinda shocked by this. We broke up over 3 months ago and since then he's dated this best friends bgf and my best friend. But Amani (best friend) told me this. "Think of joey as a light. With you he was big and bright. With everyone else, he's a match in a rainstorm" It scares me a little. I knew he loved me but never this much. Whcih is really confusing becuz i'm somewhat unoffically dating Madison (my crush) plus my horoscope and tarot cards both told me i would be happy with a pisces or a cancer.

Poetry

I love Andrea Gibson right now. and Ani DiFranco. They help

"Thanks for the venom"

I just want to thank you guys so much for the support i got from my Bisexual prom post. So my hat is off to you awesome people out there. All the freaks and music junkies! Woot woot for the lovers and remember Hatters are only haters

"As you distilled your life down to a 911 call"

So i have a date to my dance. But i'm terrified on telling my parents...I'm thinking of not telling them. Cause thats the awkward moment when you have to explain to your Catholic parents that the "he" they wanted...is the "she" they don't. I'm going to the Dance with Madison which (if you've been paying attention) has been my crush for over 2 years now. She finally admitted to likeing me. Its like...mindblowing. Anyway, i know my mother would be open with that...but my father might make me barrel roll out of the car. Which i will totally do. I hate my dad. True story.

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