MCRloveforever's blog

Heya Killjoys! Uh I'm really proud of myself I've managed to last over a month without her in myself :) I'm actually really really proud of myself alothough all of those shot has been happening I've manage not to do it. Even if it's been hard and ie felt like I have needed to harm I stopped I tried it's been lingering in my head more so now. I just wanna get these thoughts outta my head, I hand even realise it had been that long until my close friend had pointed it out to me. So yeah that's all I wanted to let you know...

Xoxo MCRloveforever

Am I the only one who thinks Franks new style makes him look like Gerard? Like legitimately I thought he was Gerard and I'm just like Frankie why!?! Why confuse me with this?? But yeah that's all I wanted to know..
Thanks for the song/band suggestions I found most of the bands you suggested I already knew.. haha but most of the ones I didn't know were bloody amazing and I have currently been fangirling over those bands a little much -.-
xoxo MCRloveforever

Hey! I really need to update my music, and finding songs and bands can actually be kinda difficult so I was just wondering if any of you could please comment a band or song that is just really awesome?? I'll check out every song or band you suggest unless I already know them. You seem to have pretty wicked music tastes so im also just curious as to what you like at the moment ^.^ Okay thanks it'll help a lot and be very much appreciated :)
xoxo MCRloveforever

Hey MCRmy! :D Lately I've been really great, I was. With just a few words I went from great to bad. That guy I told some of you about yeah he and I weren't talking, I was actually ignoring because I was sick of the bullshit one minute he''ll love you, the next he'll act like I never even knew him. Just as I wanted him in my life again, just as I wanted him back he messages me saying he wants nothing to do with me. That he's sorry for ever hurting me that i'm to mentally and physically young for him. The way he worder it was as if to say, I've got another girl in my life better than you will ever be, you're to young and inmature you're physically not developed enough for me. I will admit it hurt so fucking much I couldn't bare it, then just about a week before hand he was singing Open Letter by The Amity Affliction to me... That really made me upset he acted out to care.

After almost two years of my seeing my older sister ifinally get to see her next week! :D We're so alike it's crazy, and do you know how rare it is to actually find decent people in my family that like the same things as me? It's very Very rare.. we both like the same music and we both dress the same. She's actually moving back to the town I live in so I can see her more often :) I talked to her on the phone last night and it was really nice we talked about everything and because we both go through the same things ( we both have Depression) we can kinda be each others support network which is really cool. i just can't wait for her to move back it's gonna be some awesome :)

Xoxo MCRloveforever

heya MCRmy! Well some of you might know that vans Warped Tour is coming back to Australia in November/December and oh my Gerard my parents said I could go! I'm so happy and excited! :D Even though I don't know the lineup, ticket prices, how much accommodation is or how i'm going to get there I know i'm going though no matter what they say. Are any of you going to the show in Melbourne? I suppose i'm going to have to start saving ^.^ For those of you who have gone though, what is roughly the cost of a ticket?? I really need to know soonish so I can get a definite answer from my parents.. URH BUT OH MY GOD I MIGHT BE GOING TO WARPED!

xoxo A very excited MCRloveforever

Well I finally met that guy I've been ranting on about for age now.. He was really nice and funny and was jut like amazing. The only problem is he ignored me for the first half an hour (we were at the football) and he saw me because I was sitting right In front of him. Then when he finally decided to talk to me we were sitting really awkwardly and stuff them this other girl came up and talke to him and then it was the most awkwardness thing ever -.- then she left and we were talking really well and had the best conversation ever. I'm really happy the happiest I've been for a long while now but I feel as if I can't be happy like these scars ae holding me back from being really happy. I feel like a don't deserve to be happy ever. Is that normal though? To feel like that when you're really happy? He said he'd ask me out next time we meet so maybe just maybe I won't be as forever alone as I thought this time last year.

Here's is my cover of Panic! At The Disco's Nine In The Afternoon. I hope you all enjoy and if you could please leave some feedback it would be much appreciated. I'm sorry I didn't post it earlier it's just some things have popped up and yeah... I'll try post a cover once every week or two whenever I really have the house to myself so I hope you enjoy :) Also have an awesome day/night/Afternoon :)

xoxo MCRloveforever

Okay so with that guy, after multiple arguments with myself I didn't contact him. It would be just to awkward... But now I find myself wanting to talk to him again -.- Although I know I'll get hurt. Me being the stalkery stalker I am ( not really I was just curious) looked at his profile and all the girls talking to him, I realised that there are other girls. Those girls are a lot prettier and a lot more "normal" than I ever will be so why would he even bother talking to me? I was the last one to message him (this was a while ago) and I feel if I message him again he'll feel that I'm annoying him and since he diet reply to my last message that he probably hates me. That's my conclusion that he hates me.. Any ways that's the update on my shitty love life thing for a while.. I promise I won't annoy you with my constant advice seeking..

Xoxo MCRloveforever

I'm gonna try Atleast post once weekly starting today. I find rude for me to only post when I need advice. So how have my fellow MCRmy been coping with the breakup? I know it's still a touchy topic for some of you, but if it's hard I want to try help you guys out. I want to help you all so if you ever need anything let me know :) I just don't want you guy. To make the mistakes I once did when I was sad. Please just keep hope I love you all you're waiting il take no ones shit stand up talk never let them fucking take you alive. And to the people who have me advice on that whole boy thing I didn't end up messaging him. I'm still getting bullied but that's for another days posting, just for those who know/care I'm not showing anymore symptoms of depression so I'm just being cautious and looking at my emotions incase it happens again. I'm also putting up a new cover tomorrow if you wanna check that out.

Goodbye MCRmy see you next post!
Xoxo MCRloveforever :)