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After Gerard talked to me, everything was okay. I felt better. Still I was hurt and so was everyone else. I guess it will be like this for a while. Hopefully it won't be too bad.
All of us gathered into Morgan's room. I hated this part. She was pale and stone like. The heart rate machine read zero, and had a flat line across it. She was completely gone. No coming back.
I wasn't sure what we were doing, but I'm sure it had to be kinda important. I was sitting beside Gerard and Frank. All of us looked bad. I don't even know what time it is!
The door of the room opens. My first reaction is quickly looking to see who it was. It was the doctor. I hate this guy! Hopefully I don't loose it, but if I do, he will get hurt first.
He glanced at me and his face got scared. Oh this was great. He should be scared of me! He then turned his gaze to the floor. He looked up and started to speak.

As I walked over, my eyes filled with tears. I was ready to hear the worst. When I got closer to them, their chatter stopped. I stood between Ray and Mikey, and look up at the doctor in fear.
"We wanted to save her, but we couldn't The resesitaion didn't work. I'm sure you know, she didn't make it," the doctor said.
My mouth tremble, my hands and body were shaking uncontrollably, and the tears flooded my face. Ray tried to hug me, but I instantly lost all of my sanity. I crashed to the floor in tears and in screams. At this moment, no one could touch me.
"NO! NO! NO! She's not dead! You are a lier! You didn't try! Don't lie to us! You're wicked and a devil! A monster! NO! NOOOO! NOOOOOO!!"
I felt everything collapse in on me. This was like the time my own mom died. I have a hard time excepting the the death of people. I never truly believe it. This fit and pain was not for me, but was expressing how I knew Gerard felt.

Ray dropped his phone. It stunned us all. No, this isn't really true. I'm only dreaming, I thought. But this was no dream. Only a painful reality.
Frank, Ray, and I huridly got into the van. We drove to the hospital. Not a word was spoken. I really couldn't think. I felt like I was in a whirlpool of hurt and extream craziness. What is Gerard going to do? I mean...Oh, my...NO, NO, NO! It can not happen like this! She's not dead!
We pulled into the parking lot of the hospital. I really didn't want to go in, but I know I needed to. This time we didn't check in. We took the elevator up to the dreaded third floor. Finally it's doors opened and we got out.
Frank and Ray are walking very quickly ahead of me. Before we reached Morgan's room, I heard crying. It was Gerard. Mikey was sitting beside him on the hall floor. I could tell Mikey was trying to talk to Gerard, but he wasn't listening.

Gerard finnaly calms down. He is still sad of course. All of us had gone into the room to see how she was doing. Her heart had gone down to 42. This was going to be the end. I knew Gerard pobably couldn't take it I wanted to tell him so badly.
Gerard and Mikey stayed the night in the hospital with Morgan. Mikey was going to come back with us, but Frank told him that if anything went wrong, then Gerard could loose it again. I very unwillingly went back to the house with Frank and Ray
The three of us were sad. I think we all knew she was going to die.
"You do know she's dieing, right," I asked Frank and Ray. They slowly nodded their heads. I don't know what to do right now. It's aweful! Why did this have to happen?! The ride back was quiet and sad. I started to cry. It was a good think Frank was in the front with Ray, I didn't want them to see me cry.

She laid there on the bed. There was no expression on her face. Was she dead? A sudden noise startled me. It was the beep from the machine that measured heart rate. Her heart was still going. Oh what a relief! But it was only at 68. I don't think she will last much longer.
Gerard was by her side. He held on to her hand so tightly. Tears streamed down his face. I felt so bad seeing him like this. I hope he wouldn't try to take his anger out on anyone.
Frank tapped me on the shoulder. I almost jumped because I was in a sad solitude.
"I think we should leave him with her for a few. What do you think," Frank asked me.
"It would probably be a smart thing to do," I told him. Frank nodded and got Ray and Mikey.
"Hey Gerard, we're gona step out into the hall, so ya...," Frank said.
"Thanks guys," Gerard responded.

