maymay_10's blog

O.O I must say, I'm starting to love Tumblr. <.<

http://maymaymarie.tumblr.com/

Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays everyone! Hope everyone has a great day! <3 xxxx

I got an xbox... and I've been playing non-stop. D: This is a new addiction that's going to lead to me procrastinating even more. <.<

Anyone play Halo 4 on xbox live? <.< if soooo, you should add me. <.< I suck at it... Buuut I could use some friends to play with. Lol. My gamer-tag is: Maiygaon

:)

Rainy weather, coffee, pajamas, music, my panda hat, and my wolfie (My stuffed animal)... T'is almost a perfect day. :] Everything about today is lovely thus far. :] The only thing missing is cuddling. Haha. Ah, t'is what wolfie is for. <3

Hope everyone is having a lovely day. <3 xxxx :]

Maybe I want something that's unattainable. I want someone to prove to me that it's okay to trust in people. I want someone who understands that I do random, silly, weird things when I get hyper. Someone who can laugh at, and with me. Someone I can trust in like my best friend, and fall in love with. I'm honestly tired of always being alone. I want a companion in life. I'm tired of being the girl everyone turns to in order to get their relationships fixed when they mess up. If I'm so good at understanding relationships, and fixing them, why can't I seem to meet anyone?

xD This is what I look like when I'm bored, and have nothing to do... :] Yay! Facials feel amazingly good. :] They make my skin feel really good afterward, and that's always a good thing! Hope everyone is having a lovely day. :]

Ah. Just wanted to upload a couple of images of myself, and write something simple about how life has been.
It's a mess, yet it's straightening out I suppose. Things are far from perfect, but they could always be worse. I have one silver lining underneath everything bad. I have someone important back in my life, my nephew. Which is a reason to smile, and to not give up on things.

I'm also considering dying my hair an extremely light pink color this Christmas. I have to lighten the blonde a bit more first though. :]

I hope everyone is doing well. <3 :]

I don't know what I'm fighting for. When holding onto a friendship hurts you more than anything else... maybe, just maybe it's not worth the effort of keeping. I fought for it, from the day we stopped talking in that way until now. Then you showed me those messages. I mean, you talk to me about how if I get with someone I can't cut you out... and then you tell her you'd start to cut me out. If it would be that easy for you to walk away from our friendship for her... maybe I should walk away now, before I get hurt more. Because that's one thing you're great at... hurting me. If I put you through half of the stuff you've put me through, I promise... you'd hate me.

-.- It's depressing... and it's true. We're friends, and our friendship is fucked up. You know, I always thought my friends were just being jackasses when they said we were more like a married couple than friends. Then I thought it was funny and ridiculous when they said it seemed like I was in an emotionally abusive marriage with you. They're fucking right. We act like a married couple, and it does come across as an emotionally abusive one. You're an ass to me half of the time, and then you do something sweet every once in a blue moon that makes me defend you to everyone. -.- How the fuck did I get into a friendship like this? Lmao.

So, I almost never freak out, and fangirl about things... BUT they're turning a book series I love into movies. I'm pretty fucking excited after seeing the movie trailer. I have extremely mixed emotions about it though. I'm excited, and sadly, expecting them to fuck it up. Movies are never as amazing as books... But I'm going to give it a chance! "The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones," by Cassandra Clare! :') I seriously never freak out about this type of stuff, but I'm having a serious fan-girl moment right now. xD Lol.

http://www.sonypictures.com/previews/movies/themortalinstrumentscityofbo...

YAY! :'D