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long time no see huh?

Wow, it feels like forever since I've been on here...
My life has gotten a while lot better:)
First of all...I have a girlfriend, and believe me when I say this, she is frickin amazing:)
I've found out who my true friend are, and I've gained a true best friend who I know I can turn to about everything.
I've become more open towards my sexuality
I feel a lot more fit and healthier,
Basically, I'm in a good place with myself right now:)
I'm currently watching the Shining, and i can't help but feel 30 seconds to Mars referenced it in the music video for The Kill. Can anyone verify this?
I'm still on rough patches with my mom though, I honestly feel like she cares more about my stepfather than she does for me....this was just a quick update so expect more blogs!<3:)
Love you guys!

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update on my life

Well, the rumor is still spread around school so the girl and I have been talking to the guidance counseler almost everyday, Even a person who I thought was a good friend asked a boy"Did you hear that Tyler is a lesbian?" And when I confronted her about it she said he helped her out so she told him! Its like she was rewarding him with gossip for helping her!
I'm still throwing up, not a lot but I'm still sick.
I'm determined not to kill the three red butterflies on my wrist this time.
This is really it, and I'm starting to develop insomnia:(

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happy dance invoked!!!!:):):):):):);:):)∞

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

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happy dance invoked!!!!:):):):):):);:):)∞

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

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happy dance invoked!!!!:):):):):):);:):)∞

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

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happy dance invoked!!!!:):):):):):);:):)∞

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

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guys really? I

Okay, #cutformikey? Come on! Look its his own personal life and i think we should just back off and calm down. First, no one even knows the entire truth! This is being based on assumptions. Secondly, where did this even start? Finally, Im stating this again, its his own personal life! What he does with it has nonthing to fo with us!

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Whats on my mind...

This is just whats been on my mind...my weight im trying to lose weight, im 4"9 and 113lbs...my sexuality, i honestly like girls mom, a lot more than boys, its not just a phase, its not for attention or shock value i honestly just do. My guitair, ive really been neglecting her,ifeel really bad about it....friends, i have some, but no one i can really talk to or confide in...lgbt day of silence,april 19 2013, im doing it but i dont know how to tell my family....my weight again,my diet......school,just ughh...How horrible the world is, its so ugly, children are being senslessly killed,gangs are striking every day,government corruption, people polluting the earth without a second thought, snimal abuse,etc,etc...and finally...a sense of deppression, that always comes from no where.

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things are getting better

First, I wanna thank everyone who messaged me and commented on my last blog, it truly helped.
Things have gotten better, when I came home, its like it never happened, sure they might talk amongst themselves but its never addressed to me. Things have gotten better. <3 I love you all:)

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forced to come out of the closet :( help

Today was full of tears. A rumor was spread a few weeks ago that i asked a girl i liked out(not true) today a paren called my mom and apparently said she felt uncomfortable with her child around me(which probabky isnt true) my mom said shes going up to school to sort this out and said i better not be hiding anything or id be punished...ultimatly i was forced to come out. I dont even know what i am yet! Now im at my dads house for a week because i just couldnt deal with hearing dont tell anyone ekse you like girks, gurls are going to be awkward around you, this is just a phase, females shouldnt like females, this is just becayse your into tegan and sara, you have no mind of your own. Im so fucking stressed....and in tears! Help me, someone