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im back(again)

Things have been pretty stressful.....
I releapsed this month, I've been having panic attacks, and my anxiety is worse than ever with the prospect of starting a new school year at an entirely new school, I also have social anxiety which really doesn't help this prospect. I miss our family, everything seems so loose, like no one's bothering to check the site. I may not have posted, but I have most certainly bothered too continuously check the site. Are the moderators still here even?

Anyway, I may be able to see Paramore performed on their Self-Titled Tour. Might any of you know the age limit? I really want to see Ptv,Atl, and ADTR on the House Party Tour, but they aren't coming near me so.....
But it's nice to be back:)

music martyr's picture

im back(again)

Things have been pretty stressful.....
I releapsed this month, I've been having panic attacks, and my anxiety is worse than ever with the prospect of starting a new school year at an entirely new school, I also have social anxiety which really doesn't help this prospect. I miss our family, everything seems so loose, like no one's bothering to check the site. I may not have posted, but I have most certainly bothered too continuously check the site. Are the moderators still here even?

Anyway, I may be able to see Paramore performed on their Self-Titled Tour. Might any of you know the age limit? I really want to see Ptv,Atl, and ADTR on the House Party Tour, but they aren't coming near me so.....
But it's nice to be back:)

music martyr's picture

im back(again)

Things have been pretty stressful.....
I releapsed this month, I've been having panic attacks, and my anxiety is worse than ever with the prospect of starting a new school year at an entirely new school, I also have social anxiety which really doesn't help this prospect. I miss our family, everything seems so loose, like no one's bothering to check the site. I may not have posted, but I have most certainly bothered too continuously check the site. Are the moderators still here even?

Anyway, I may be able to see Paramore performed on their Self-Titled Tour. Might any of you know the age limit? I really want to see Ptv,Atl, and ADTR on the House Party Tour, but they aren't coming near me so.....
But it's nice to be back:)

music martyr's picture

im back(again)

Things have been pretty stressful.....
I releapsed this month, I've been having panic attacks, and my anxiety is worse than ever with the prospect of starting a new school year at an entirely new school, I also have social anxiety which really doesn't help this prospect. I miss our family, everything seems so loose, like no one's bothering to check the site. I may not have posted, but I have most certainly bothered too continuously check the site. Are the moderators still here even?

Anyway, I may be able to see Paramore performed on their Self-Titled Tour. Might any of you know the age limit? I really want to see Ptv,Atl, and ADTR on the House Party Tour, but they aren't coming near me so.....
But it's nice to be back:)

music martyr's picture

im back(again)

Things have been pretty stressful.....
I releapsed this month, I've been having panic attacks, and my anxiety is worse than ever with the prospect of starting a new school year at an entirely new school, I also have social anxiety which really doesn't help this prospect. I miss our family, everything seems so loose, like no one's bothering to check the site. I may not have posted, but I have most certainly bothered too continuously check the site. Are the moderators still here even?

Anyway, I may be able to see Paramore performed on their Self-Titled Tour. Might any of you know the age limit? I really want to see Ptv,Atl, and ADTR on the House Party Tour, but they aren't coming near me so.....
But it's nice to be back:)

music martyr's picture

im back(again)

Things have been pretty stressful.....
I releapsed this month, I've been having panic attacks, and my anxiety is worse than ever with the prospect of starting a new school year at an entirely new school, I also have social anxiety which really doesn't help this prospect. I miss our family, everything seems so loose, like no one's bothering to check the site. I may not have posted, but I have most certainly bothered too continuously check the site. Are the moderators still here even?

Anyway, I may be able to see Paramore performed on their Self-Titled Tour. Might any of you know the age limit? I really want to see Ptv,Atl, and ADTR on the House Party Tour, but they aren't coming near me so.....
But it's nice to be back:)

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band spam thing

Hey, how are you guys? I'm fucking terrible, im depressed, which never mixes well with anxiety, some days i want to die. Some days i want to relaspe. I dont though, so....

Anyway, you guys should check out this band called ConquerDivide, they're releasing a single soon, and you can find them on instagram, twitter, and facebook. Theyre all girls too:) I couldnt go to comic con this year, tell me your experiences. Should i dress as Sweeny Todd or Batman this year(sorry for tge randomness, distracting my mind is a coping technique) anyway, its late and im tired...
Love you guys:)♥

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here's johnny!!!!(tyler) oh and more info about the wwmmb please?

So.....how have you been(I expect an answer)

Anyway, sorry I havent been online, I've been really sick and tired and depresed. But here I am, still runnin' but barely breathin'. Nonthing exciting has been happening, im still kinda depressed, im still drawing i still righting SCHOOL IS OUT!!!! It took so much out of me, and the fact that im going to a brand new one is adding unnessacary stress. And the fact that i am not a people person and freaks out in crowds does not help:p I still feel a little sick though, i have been throwing up, coughing, having light -headedness, headaches,etc. My doctor wanted me to take some tests and x-rays at the hospital, but my mom never got around to taking me? Can someone give me more info about the WWMMB? And who listens to Bring Me The Horizon? Its a great band.
Love you lillys:)

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relaspe

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let's keep this dice rollin':P

1. Any scars? Yeah, Mental and Physical
2. Crush? My amazing girlfriend!
4. Kissed anyone? Not formally
4. Coke or Pepsi? Water(sorry)
5. Someone you hate? Me, humanity
6. Best friends? Jordyn and Annika
. 7Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? I've eaten a rum candy...
8. What's your dream job? An artist,or something that allows me to tour with bands
9. Ever been in love? Not yet:)
10. Last time you cried? I dunno...
11. Favourite colour? Black,Blood,Forest green, Violet
12. Height? 4"9 (shorttie Mcshorttiepants:p)
13. Birthday? 11th September 2001
14. Eye colour? Soil brown
15. Hair colour? Reddish brown
16. What do you love? Music,Earth,Sleep,hugs,overcasts,rain,cold
17. Obsession? French toast
18. If you had one wish, what would it be? Unlimited band merch and concert tickets(and an end to pollution)
19. Do you love someone? Love is a strong word, but I really, really, really DO like you...
20. Kiss or hug? Hugs!!!!,