Geez. I just thought I was gonna go on here and be sad that they're gone. But hey, found this tool. Sweet. Glad it's back.
It's funny... I said that I don't have time to just sit around and hang out because I need to focus on school. Apparently, that translates to "I actually have some kind of hidden motive or intention and just don't want to hang out with you." and because of mixed messages, my friend called me out for something totally wrong and I couldn't deal with it, so I said "I just need a step back here, this is weird and kinda crazy" and basically she again got mixed messages and I ended up being this bad person. How does this all happen? I mean what I say.
Here we are, all of us playing the waiting game. All of us just frozen in time, seemingly moving but at the slowest rate. It's like watching a movie frame by frame. The nerves found their way and lost it in the pit of my stomach. The knot is the tightest it's ever been. I'm dancing amongst the masquerade and my face is soon to be revealed. It's who I always was, who I'll always be. It's not a perfect face, but it's not completely horrible, though I think so all of the time.
Tonight is a night that I will never forget. I want to scream, cry, and curl up and never move again. Yet somehow, I'm surrounded with that sweet, but unnerving calm. No one saw this coming. I felt it and kept everyone and everything at bay. I just need to let out the fire in the pit of my stomach. I know when I open my mouth, I'll be unleashing two whole years of displacement. I never wanted to see the rest of my life without this person, but they're suffocating me anymore. I can't even spend more than a few hours with them. It's just not what it used to be and I can't handle it anymore.
What's everyone's txt tone of the time of current? I just got a new phone shipped to me and now I have to put a better txt tone than the default "droid" tone they have. So I was wondering, what is everyone's txt tone for now, or what was your favorite tone that you have had. (Same issue for ringtones...)
Do what your heart tells you. Forget the world. Lose your mind. You'll be just fine.
[x] smoked (not cigarettes)
[x] consumed alcohol (almost on a daily basis, I'm of age...)
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex (couches count, right? didn't do anything. Just slept.)
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
 had sex
[X] had someone in your room other than family
 watched porn
 bought porn
 tried drugs (I don't include weed. I don't count that as a drug)
TOTAL SO FAR: 6
[X] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[X] lied to your parents
[X] lied to a friend
[X] snuck out of
1. Any scars? Yeah... one. I keep a wristband over it to help me forget its there. It was done on purpose... long time ago.
2. Crush? Yeah, but not possible to even be friends with them.
4. Kissed anyone? Get me drunk enough, and maybe.
4. Coke or Pepsi? Neither. I hate soda.
5. Someone you hate? The only one is myself.
6. Best friends? Kim.
7. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? I drink, but I'm 23... lol. I can count on one hand how many times I've tried weed.
8. What's your dream job? I used to think it would involve music... now I'm not so sure what I want anymore.
9. Ever been in love?
I've had something on my mind that I need to get out. No one knows me on here, so it's a pretty safe place to say it. I'm just like you, dammit. I've got no room in my head either. I was kicked out a long time ago by a stranger who pretends to be me. They look like me, sound like me, doesn't quite walk like me, but even talks like me... sometimes. I know you've been going through this just recently, but this is what I HAVE been dealing with. I'm lost too. I'm broken too. I sometimes feel like a broken soul can't help another broken soul.