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It was an ugly feeling. Like and evil menacing laughter, screaming,"You stupid, gullible cunt... Did you really think he would like YOU!? Pfff, whatever!" I am what i tell myself i am... :'(

I need to know where Gerard got the dye for his hair because i really wanna dye it that way. I can't believe it's gonna be out November 22nd. Thats a whole MONTH after my b-day. I'm re thinking what i want to be for Halloween. I might be a KillJoy and have ray gun in my hand. And have the words,"Official Killjoy" on my forehead. What are yall going to be for Halloweenie?

I just withdrew from Connell MS. So i come home, feeling moppy and sad. I decide to get on the internet. To be specific, i wanted to post a blog about how i feel on the website. So i type in mychemicalromance.com and this video pops up..... My fucking brains splattered all over the walls... It was fucking SHINY!
The next time someone asks me what i want to be when i grow up, i'm going to say,"I wanna be a muthafuckin' KILLJOY, BITCH!"
who else is with me???
Ghosts and Vampires,
Madi

Now that MCR has finally posted something and gave me reasurrance that they all didn't go insane, i feel the need to blog. I have lots to say. Lettuce break the ice.
New school year. Yay! New album coming out soon. Double yay!! Half my sanity back. Triple yay!!! Yes it's true. The summer gave me a whole new perspective on life. Good and bad. But that's what you get when your mind is wired like mine. Through out the months i've grown a love for various genres of music. So i'm not 100% rockness anymore. Call me Queen!
So this school year i'm certain to be a bit more optimistic and not so crazy. That's almost impossible for me and with this sudden revalation that i'm schizophrinic, life is about to get much harder. I try to do my best but it's like life keeps pulling me down. I have a sudden case of writers block so there's littrealy nothing coming out of my brain. Hopefully the recent news about MCR will give me a bit of inspiration. So i leave you with a haiku :)

I ruined anything i coulda ever had with the guy i like. I had to be honest and tell him that<"I'm sorry I had to love you." TOMORROW'S MONDAY!!!! I h ave to see him at skool! What am i gonna do??!! WHy didn't i listen to everyone and just get over him???????????????
Because i couldn't.... I liked him too much and didn't care what anyone thought.. And u don't regret telling him your sorry... Now he knows... And u like it that way...He never was gonna get with you... You just wanted him to know someone out there loved him.. If he doesn't care then he doesn't fucking care... But u care, Madelen... you care. Ur gonna walk into skool with ur head held high. Felling proud..
I have a habit of answering my own questions...
Ghosts and Vampires,
-Madi

Okay so here's the thing. In my last blog i mentioned a guy i like. His name is Seth and he knows i like him. But he doesn't like me as i said in my last blog! My bestie Tony told me that. I don't know what to do! I'm so shy around him and i don't have the balls to go up and talk to him cuz i know he'll know i'm only talking to him cuz i like him. Hes not hot. On a scale of that pregnant man to Gerard Way, hes about a Christopher Mintz-Plasse. the skinny guy from Super Bad. I really really really like him! But i can't really do anything...... He likes this girl named Brittany Gomez-Perez. She's.........decent. Certainly prettier than me. But... I just.... Don't have any more options. I'm afraid i might do something drastic to get him to like me.... So i decided to go to my fellow MCR fans 4 advice. What should i do? Should i let it be. Or should i keep holding on... Please tell me. I 'm willing to do anything right now. Ur psychopath,
-Madi

Since i'm so patheticly bored with my life i want to know what's going on in yours. The question of the week is who do you like. I want to know the back story. Here's mine: It was 2-24-10. After school in the front. The whole gang was there. And HE was too. He was leaning up against a van. I have van,he says. You're to young to have a van,i reply. My dad owns it, he aims back. Well then! I see you as more of a modern day muscle car kinda guy, i say in pure day dream pointing to a dodge charger. Ever since then..... But he doesnt like me. Cuz i'm ugly and he just doesn't like me. As said by my bff and his bestie Tony. The deppression is a thunderous roar. And the rain has only started to fall..... But i'd love to here your story. How you started liking him/her. How you guys met. It's really intresting....
-Madi

Ok so it's not exactly a leak cause these were posted by a MCR band member. But still
Here are eight of the umph number of songs on the new and un released MCR album:
Still Alive
Save Yourself
The Only Hope For Me Is You (i really wanna hear this one!)
Trans Am
Death Before Disco
Kiss The Ring
Black Dragon Fighting Society
Drugs
All songs gotten from Ray's Blog. "I don't mean to step on the dog..." but i heard from a little Ray bird tell me that these songs will probably have there names changed. So..yeah.
But in other news..... I know every single lyric to every single one of MCR's songs. Do you?
If you don't... then you suck. But if you do, CONGRATS! We have something in common. Please talk to me..... Any weasley, Can anyone recommend some music to me that isn't emo(not that i have anything against emo people but i'm tired of it already!) and isn't Hannah Montana? PLEASE!!! Thnx a bunch.
-Madi

Have you ever just stopped listening to MCR for a while but not on purpose? Then one day, while you're shuffling through your iPod, you come across an MCR song. Then you get totally into them again?..................... Well i did.
Happy Easters everyone!!
And a Happy early birthday Gerard!

No it's not. Honestly. Srry to burst ur bubble nerds, but it sux the Mans ass! I mean....... UHHHH!!!!!! Wat ever.... as long as i still got the music, spirit and the energy im as happy as Ray was in that video of his. So wat hav yall MCR luvers bin up to??? Eh.... little socializing....
I hav this picture my friend drew on my journal that says My Chemical Romance (wat else?) and my friend Coby said," What's My Chemical Romance?" And i was like,"No wonder ur lost my dear friend. You hav not bin blessed with the harmonic vocals of Gerard Way, The rocking bass of Mikey Way, The lead guitar solos of Ray Toro, The back up vocals and crazy hands of Franky Iero and The blasting beats and crashing symbals of Bob Bryar!" He looked at me like i just said sum weird foriegn language. He is currently in rehab. Listening only to MCR.
I luv it when that happens! :D
gotstaluvya!<3