I watch this when I feel crappy, there's two parts but I can only post one :P
So I've come up with this conclusion. After several days of being extremely depressed and falling back into old habits, I stopped for a second at two in the morning today and said to myself,
"I am so tired of hating myself" and my repeating record of self beating up didn't respond.
I will admit that when I woke up the next morning I was depressed but I looked at this quote I had found a few days ago that went like this,
"I am, by nature, a dealer in words; and words are the most powerful drug known to man.”