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Hello Again

Hello everyone, I haven't been on here for a very long time. So yep still depressed sadly but always rocking to mcr! So yep!!!!!

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HELP

Okay Today I was talking to a old friend. He moved away sometime ago. Now he told me he had a crush on me and has one now. He told me that he would vist me and he ask me out. But 1 I am not aloud to date I am 13 also dealing with depression 2 I am not ready 3 I have a lot on plate already boyfriend is just adding on and last I dont like long distance relationships. He was being sweet my sister said. I can't get out of my head tho. I told him no. But I am worring about it. (Stupid Anixiety) I tired music but all that came on talking to him was love songs. Also the rest of the time talking I felt uncomterable,awkward and scared/nervous. I am not ready. I don't know what to the next time. I can leave it alone but I would feel bad and I should tell him but when. I worring way to much but I can't handle this right now. I was over it when I friend helped but my sister brought back again. I know she didn't mean to. I am not ready to deal with boys right now and I can't date them anyway.

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Hello

Hello everyone! I was at a Behavior Health Hospital for a about a litle over a week. I needed help cause I wanted to kill myself. I got the help I needed and I am happy I didn'e kill myself. I feel great now but I missed my family,Mcrmy,ipod and computer. I learn a lot about myself and cpoing. I haven't felt this good for a long time. I am happy to be home and now I can stand up for myself. I am better person now. I just wanted to say I am back ON! YAY!

That is it Killjoys Keep on Marching
~Offbeat Rebel

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Killjoy ID

Killjoy ID: Offbeat Rebel
Since: 2012
First Song: I Honestly Don't Remember
Favorite Song: Famous Last Words
Killjoy Song: SummerTime
Killjoy Phrase: Fuck the System
Colors: Black Red Grey White and Blue
Symbol: radio in the picture
Status: Hoping For a Better Future

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No Title

Today was not good really. I feel more like an outcast. Friends I am really tried of acting hyper and happy which I am not. Hating school more and more each day I go. Thinking how people are dicks and bitches. Really hope I don't have to live in this small town I live in. I have a massive headache. Also like seem to be dark and really not the best in my shoes. I am so sick of being happy. It is time to act how I feel now!I can not stand putting a smile on face when I am feel the oppisite of that.

(couldn't think of title) Well that all for today Killjoys

~Fallen Rebel

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Respect

Okay there has been a lot about Mikey today. Just leave it be. He will deal through this. Give him priacy. Killjoys we can't become like other fandoms. WE just need to respect him. Also let Mikey deal with his own problems. PLEASE STOP THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is not cool. If u are not going to respect Mikey u should not be part of this fandom. Don't respect the band please leave the MCRmy.

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MEE

This is a picture of ME! I felt like I should post a pic of me! So this is me in my room with my guitar (which I dont know how to play but will learn).

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Yeah

Yeah at walmart my mother bought me Danger Days! I played in my room and had a little dance party. YEAH SO HAPPY I HAVE DANGER DAYS! YEAH Later Killjoys

~Fallen Rebel

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Broken

Today I sad,broken and feel very lonely. I don't know why really. Just went throught the motions through school. Also didn't feel like talking cause I have nothing to say it felt like. Also today I almost got caught for swearing and kids got punched today. It nice to be home. I am going to dance tonight. I really don't know why I am going. I want to hang wih my friends but maybe try to be happy. I am not sure if will work. Maybe just maybe. Well also I broke a guitar string last night and still need to tell my mom about that. Well Later Killjoys

~Fallen Rebel

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School

School. Hate it there. I put on a fake smile. Also I don't like the teachers. They just make me very upset sometimes. Then the people. They are stupid and they all stereotype me as goth or emo. I hate society. Next year I am homeschooling so I don't have to deal with shit there. Yep today I needed to rant a little bit. Late Killjoys