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2012 Reflection Time

So, we didn't all die on the 21st. *yay*
As 2012 draws to a close I've found myself reflecting on what a year it's been. I started this year as a naive, small, little girl listening to stupid crap on the radio. I'll come out of this year as a tall, confident, music-loving girl who wears her battle scars like crowns and sings for everyone to hear. 2012 has been full of ups and downs, it's been the year I found myself, the year I found my favourite bands, everything. Sure, it wasn't too nice at first but I pulled through and now... now I feel quite good about myself...kinda.

I've changed so

Rise Of The Guardians

I went to see it on Friday and it was realy good! I loved it (and Jack Frost) and I would definetly recommend it. :) I drew Jack Frost and am currently writing a fanfiction because I am such an overly obsessed fangirl. :) Have any of you seen ROTG? If so what did you think of it? Please tell me. :)

The Light Behind Your Eyes

I bought it off iTunes and fell in love with it immeadiately. Not just this song, but Number Three in general. I was reminded why I love MCR, and I fell in love with them all over again. That song... it strikes a chord in me and has such a deep and personal meaning. I can't explain how much I love it. It's just so perfect, the chord sequence, how the chords are played, the melody line... it's actually my favourite song. Normally I have a list about five pages long but TLBYE, it's just above everything else. It's so amazing and I love it so much.

I am weak

I've had issues with depression, self-hate and self-harm in the past, and I thought I was getting better. I have someone I can tell everything to, and I feel extremely priveliged to have that bond in my life. But sometimes I don't use it. I've learnt to just chew on it until it's small enough to swallow, but two nights ago it all came crashing down. I hated myself. I was weak for SHing, I was a coward, everything I could think of I called myself. My dad just told me that 'it's not good enough.' I don't hate myself, I just feel slightly sad now.

My life is so unbelievably sucky right now. :(

I feel like my life is falling apart. And it's all my fault. Do you know how shit that makes me feel? Here's basically what happened:

My best friend told me my second-best friend 'didn't want to be friends with us anymore' because people were saying crap about her 'cause we're practically the most uncool people in Year 8. So we're upset, we cry a little for about a week when she then tells me she didn't say what she CLEARLY said. So I text my best friend saying that someone's not telling the truth here. And she took that to mean I thought she was lying.

Issues with my life...

There are many. I'm gonna list them.

1. I hate myself.

2. I hate a lot of other people.

3. My second-best friend chose popularity over me after spreading rumours I was a lesbian - while I was still her friend.

4.. My best friend in the whole fucking world hates me because something I said came out wrong. D'x

5. I keep crying.

6. I never feel like I'm good enough.

7. The guy I wanted to be a guitarist for my band left school.

8. I feel so alone...

9. My eyes are stinging from my eye-makeup remover.

10. The person I've known for longest in my life I don't know anymore after she moved to LA

Fall Out Boy and Conventional Weapons

I've found that I actually know some Fall Out Boy songs. After the FOB thing in Kerrang! I decided to youtube some of their songs and I know Thnks fr th mmrs and This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race. They used to be played on the radio when I was younger, and I just recognise them. :)

And OMFGASDFGHJKLZXCVBNMQWERTYUIOOPCEYGFUHBNAFIUVBRUOFGBVJU JUST HEARD BOY DIVISION AND TOMORROW'S MONEY AND THEY ARE FUCKING EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Dies from sheer awesome-ness and MCR-ness* I don't know if I'm gonna be able to get them, if they

Could someone read this please?

So I've got an account on wattpad, for those who've never heard of it before it's an online community for reading and writing books. But it's kinda a social networking site as well? Like you can talk to people and fan (friend) people and I've recently started writing this Jared Leto fanfic called I Am Finally Free (taken from the song Attack) and it'd be really cool if you could read it? I know it's a lot to ask but it would really mean a lot. :) That's the cover over there, if you didn't guess. I like it, it's probably the best cover I've ever made.

Kerrang! Tour 2013

Read about it it this weeks K! and I have to say, I WANNA GO!!!!!! I had a look on where it says the tickets are on sale for and they're £16.50 - I was quite surprised at that. I was wondering if I actually could go, I probably could, there's a date on a Saturday in Liverpool, that'd be better than going on a school night or a Sunday and being shattered the day after. O.o I could see Black Veil Motherfuckin' Brides! They're one of the four bands I wanna see live - My Chem (obv), 30STM, Green Day and BVB! :DDDDDD

FUNNY PIC!!!

XDDDDDDDDDD I found this like, 30 seconds (to mars) ago, and I LAUGHED MY FUCKIN ASS OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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