Narcotic aura's blog

I don't want to be angry but Matt Pelissier's tweets are making me that right now, i had to unfollow him the other day cause i didn't like what he was saying but a comment someone else showed me made me have another look and honestly i'm shocked. Fair enough have you're own opinion but when that opinion is hurting other people just stop. I understand he's been hurt by them and there are things he isn't allowed to say but he's trashing their memory and honestly i'm pissed about it. I used to respect him and when he followed me back on twitter well i could have died of happiness but now i feel hate and i don't like feeling that way about a past MCR member i really don't :( He's even saying nasty things about Gerard's letter and being thanked... Sorry guys i don't mean to rant but i just had to get that off my chest, and if you still love him then i'm sorry to you too but if he's allowed to have an opinion then so am i. Go read his tweets for yourself.

MCRmy XO

Gerard has confirmed it only minutes ago on twitter with a beautifully written message but honestly i feel worse than before cause even though deep down it was in fact over i had a sparkle of hope it wasn't and now i feel as though my heart has been torn from me and it hurts so much. I'm crying harder than ever. I wish all of them the best of luck in whatever they do and hope they live happy amazing lives! I still love them and no matter what they are my fucking heroes and always will be. And to everyone who gives them hate can take a look in the mirror because if it wasn't for My Chemical Romance they probably wouldn't even be there to judge them. They deserve so much respect for these past 12 years it's unbelievable, Love them and the MCRmy so much!
I would be really grateful to have someone to talk to though cause i am struggling with this :(
One last time: KILLJOYS MAKE SOME NOISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Three Cheers For 12 Years Of Chemical Romance!!!

I'll do my best to sum it up; worst 3 days of my life.

This morning I had a funny turn, everything felt strange and scary and i couldn't feel my legs, plus i felt really sick in the car. I thought i was having a bad reaction to my medication ( fluoxetine ) so my mum immediately took me to the hospital, and after 4 hours of waiting i had an X-ray and an ECG but everything turned out ok thankfully and it wasn't a reaction to my meds which i'm happy about it turns out i had just fainted although now i'm even more anxious, scared to take my medication and still feeling really ill :(
xo

I did my first life drawing class today and obviously nothing could have prepared me for seeing a middle aged naked woman.Me being immature smirked a few times but other than that i'm proud of myself for not bursting into fits of laughter. And because i have the worst luck in the world, i was the only person who was positioned to the very side of her so, yes, i saw everything >-< whilst everyone else was set up behind her so all they saw was her ass. It was 4 hours of standing up so my feet and back are killing me also my shoulder, honestly though i spent most of it with my earphones in and basically stood staring everywhere but at her tbh i did do a pretty good drawing though for my first time :)

I'm reading it for the millionth time because i'm in love and therefore i' addicted! lol =]

Today's Kerrang! was well... WOW! MCR5!!!!!!! <3 It was my first day volunteering at a shop where all the funds go to the homeless, it was kinda good cause all i did was sit upstairs with my earphones in, eating polos and hanging things on hangers. I did 5 hours straight and hadn't eaten a thing but it was still cool i guess plus the woman who runs the shop had the exact same problems as i do when she was my age so we talked for like an hour about it, plus she loves Green day and The Ramones etc So now i help out there 3 days a week for 5 hours.

Today started of kinda shitty cause when i went to the comic store it was totally cool and fun until they said they can't order the MCR Killjoys comic until it's actually released which basically means when they do come out i won't get one because i'm seriously unlucky and they'll run out.