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So I'm texting a Killjoy I know last night. She lives in the Chicago area and I have family up there in Calumet City. I said that the next time I would be up in Chicago for a visit, we'd just so happen to "accidentally" run into each other. So do you 'cago Killjoys think it's be awesome to "accidentally" run into each other if I were to make a visit up there. We thought it'd be fun to "just so happen" to all be downtown or somewhere at the same time on a certain day. I don't know when I'll be up there next, but is this a cool idea?

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

I felt like absolute shit today. The ironic part of it all? I had really happy songs stuck in my head. It was all NeverShoutNever stuff but I've been feeling so terrible. I bought carnations for 2 of my friends and 2 carnations for my kinda-boyfriend (you can check any other one of my blogs for that story). So I feel like crap and I'm pretty sure that I've got something cuz being this upset for 3 days then feelin' alright for 2 can't be normal. Shit.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

2 things: 1) I finally wrote 200 pages for the book I'm writing! :D 2) I love this song and it describes my life so well. And my character's lives. Plus last night, when I was texting my friend, I mentioned my guitar so he thought that meant I played electric. I cannot play my crappy acoustic what so ever. But I would love to learn cuz I heard he's looking for a guitarist for a band and that would be awesome! But I'd rather do singing. Cuz I love singing and being crazy (but no one's home when I sing).

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

I went to the mall to do some Law I homework with my friend and there's a lot of cute guys I wanted to talk to but my lack of social skills restricted me (along with my current relationship). I got some long awaited candy cigarettes. I got 2 packs and already I'm down to 1. These are very addicting and I need more! I feel like this sugar is the equivalent to nicotine and I'm seriously becoming addicted. o.o Plus i got new Batman headphones.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

2 things: 1) I get to see my best friends today from my old gym class and I miss them dearly so I'm so excited!! 2) ADAM LAMBERT IS THE NEW SINGER OF QUEEN!? So while scrounging the pages of Buzzfeed last night (my ultimate source for interesting information and cool junk) and I found out that Adam Lambert is the new singer for Queen!? NO! We do not do this to one of the greatest bands in history. That's like trying to replace Kurt Cobain!! You just can't do it; it's not right! So I'm all pissed off about that and about to go chop heads off because you do not ever replace the one and only Freddie Mercury.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

So me and my boyfriend are just taking some time as friends until things can get back into a groove again and we have more time for each other. We're still in a relationship but we're more friends than a couple. So last night, after we made this decision, my boyfriend called me completely wasted. He had been drinking cuz he feels bad about saying he just wants us to be friends for now. He downed 2 Four Locos and almost a whole bottle of vodka when he called (it turned into 4 Four Locos, a bottle of Skyy, and half a bottle of Bicardi). He tried doing a handstand, didn't know what day of the week Thursday was, called our friend thinking she was the pizza-man, and when I mentioned the killer hangover to go with his drinking, he slurred, "I didn't know you drank." Which I don't. He feels bad, but I think this'll be a good time to sort stuff out and come back strong and a time to collect myself and try to fix my problems. I shouldn't have been laughing at my drunkened boyfriend last night, but I couldn't help it.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

I've been worried about my relationship lately and I talked to my boyfriend just now and he said, "For now it'd be better if we were friends." I couldn't agree more! It sounds odd, but I agree. We're still in a relationship but we're just keeping it chill because things are so hectic. We don't get to see each other often and we don't talk much outside of school so until things calm down and we have more time for each other, we're doing this. He still cares about me and loves me more than anything in the world, but he said that until we can find more time to be with each other, we're just gonna lay low.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

So I've been a little worried about my relationship due to the fact we don't say "I love you" anymore and I don't know why. When I left school today, I kissed my boyfriend good-bye and said, "Love you." His response? "Alright." I seriously want to cry. I feel like everything is falling apart and I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to talk to him since every time I've worried about our relationship it's been nothing to be scared of (stress, frustration, bad moods, etc). But he said ALRIGHT! I don't want to ignore that. Someone help.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

Today was absolute shit. From about 2nd period until 5th I just wanted to cry my eyes out for reasons unknown. I felt really shitty and when I say it, I mean it. I wanted to cry like I never have before and the thing is, life it going pretty great so I was concerned. Then I found out my boyfriend wouldn't be at school so between everyone asking why he wasn't there and having no answer, I felt even worse because he wasn't there to help and I needed to talk to him (or attempt to anyways). I'm feel some what better, but all day I've been wondering if I'm depressed. I had to draw a butterfly on my wrist even though I don't cut I felt so down! That's fucked up. But I got some weird looks from preppy girl for my Danger Days fingerless gloves, so that made me feel a bit better.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)

So because of my pessimism, I'm worrying about nothing yet again. I'm freaking out because usually my boyfriend will give me little kisses but now he only seems to give me kisses when I'm leaving for class or the bus and we haven't said "I love you" in a bit. We say it before 1st period sometimes but after lunch and when I left this afternoon, we didn't say "I love you". I know there's nothing to worry about, but I really can't help it. Agh, I hate this.

XX Megan
(Lacey Genocide)