Purple Killjoy's blog

There is yet another science project on the schedule these days. I must design my own roller coaster with a theme, a name, and it must be unique. And she specifically said we should relate it to something we like or something we're 'nerdy' about. So, of course, I'm just like, 'MCR TIME.'
Now, I as a little iffy about it at first because I was already making MCR relate to everything else in school. Did I REALLY need to do it again? Well when the teacher let us go to think about it and start sketching, one of my kind-of-friends who sits behind me (and also like MCR) said, "Hey, Spencer, you should do a My Chemical Romance one!" So at that point, I knew I had to.
Thus, THE BLACK FESTIVAL! It's gonna be sweeeet. xD
I will post a picture when I'm done, which isn't gonna be for a couple weeks. And even then, if it sucks, there's no way I'm putting it on here. Haha. :P

Had to do a presentation in Social Studies today on the original colony of New Jersey. We actually scheduled to present tomorrow but everyone was so fast today, my group got to go. And, well, we didn't do that great. xD
Curse my quiet public speaking voice! I don't know why, but when I talk in front of the class, my voice gets really quiet. I'm not nervous or anything, but my voice just sounds so muffled in my ears and I SOUND loud to me. When in reality, no one in the 2nd row could hear a word I was saying. I had to repeat myself, and my friends talked the rest of the time. xD
Our info was a LITTLE off, but I would give us a B. Not our best work. But, hey, our teacher only gave us a week to work on it. So it wasn't like this was all drawn out.
I don't know why but I felt like sharing that. Probably just bored. xD Later gators!

10 months ago, I rediscovered My Chemical Romance after 5 years. Everyday since then, my love for Gerard, Ray, Mikey and Frank as grown stronger. Today was the day I finally realized something: I'm part of this. I'm part of whatever the hell this is...this...army.This MCRmy. It's wonderful; it really is. I really fit in here. I've never felt so normal, so...able to be myself. I put on a different act for my friends, my family, my teachers...everyone. It's tiring.

It's a nice, beautiful sunny day.
I don't know why but I wish it was raining. I feel like it should be raining.
Am I crazy?
Yes.

I'm so confused...I feel like I'm turning into my sister. It's a long story...

When I was seven, my sister was really into The Black Parade and Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge. Because we shared a room, I was forced to listen, too. And because I'd hated everything my sister liked up until then, I had to pretend I hated MCR. Eventually, she moved on, and so did I. Ten months ago, the day after my 13th birthday, I rediscovered MCR and fell in love all over again. Since then, they've been my life.
But that's not all. My sister is REALLY into Harry Potter and she always has been. I was never too fond of it myself, but I didn't quite hate it either. Bottom line, I had never given it a chance. But she kind of ruined it for me when she forced me to listen to her read it aloud to me. Well...the other day, after finishing reading my favorite book series for the second time, I checked out the first Harry Potter book and...I kinda like it.

I can't help it! It just HAPPENS. Lol, well today in social studies we played jeopardy to study for the test on Wednesday. We got into teams, and when we were told we had to pick a team name, me and my friend turned to each other, smiled and said, at the same time, "the kllljoys". xD It was awesome.
When we told the teacher our team name, a girl who I don't talk to very much said "OH MY GOD!" Lol she got it! I feel compelled to mention it was her birthday today. But anyways, I love her now. Haha
Oh, and does anyone else seriously HATE their usernames now? I totally regret mine and wish I could change it. -.- I don't even know what I was thinking when I made my account. Bleh.

So I got over my depression issues and stuff a few months ago, and I was finally feeling happy and normal again. And today, for some reason, my best friend and I (she was the 1 out of the 3 people I told about it) were talking about suicide and stuff all day. Mostly because one of my other friends, who I also told, might be going into depression again because she's being home schooled this year. ANYWAYS, today at lunch we were talking about it and I was with one of my other friends. And she's like one of my best friends, but she's the friend I can just laugh with and be funny with; not the one I tell my depression and suicidal thoughts issues with. I accidentally let it slip that I was depressed and wanted to kill myself and her eyes got all wide and she looked at me like I was a dying puppy she found on the street. God I hate that look. And that's exactly why I don't want anyone at school to know. They'll treat me different.

Anyone else ever notice that sodium on the periodic table of elements has the symbol 'NA'? I thought that was pretty awesome, so I chose sodium for my element project due on Friday. Yep, we only got a week to work on it. But it's pretty easy; I just have to make a superhero based off an element on the periodic table. We have to draw it (easy peasy, pumpkin peasy...) talk about its weaknesses, it's powers, enemies...stuff like that. I think I'm the only one excited about it because I have some pretty cool ideas for it. My science teacher said we can make a theme song for it if we want, so I'm going to do 'Na Na Na' but replace 'Na' with 'sodium'. It's better than it sounds, lol. But yeah. Mine's gonna be epic. :)

For my Halloween costume. I wanna dress up like a soldier in the black parade for Halloween (or should I say 'Ieroween' :P) but I'm, like, broke. On eBay the jacket is $80 but shipping costs like ten bucks. So it's 90. And that's ten more dollars I don't have.
So I need ideas on how to make money in the next 3-4 weeks. I go to a K-8 school, so my customers are pretty widespread age wise. I need something I can totally make at home and something VERY cheep, if not free to make. Any suggestions are appreciated! :)

I have it. O_O And I feel like the only one, but fish are fucking creepy! I think my grandpa scarred me when he bought me a my sister goldfish and mine got sick and turned a weird yellowish green color. Then it just sat at the bottom of the bowl and stared at me with its' crazy fish eyes. EEEWWWW. That was a long time ago but I still get creeped out.
What weird phobias do you have? I'm bored, so....share. :P