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So far, brilliant. They are just beautiful. They give me that feeling of want. I want to do something with my life because of My Chemical Romance's music. I am going to die when part three comes out. I sob hysterically when listening to The World Is Ugly. I can't imagine it polished. I'm going to die. It's so beautiful I just... ugh.
I hope you all enjoy Conventional Weapons as much as I do.

Stay strong out there. Be careful, your thoughts can get to you sometimes. Put it into something that doesn't hurt you physically. Paint, draw, sing, just CREATE something wonderful with every single thing in your being. Hold on; Help is coming. <3

Okay, I'm bored and distracted away from homework, so I'm going to say a couple of things I hate.
1) Sharing food/ beverages.
I just get disgusted when people touch my food and will rarely eat or drink after people, including family members. It's just gross. Don't put your lips on my coffee. Don't put your hands in my fries. Just don't, unless I trust you and offer it to you.

2) People who force out burps, laugh, and say they can't help it; especially when eating. Okay, you bitch, you FORCED it out. I saw you strain. Don't laugh. I don't want your breath or gas on my food. I don't mind if we're just hanging out and we have our casual burps of acknowledgement, but don't just be an asshole about it.

So the other night I went to sleep listening to Boy Division and I had a great dream. I was backstage at an MCR concert and Gerard was singing his heart out in this song, like it was the last song he'd ever sing. When the song ended he just seemed... off. I went on the stage, ran up to him, and gave him the longest and deepest hug. Gee started crying in the hug. I say the dream is amazing because it made me realize he really does put his life into every song. So much sometimes that it kills him a little when letting loose in a song. I want to be like Gerard. I want to sing my feelings out to a bunch of kids who don't have anyone but their favorite band. They are always here for us. I may complain and sometimes doubt it, but I'm just being a pathetic pansy in those moments. They are here. I want to be here for them too. Forever and whenever.

I love you all. Stay strong. Keep fighting. Always remember, you are whoever YOU are. No one says who you are but you.

Hey Killjoys, looks like as soon as trial shit is over with my dad, I'm moving 10 minutes out of LA. 0-0.
First time leaving the east coast. I'm excited but nervous....
Excited: get to be immersed in the not super biased living that is in Georgia. Get to possibility run into celebrities. Might see TOBUSCUS. Get to see more shows and go to music things that aren't here. Conventions.
Nervous: My friends. I made so many- okay not really, just like 7 -friends that I will miss insanely... it kinda sucks. And I'm nervous about scholarships. HOPE applies to the state you graduated in, right? There goes that one unless we move before the end of next year.
Conflicts! Internal and External dammit!!

ANYWAYS, WHO'S EXCITED FOR THE FIRST TWO CONVENTIONAL WEAPONS SONGS IN 13 DAYS!??! Thirteen is just my number, huh? Oh, and who's excited for the Killjoy Comic!!!!!?!?!?!? May 3rd, right? I don't remember exactly... but I'm PUMPED. :) so much happiness, so little lies<3

My family is falling apart again. Tomorrow (October 8) is my mom and step dad's anniversary of 7 years. That's their marriage anniversary, but we've all been living together for 12 years.

Okay so we all know that Gee would write on himself how he felt before shows. I started writing how I feel each day on my arm before school. Today I wrote "Ready"..... And just...... Wow. A lot of shit has happened today. It's crazy just what happened. And..... it was good being ready.

Am I the only one who thinks that Frank is the only one who actually still cares? I'm not trying to shit on any birthday cakes here, but honestly. Frank puts so much into the music. There is so much emotion that it hurts. I miss feeling the emotion in music. I miss feeling like the band really cares. It hurts to think that MCR seems to be weakening as the years go on. I need them... We need them. We need the family that gets us. I'm feeling like shit and I just want to hear that they will be here. I know that I can listen to their old music, which I am doing, but it just makes me live in the past... I love it but I need to move on before this hole gets deeper and I won't be able to climb out. I just.... feel like shit. Being a teenager really sucks. We have so many expectations to meet. I have to go to college next year... I have to get a good job... I don't wanna spend my life in school. I want to sing. I don't give a shit if I can't afford a place to stay; I'll get a car.

It was so much fun. :) We all danced to horrible music and took extremely inappropriate pictures. :))) Without my friends, I would be so gone. It's nice to have bros rubbing their dicks against my leg to shit that is considered music.... it would be better if the music was good, but hey. Might as well fling shit in their eyes. :) anyways, it's been good. Me and Xavier in the first picture then me, Eric, and Rachael. :)))

Yeah. That's all. :"|

Let's all remember why MCR is here. <3

Looking forward to more beautiful music about the strength of carrying on.

Stay dirty, and Stay dangerous you AMAZING Killjoys. <3 I love you all.