Ravan VanSlaughter's blog

1. I'm in no way good looking
2. I'm not skinny like "normal people"
3. I have scalp psoriasis (it itches like crazy, is a compleat turn off for the boys and T-gel DOESN'T work, well for me it doesn't anyway)
4. I'm very hard to please (I don't take an intrest to most things and it's very difficult to make me smile)
5. I'm not talented (I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't draw etc...)
6. I'm not smart (I'm a failure in all my subjects at school and had to re-take the whole year and after my exams I feel like I've failed again)
7. I'm very self concious about my appearence and the way I act when I'm happy (for some reason people don't like me when I'm having a good time, they think I'm "weird" and should stop)
8. I don't open up well to people and when they finally get the reason why I'm upset out of me they judge me and laugh at my pathetic reason
9. I get aggressive WAY too easily, if people piss me off there is no way I can control my actions

When someone asks me: How are you?
I want to answer: Broken, useless, alone, clueless, confused, betrayed, fragile, on the verge of tears, depressed, anxious, about to break down, ready to give up, pathetic, annoyed, I'm just a burden, distant, lonely, bitter, heartbroken, lonely, rejected, crushed, I feel like I'm about to fall about apart, empty, deafeated and never good enough.
But instead I answer: Fine

I don't believe it, I WON'T believe it, 35?! No Way! Nu huh *shakes head* Ray is NOT 35, he can't be! He doesn't even look a day over 20 =O
AnyWay happy birthday you sexy guitar God, hope you have a great day =)

(Teenagers by MCR comes on the T.V)
Me: There's my husband (points to Ray Toro on Teenagers music video)
Mum: What you like that guitarist?
Me: Yeah, he's sexy
Mum: But I thought you like him (points to Gerard)
Me: Yeah I do but I love Ray more
Mum: (waits half a minute) so you like Sideshow Bob then?
Me: -.- he's very talented and you'd be lucky to have a son in law like him
Mum: ....

I think I won =)

MCR + Blood + Zombies + Hot girl killing zombies = AWESOMENESS!!

Ever seen A Serbian Film?
DON'T!!!!
I mean it!

I'v been doing some dream analysis in Psychology so if anyone wants me to analyse some of their dreams I can. =)

But mine just get weirder and weirder but they make sense when I think about it. For example, last night I dreamt that a vampire bit me and when I went to look in the mirror I saw the bite mark and I had fangs, but my reflection started to fade.
Apparently, it's bad luck to dream of a mirror, especially if you see yourself. It means that you doubt yourself or if you see someone else in the mirror you may want to question their trust. So it could mean that I'm losing faith in myself (which I kind of am) and a dream of a getting attacked by a vampire means that I'm suffering from stress and probably feeling hemmed at work. Which I am, with being at school all week and work at the weekends and getting hardly any sleep. And my cats were also in my dream meaning that I'm being decived by one of my friends...

Frank tried so hard to block out the horrid screams, the torturers laughed as they their prisoners writhed in pain.

The seven deadly sins are:
Lust
Gluttony
Greed
Sloth
Wrath
Envy
Pride

I think I'm more Wrath, since I get angry very easily but I'm a little but of Lust and Envy too, well my jealously tends to make me angry so those two link together perfectly.

But what about you?