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Better, finally

Feeling much better. :) my heads held high and im proud of my life again. Me and my boyfriend are stronger than ever, he promised to marry me as soon as he can. :,) literally the happiest moment of my life.
I love you Colin, now and forever
-Izzabella

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Alive

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Done

I dont want to be alive. I've caused the two closest people to me to be in pain. I destroyed the love of my life with one stupid mistake. The cuts on my arms arent deep enough to amount to the pain i've caused him. I dont deserve his forgiveness, i dont deserve his caring, and i dont deserve his love.
I love him with all my heart but one small mistake has forced a wedge between us.
I dont want to be alive, i dont want to breath, i dont want to know how badly i've hurt him.
goodbye all. thanks for the support you've given me in the past.
-Izzabella signing off...

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These Pigs Are After Me Chapter 22

Short Chapter, sorry
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Bullet’s POV
“Bullet wait!” Kobra yelled, running out the front door after me
“No!” I yelled back, walking around to the back
“Please Bullet, I just want to talk, ok?” Kobra said, catching up with me.
I plopped down on the hill in the back and waited for him to start talking, the image of him and Scream together still burned in my mind.
“Bullet I’m sorry you saw that. I really am. We didn’t know you were back yet and everyone else had stayed in their own rooms. I love her Bullet and I figured you knew about us from the way she is always on me.” His face changed to a little half smile of guilt yet amusement. “Will you forgive me?”
I looked at him with a mocking look of getting sick.
“Of course I forgive you but that image is gonna be burned into my mind forever.” I chuckled
Kobra stood and helped me to my feet.
“It’s not like you and Ghoul haven’t done anything.” He looked at me with a mocking face

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These Pigs Are After Me Chapter 21

More Pg 13.....;)
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“Why did you listen to us?” Ghoul said, following me outside
“It’s what I do; it’s a force of habit really.” I leaned into the trunk to grab the blankets “It’s not my fault you were having a deep conversation in the middle of the dinner. By the way how come you didn’t use our names?” I asked curiously
“Well as you said it was a deep convo so I didn’t feel that it was right to call him by a fake name.” Ghoul responded
He walked up behind me and grabbed the sides of my waist while I was still leaning in the trunk and scooted me over so he could help.
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Screams POV

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These Pigs Are After Me Chapter 20

There's some...uh..*cough* pg13 stuff ;)
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“Bullet this isn’t good.” Ghoul called to me
“Whats up?” I said sitting the stuff down on the hill just outside of the tunnel entrance.
Ghoul was at the bottom of the hill in a bush, peeking around the entrance shaking his head slowly. I made my way down to him.
“The checkpoint station is at the other end of the tunnel, which is probably almost half a mile long. How are we gonna keep an eye on the guards? It’s not like we can just walk down to them and be like oh were just gonna watch you guys for a few days.” He looked at me
“Come here. Poison put some stuff in the trunk that will help.” I made my way back up to our little base.

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These Pigs Are After Me Chapter 19

“Poison can I talk to you?” I said as I walked out of the basement
Poison was sitting at a booth, not doing anything, just sitting there.
“Sure” he said motioning to the seat across from him
“Did Ghoul tell you his plan?” I sat down
“Yea. I was actually just thinking about it. I think it’ll work. We just have to make sure that we have every detail worked out.” He leaned forward “We don’t know anything right now; we need someone on the inside, or someone who can get in and out of a place fast without being noticed.” His question was obvious.
“I can do that.” I said
“Bullet, you do realize how dangerous this is right? If they catch you once, your dead. I don’t want that, and Ghoul will kill me if I let that happen.” Poisons voice was calm yet worried
“Poison I’ll be fine. I’ll take a walkie with me and my gun if things go wrong. I doubt there will be an issue.” I sat back and crossed my arms over my chest, feeling confident “So where am I breaking in?”

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My Chem Fan Page!!!!

Hi Everyone!! I'm back! Man it feels like it's been FOREVER since i've been on here! A ton of stuff has been going on here in my zone. two awesome things have happened! One; I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!! Two; I just became an admin of a facebook page for Gerard!!!
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These Pigs Are After Me Chapter 18

“Ghoul get up.” Someone hit my shoulder “Ghoul seriously, it’s almost dawn. We have to get going!” I was hit again.

I could feel the desert sand digging into my skin and the warmth of the fire next to me. I tried to get up but a searing pain shot through my leg. A cry of pain escaped my dry lips.

“God damn. I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened to me last night.” The voice became recognizable as Poison’s.

“Go away.” I mumbled, keeping my eyes closed

“No. I want to apologize. You know how I can get sometimes. I didn’t mean anything I said last night, and I really didn’t mean to shoot you either.” He sat down next to where I was lying.

“Why did you do it?” I asked, opening my eyes to the pre-dawn light.

Poison stared straight ahead of himself and shook his head.

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These Pigs Are After Me Chapter 18

“Ghoul get up.” Someone hit my shoulder “Ghoul seriously, it’s almost dawn. We have to get going!” I was hit again.

I could feel the desert sand digging into my skin and the warmth of the fire next to me. I tried to get up but a searing pain shot through my leg. A cry of pain escaped my dry lips.

“God damn. I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened to me last night.” The voice became recognizable as Poison’s.

“Go away.” I mumbled, keeping my eyes closed

“No. I want to apologize. You know how I can get sometimes. I didn’t mean anything I said last night, and I really didn’t mean to shoot you either.” He sat down next to where I was lying.

“Why did you do it?” I asked, opening my eyes to the pre-dawn light.

Poison stared straight ahead of himself and shook his head.