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They speak of luscious roses,
fiery hearts,
blissful sunsets
and an everlasting bond.
Something so good,
no evil will break it,
rule won't tame it,
death can't take it.
They speak of love!
Sparkling partners,
golden rings,
good and pure.
Wanting me to believe,
it's the cure,
it's the aim
for a 'happy' life.
But, something so good,
so pure,
so magnificent,
shouldn't hurt so much.
I put it to you,
it does no help,
cures no ill,
merely sky high emotions.
This 'love' thing
isn't good at all.
Just pain,
that we'll never understand.
They speak of luscious roses,
fiery hearts,
blissful sunsets
and an everlasting bond.
All I can say is I hurt,
it brings pain,
it turns to hate.
Love is something I'll never understand.

Been away for 10 days with my family... Not the best of times...
I have a question though for anyone who knows anything about here... See about the 'no self harm posts' does that excluded all total mentions of it in a blog... Like even if you're celebrating going a year free or whatever?
Also I need help with something and maybe a little advise, so I know you're probably busy and don't want to deal with me as well as whatever you've got going on but if 1 maybe 2 people could just give their opinion that'd be great! PLEASE!

I know... I just sound like a pathetic teenager whining over a crush... Except this isn't a crush with some guy in my school... No, I always have to make things more difficult for myself so instead of having a crush, I've fallen in love. And instead of it being a randomer it's my best friend, who is a girl, like me. :/
But I just hate the fact I can't tell her. Because if she freaks out I'll lose my only friend (in the same country as me) and she has way too much to deal with without me making things worse and more awkward.

..I came on here partly to try and find a poem I wrote a while ago. Oh well...

Some of you may know them. I think they've been around for a bit...
Even if you don't like female singers (like me I like one but most people will have never heard of her she' called Amy MacDonald) this band are awesome.
Their singer (sorry I don't know her name yet) doesn't sound like Hayley Williams or Amy Lee, not at all! She's got a really gravely sound to her and personally I think she's fit.. But anyhoo...
Awesome, underrated band here guys!

Haha! No, most people hate me. :L I just found a band that I really seriously fucking love! They're called Pop Evil and that's their song Monster You Made Me ^^ Tis pretty awesome. If you like it look up Broken and Betrayed. Also very good.
Typing up essays of To Kill a Mockingbird is almost as boring a reading the fucking thing! So Youtube saved me yet again XD

Stick with it guys. The world's fucking torture but you mean something to someone. Even if you don't know it. xx

Someone with great knowledge of rock music is needed right now, why I picked here...
Okay so I searched up this band http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elwB9F4GeBo (the World Alive) I'd read their name in Kerrang searched them on Youtube.
Then I searched them on google cause I kinda liked it and hoped to find a discography or something but all I could find was The Word Alive.
So I got confused and though maybe The WORLD Alive were new so I put them into Facebook. I find them but then The WORD Alive come up and so do Blessthefall... I know who Blessthefall are but guys I'm fucking losing it here! Are The World Alive a band...? And if so have they changed their name... What's the fucking deal?! :L
Cheers :) x

Why am I me?
Why am I here?
Why can I not help myself or anyone else?
Why do I have to jump to conclusions and make thinks worse?
Why do I have no self esteem?
Why is it so hard to keep this a secret?
Why do I cry every day?
Why do I have no talent?
Why am I not happy with my family, the food in my stomach, my clean water, my bed, my house, my ipod, my phone, my computer, my education.
Why are children all over the world while I type this when I and so many others have so much more than we need? ^^
Why do I feel so alone amongst 7 billion people.
Why is NOTHING easy. Waking up and falling asleep are both natural yet super hard for me!

What the fuck is wrong with me? Life's not worth it with all these thoughts in my head.

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs.
[] You have a lot of friends.
[] You get along with everyone.
[] You love soccer.
[] You love baseball.
[x] You're into writing and art.
[x] Favorite music genre is rock.
[] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory.
[] One of your favorite colors is red or gold.
[x] Good grades at school.
[] One of the worst things you can do is lie.
[x] You plan on going to college/a school.
TOTAL: 5
HUFFLEPUFF:
[] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[] You laugh a lot.
[] You like to follow trends.
[x] Politics suck.
[] You love to swim
[] Water polo is awesome.
[] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
[] Black is morbid & depressing.
[] You're an optimist.
[x] You're very emotional.
[] You haven't made fun of anyone this month.
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
TOTAL: 3
RAVENCLAW:
[x] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[] You love to read.

This little guy is a fricking God send! First cause he's a baby and all babies are amazing and cute! But also cause this big thing came about the same time I had my 1st pubic 'breakdown'. 1st he's made me feel slightly better but he's also distracted my parents from discussing me recently!
Anyhoo... His name is Kian (Kee-in) and he was born on the 11th of June 2012 after my brother's girlfriend was in labour for 14 fucking hours! But he's here. He's adorable. And really soft! He was the amazing baby smell too... Like the powder and everything...
He will be learning about good music before my brother (his daddy... Aw XD) swoops in with his dubstep nonsense! Me and my friend Emma are already thinking about his future career... XD
So I am now Aunty Katie! And I've already claimed first baby sitting duties!
Hope everyone's okay :)