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Im such a little ball of sunshine aren't i

You know i hate to post negative blogs but here i go. I still feel awful. I decided not to go to class today because one i didnt feel well two because it was too damn stressful with all my make up work and non make up work that i didnt get done. So that left me PLENTY of time to wallow in self pity. I dont know whats wrong with me. I cant get anything done one minute im apathetic the next im hysterically crying. Whenever i want an answer i google the shit outta my question. I research for answers and explanations. Its like i want something to be wrong with me. Who does that? Who wants to be messed up? I want a reason for what i feel. So i look for answers that i want which are actually answers that i dont want. Whats wrong with me!? I dont know. Maybe im over reacting maybe im pmsing maybe im depressed. I want to know! Its driving me crazier than i already am. I want answers and i want help. But i dont like the answers im finding and i dont know how to ask for help.

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I hate to do this but

I hate to post negative blogs but i i cant keep it inside me, i can feel the toxic emotions moving through my bloodstream tainting everything i do. I feel like crap. Everything is a mess i feel like im falling behind in everything i do i keep crying for no reason, i sleep all the time but i still feel tired and i never get anything productive done. Im failing and i know i am and it hurts but i make no effort to fix it and then i feel even worse because im letting all this happen. I feel like nothing about me is enough. Not smart enough not social enough not talented enough dont weigh enough isnt pretty enough doenst smile enough just overall not good enough. I hate posting these negative blogs but i needed to tell someone and i trust the people on this website. Sorry for being downer today.

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Can i tell you guys....?

Can i tell you guys a not so secret secret? I hate my body. I mean i guess its full functional but, i hate looking at it. Everyone thinks im anorexic or bulimic, BUT IM NOT. I look like a freak. No i look like a long haired boy with too much eyeliner. Actually theres no such thing as too much eyeliner i take it back. But thats not the point. I love buying pants because they are the only thing i like on me. But i loathe buying shirts. Im fucking sixteen and i have the smallest bra size available. Its like half of me forgot to hit puberty or something. Girls are like oh your skinny im jealous but they dont have to look in the mirror and see a twelve year old. Unless they are twelve. HELL i know twelve year olds with better figures! I look like a child. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I either dont look my age or dont even look human. Im not asking to be beautiful im asking to be normal! Why is that such a problem?

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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

SERIOUSLY, ITS BEEN LIKE 3 YEARS (did i do that math right?) SINCE DANGER DAYS CAME OUT AND IT JUST OCCURED TO ME TODAY THAT I NEVER CAME UP WITH A KILLJOY NAME. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!? I must be a special type of stupid after seeing other peoples names on here for years and not thinking maybe i should create my own. Anyways im not very good at things like names so i really need the help of you wonderful people to come up with one. So if anyone would like to suggest a name please do! So i typed this before and was told it didnt work so i tried again sorry if it repeats.

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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

SERIOUSLY, ITS BEEN LIKE 3 YEARS (did i do that math right?) SINCE DANGER DAYS CAME OUT AND IT JUST OCCURED TO ME TODAY THAT I NEVER CAME UP WITH A KILLJOY NAME. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!? I must be a special type of stupid after seeing other peoples names on here for years and not thinking maybe i should create my own. Anyways im not very good at things like names so i really need the help of you wonderful people to come up with one. So if anyone would like to suggest a name please do! So i typed this before and was told it didnt work so i tried again sorry if it repeats.

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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

SERIOUSLY, ITS BEEN LIKE 3 YEARS (did i do that math right?) SINCE DANGER DAYS CAME OUT AND IT JUST OCCURED TO ME TODAY THAT I NEVER CAME UP WITH A KILLJOY NAME. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!? I must be a special type of stupid after seeing other peoples names on here for years and not thinking maybe i should create my own. Anyways im not very good at things like names so i really need the help of you wonderful people to come up with one. So if anyone would like to suggest a name please do! So i typed this before and was told it didnt work so i tried again sorry if it repeats.

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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

SERIOSLY, I LOVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE AND ITS BEEN THREE YEARS SINCE DANGER DAYS CAME OUT (did i do that math right?) AND IT IS JUST OCCURING TO ME NOW THAT I DONT HAVE A KILLJOY NAME!? WHAT THE HELL!? I must be a special type of stupid. Anyways i severly lack in creativity soooo i could reallu use your help you wonderful people you! If someone, anyone could give me a suggestion that would be so fabulous and then i would no longer be angry with myself for not finding a name

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Little help pretty please?

Anyone know a good tab to kiss the ring? I unfortunately cannot play by ear and i cant find a tab for guitar anywhere :( so if anyone knows one it would be just fabulous if you could direct me to it

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XD

I bought a ukulele today! I plan on finding tabs to like mcr songs and rise against songs and playing them on ukulele! Its gonna be fun.

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Angry giraffe?

Ever seen an angry giraffe? I havent. They seem really relaxed. Like hey just gonna stand here eat some leaves admire the view with my really long neck. Like those are some tall animals, they dont care theyre just gonna munch on some leaves not self concious about their height at all.