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I hate that I can relate to this near word for word...

Excuse me while I bawl my eyes out.. :/

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I don't know what to do...

I'm stuck. Between everything and everyone.
Everyone I know is either depressed too or happy and couldn't care less. I have all these voice and thoughts in my head and I feel like I'm insane. I go through these weird phases where I feel like a different person altogether and I'm watching myself fall apart. Then I get back up from being curled up on the floor, wipe away the tears and pretend and lie to myself nothing's wrong. My smile and fake attitude is too believable no one actually knows who I am.
Plus I can't help my 2 best friends... I'm so useless.
And I'm gonna hurt them. And everyone else. Then I won't be stuck any more.

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Here You!!! Yep you. I love you...

I wrote a poem for you all... Cause I see and feel so much hurt and pain in some of you it really gets to me...
But mods wouldn't let me post it cause it talked about the unmentionable...
Please just listen to the song...
I wish I could help so many of you. But in the end I just turn into a hypocrite cause here's the secret... I FEEL THE SAME!!!!! Any negative emotion there is, chances are I've felt it. Yep even the very serious ones MCR set out to change... I like it here but at the same time I don't cause it just reminds me I'm not alone. Which most people would tell me to make me feel better, doesn't work cause I wouldn't want my worst enemy to feel half as bad as I can some days... most days..
I wish I could help anyone at all. Even if that's just through a wee message or full blown rant... :) I'm open to listen I promise. xxx

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I need your help again everyone! Please XD

Just give me like 5 mins of your time to read this and tell me HONESTLY what you think. I want to give it to my friend for her birthday cause she's gone through some really tough shit over like 5 years and I want to show her how happy I am she's starting to come out of it and just tell her how amazing she is. Still working on the title but I think I'm done... I'm not sure if it's good enough... Not to give to someone anyway. But I have nothing else :/ So if you do read this thank you so much, and tell me if it's shit or tell me anything you would change honestly I don't care I just need some help. Cheers :) xx

You've seen the worst of this world,
felt the pain and the sorrow,
seen the ignorant and unkind,
but you stuck by and waited for tomorrow.

Struggling to be your true self,
hiding in fear of being abused.
Never do I want you to be scared,
or ever again hurt, broken or bruised.

Can you tell me was it worth it?
Or do you long for another's life?

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Writers... Poets... Anyone Who Cares... Need Your Help.

So if you could take a few minutes to help me out, that'd be wonderful XD
My best friend's birthday's coming up and I'm awful when it comes to buying gifts... So I thought I'd buy her something small as a gift but write a poem for her too. But I'm very self concious about my stuff so I'm still undecided if I'll give it to her in the end.
She's been through a lot. Depression. Baaaad experiences of therapy. The now 'unmentionable' plus relapses. Bullying. Just loads and I wanted to recognise the fact for her that she's got through that and now has a chance of getting back on track.
I've NOT finished it yet. I've got a few verse done which I'll probably have to go over. But I thought if some of you guys could read through it tell me what you thought and any changes you'd make then it might be okay for giving to someone. Cause there's a lot of amazing writers on here. Much better than anything I've ever done.
What I've got so far...

You've seen the worst of this world,

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What is wrong with me

I went on to facebook cause I'm really bored and I don't wanna go to bed cause I know what will happen if I do, but I scroll down and see a picture that'd been uploaded of my old group of friends.. They all ditched me cause my best friend was the 'leader' of the group so now I have no one. Why do I even care... I don't know, I just get so upset whenever I see them all still so happy without me.
Have any of you guys been left behind before...? It's one of the worst feelings.. Not to mention the state she knew I was in yet still thought it was okay to just leave their best friend. People fucking suck.
Before anyone asks yes I'm still 'friends' with one of them on fb cause she's my brother's gf's sister... So we have to pretend to get along to keep the families happy. That's how I saw it.

Kill all your friends.. Excellent idea Gerard. Let's go tear them all to shreds.

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Jimmy - My New Friend

So yeah... I realised I only seem to blog about depressing stuff which in fact as no benefit to anyone what so ever. I'll try and sush from now on. But this is Jimmy... I named him after my idol Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan, Avenged Sevenfold's late drummer. XD I feel ashamed to say I'm nearly 15 yet I have some stuff rag doll thing. But I like him. He's like me. Strange.

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[REPOST :/] Guys.. I could use some help.. Please

If anyone has ever had to tell someone that they need help because they're wanting to 'leave' (I'm not sure what terms we are allowed to use here now so taking your own life I dunno -.-) But if anyone has ever told a parent, sibling, friend or just another human being, could you message me or leave me some advise on how to go about it.. Please. Cause, I'm being pretty serious.. And I'm freaking someone out who can't do much about it. So please someone help me! Please. Or I think I am going to... Thank you so much if anyone does help in anyway.
There's the problem though that I don't actually have anyone I think I can tell... But I thought this might help me chose someone if I decide to let someone know..

Love you guys! Keep the faith... Don't give up too easy or you end up in this situation.xxx

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Ray!!!

Thank you for being our little Ray of light! You've kept the best band together through thick and thin. You're the coolest white guy with a fro and you're SO underrated! You'll be up there with Slash one day, maybe I'll get you a hat if I ever get to meet you! Just don't start smoking ;)
Thank you Ray Toro! I hope you have an awesome day! Happy Birthday!

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Someone.. Please I really need some help.

Okay Emma this is for you, I'm not saying I'm doing it but look; I'm trying -.-

If anyone has ever had to tell someone that they need help because they're wanting to 'leave' (I'm not sure what terms we are allowed to use here now so taking your own life I dunno -.-) But if anyone has ever told a parent or friend or just another human being, could you message me or leave me some advise on how to go about it.. Please. Cause, I'm being pretty serious.. And I'm freaking someone out who can't do much about it. So please someone help me! Please. Or I think I am going to... Thank you so much if anyone does help in anyway.

Love you guys! Keep the faith... Don't give up too easy or you end up in this situation.xxx