music martyr's blog

Why? This cant be, this band helped me through the toughest time in my life,why? I have made so many good friends on this site, i just hope they dont shut it down....if they do, this is my email-blackparaderforever@gmail.com
I wish them well at what ever they do from here.
I am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone....
Possibly for the last time,
So long and good night.
Full name-Tyler Fullilove
Age-12
Birthdate-9-11-00
Killjoy name- music martyr
I love you guys so much, im in tears right now, this is my second family, and always will be....

As the title says my first real swim meet is tomorrow! Im so excited!! Is there any thing else to talk about? Hmm...well my lack of sleep has gotten worse, i just keep waking up in the middle of the night,and the nightmares are co,ing back too,but wish me luck!:)

Wow, it feels like forever since I've been on here...
My life has gotten a while lot better:)
First of all...I have a girlfriend, and believe me when I say this, she is frickin amazing:)
I've found out who my true friend are, and I've gained a true best friend who I know I can turn to about everything.
I've become more open towards my sexuality
I feel a lot more fit and healthier,
Basically, I'm in a good place with myself right now:)
I'm currently watching the Shining, and i can't help but feel 30 seconds to Mars referenced it in the music video for The Kill. Can anyone verify this?
I'm still on rough patches with my mom though, I honestly feel like she cares more about my stepfather than she does for me....this was just a quick update so expect more blogs!<3:)
Love you guys!

Well, the rumor is still spread around school so the girl and I have been talking to the guidance counseler almost everyday, Even a person who I thought was a good friend asked a boy"Did you hear that Tyler is a lesbian?" And when I confronted her about it she said he helped her out so she told him! Its like she was rewarding him with gossip for helping her!
I'm still throwing up, not a lot but I'm still sick.
I'm determined not to kill the three red butterflies on my wrist this time.
This is really it, and I'm starting to develop insomnia:(

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

MY SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY DOING THE DAY OF SILENCE!!!!!! I have the goofiest smile on my face AND a gay friend today was a really good day!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, #cutformikey? Come on! Look its his own personal life and i think we should just back off and calm down. First, no one even knows the entire truth! This is being based on assumptions. Secondly, where did this even start? Finally, Im stating this again, its his own personal life! What he does with it has nonthing to fo with us!

This is just whats been on my mind...my weight im trying to lose weight, im 4"9 and 113lbs...my sexuality, i honestly like girls mom, a lot more than boys, its not just a phase, its not for attention or shock value i honestly just do. My guitair, ive really been neglecting her,ifeel really bad about it....friends, i have some, but no one i can really talk to or confide in...lgbt day of silence,april 19 2013, im doing it but i dont know how to tell my family....my weight again,my diet......school,just ughh...How horrible the world is, its so ugly, children are being senslessly killed,gangs are striking every day,government corruption, people polluting the earth without a second thought, snimal abuse,etc,etc...and finally...a sense of deppression, that always comes from no where.