I just sat there. In complete shock! I had no idea! When did this happen? I know I read the latest news on them. I mean, what? I had no clue what to say. I felt extremely bad for Gee.
Everyone was just so quiet. An extremely awkward and sad silence. I put my hand on Gerard's arm. He jerked back very quickly. I could tell he was hurt.
"Gerard, look at me," I started, "it's going to be okay. I will help you however I can. You just need to relax."
With that he gave me a small kiss on the cheek. A tiny smile appeared. I knew Gerard couldn't be mad for long. Now the next thing was going to see Morgan.
All of us loaded up into the van. It was bigger than I thought. Ray was driving and Mikey was in the passenger seat. Frank had he whole middle to himself. Gerard and I were sitting in the back. Thoughts kept rushing through my head. I wanted to ask Gerard what had happened to her. I knew this was going to be very hard to get out of him, but I was going to try.

"Well, I think it's broken," Frank confirmed. I wanted to laugh so hard. Only Frank could just be like this. Gerard looked so mad. I thought he was going to tackle Frank, but of course he didn't.
Gerard said, "Yes, Frank. I think we knew that when we saw it was black." Frank had the cutest yet stupidest grin on his face.
"Ummm. So what do we do now," I asked
They all looked at each other. Then they looked to Ray, the one who would always solve the problems. It took Ray a minute to figure out what to say. Mikey was talking to the lady, telling her everything would be fine, not to worry, and just to go home, so he did.
Finally Ray said, "Well your going to stay with us. But we need some help. We have an important situation. First we need to get you off this dirty road. Do you live close to here?"

"Hey. Hey are you okay? Wake up! This is important."
My eyes flash open. The room is unfamiliar. Where am I? No idea what so ever. I can't think right at the moment. Everything is a blur. Who is talking to me?
"Hey, are you okay? Umm, Frank get over here. She looks pale, I think."
"Frank? Who's Frank?," I ask this so quickly and worriedly.
"Frank. Frank Iero. From My Chemical Romance. The band. Gerard is here too."
My vision comes into focus. Frank Iero and Gerard Way are sitting in front of me. Mikey and Ray are by a car talking to someone. I sit up so fast, it hurts.
"How? What? Where am I? What's going one? This can't be real? AHHHHHH!," I scream.
"Calm down. Everything is going to be okay. We will explaine it. Just relax. You're going to be fine," Gerard told me.
Frank took a hold of my hand. My heart starts pounding like crazy! This is amazing, what ever it is! I'm in person with my favorite band! MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!

"Hey. Hey are you okay? Wake up! This is important."
My eyes flash open. The room is unfamiliar. Where am I? No idea what so ever. I can't think right at the moment. Everything is a blur. Who is talking to me?
"Hey, are you okay? Umm, Frank get over here. She looks pale, I think."
"Frank? Who's Frank?," I ask this so quickly and worriedly.
"Frank. Frank Iero. From My Chemical Romance. The band. Gerard is here too."
My vision comes into focus. Frank Iero and Gerard Way are sitting in front of me. Mikey and Ray are by a car talking to someone. I sit up so fast, it hurts.
"How? What? Where am I? What's going one? This can't be real? AHHHHHH!," I scream.
"Calm down. Everything is going to be okay. We will explaine it. Just relax. You're going to be fine," Gerard told me.
Frank took a hold of my hand. My heart starts pounding like crazy! This is amazing, what ever it is! I'm in person with my favorite band! MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!

"10 O'CLOCK? OH MY GOD! NO WAY!." I screamed. I had slept all of yesterday! That's crazy! I've never done that before! Two things struck my mind. Food and checking up on the celeberaty site. I ran downstairs and got my usual fruit bowl. I'm a vegetarian. There was a note on the counter, it said;
"Dear Cassandra, I've left for work. I might be gone till late. Stay safe. Love Dad."
I simply left it here and ran upstairs.
The headlines flashed:Gerard Way and Morgan Burns. Of course I was dieing to see this! Gee and Morgan haven't been together very long, but they are just perfect for each other! I'm so happy he found someone!
The rest of my day was filled of some TV, music, and, well that's about it. Like I said no one likes me, and I don't care. I wanted to get out of the house, so I went for a walk. It wasn't very long but it was peaceful and quiet. I enjoy my morning walks. When I got home, I took a nap on the couch......