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Songs I Never Cried To Finally Made Me Cry

Hey,

I thought I had taken the split relatively well, but on Sunday it hit me that they really disbanded. The thought "MCR has disbanded" keeps running through my head. Yesterday I cried to songs I never cried to before.

Disenchanted and I Don't Love You were two of my big favorites, and they never made me cry. Yesterday when I played them, I cried for the first time. That has NEVER happened with ANY band I've listened to since I was 11. I think I relied on them for my happiness a bit too much the past few years.

I am a pretty tough person and take deaths very well, but saying goodbye to these guys is harder than anyone I've said farewell to. It feels like I lost four brothers (my brothers are much older than me). They were THAT special to me. I'm having a tough time typing this because I don't know if the site will stay or if I'll even visit in the future.

Never stop running, don't be afraid to live, and carry on,
-AJ

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Songs I Never Cried To Finally Made Me Cry

Hey,

I thought I had taken the split relatively well, but on Sunday it hit me that they really disbanded. The thought "MCR has disbanded" keeps running through my head. Yesterday I cried to songs I never cried to before.

Disenchanted and I Don't Love You were two of my big favorites, and they never made me cry. Yesterday when I played them, I cried for the first time. That has NEVER happened with ANY band I've listened to since I was 11. I think I relied on them for my happiness a bit too much the past few years.

I am a pretty tough person and take deaths very well, but saying goodbye to these guys is harder than anyone I've said farewell to. It feels like I lost four brothers (my brothers are much older than me). They were THAT special to me. I'm having a tough time typing this because I don't know if the site will stay or if I'll even visit in the future.

Never stop running, don't be afraid to live, and carry on,
-AJ

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Songs I Never Cried To Finally Made Me Cry

Hey,

I thought I had taken the split relatively well, but on Sunday it hit me that they really disbanded. The thought "MCR has disbanded" keeps running through my head. Yesterday I cried to songs I never cried to before.

Disenchanted and I Don't Love You were two of my big favorites, and they never made me cry. Yesterday when I played them, I cried for the first time. That has NEVER happened with ANY band I've listened to since I was 11. I think I relied on them for my happiness a bit too much the past few years.

I am a pretty tough person and take deaths very well, but saying goodbye to these guys is harder than anyone I've said farewell to. It feels like I lost four brothers (my brothers are much older than me). They were THAT special to me. I'm having a tough time typing this because I don't know if the site will stay or if I'll even visit in the future.

Never stop running, don't be afraid to live, and carry on,
-AJ

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Songs I Never Cried To Finally Made Me Cry

Hey,

I thought I had taken the split relatively well, but on Sunday it hit me that they really disbanded. The thought "MCR has disbanded" keeps running through my head. Yesterday I cried to songs I never cried to before.

Disenchanted and I Don't Love You were two of my big favorites, and they never made me cry. Yesterday when I played them, I cried for the first time. That has NEVER happened with ANY band I've listened to since I was 11. I think I relied on them for my happiness a bit too much the past few years.

I am a pretty tough person and take deaths very well, but saying goodbye to these guys is harder than anyone I've said farewell to. It feels like I lost four brothers (my brothers are much older than me). They were THAT special to me. I'm having a tough time typing this because I don't know if the site will stay or if I'll even visit in the future.

Never stop running, don't be afraid to live, and carry on,
-AJ

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Sad, But If It Feels Like It's Time- It Usually Is

I'm pretty sad and shocked, but if they felt it was time, then it was probably time. I hate it when bands disband, but sometimes it's just time to bow out. They gave me many good memories and I was lucky to see them twice. They did a great deal for me and I will always be thankful to them for it.

I think, in my heart, I knew them more than I did Green Day since MCR began when I started 7th grade. Though I didn't get involved until I was out of high school (2007), they influenced me a great deal. I will never forget that.

Despite many bands that go for much longer than 12 years, those usually are the ones who don't realize when it's time to move on and let someone else take the spotlight. I think they knew it was the right time and I'm glad for that.

Like our grandparents remember Sinatra and the big bands, I will remember these guys with much fondness and never tire of their music.

Peace, love and fond MCR memories,
-AJ

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Spring Break and Other Things...

Hi everybody,

Spring Break is next week and I'm excited to be going back to Canyon Lake- for TWO weeks! Gruene, downtown New Braunfels and San Marcos...get ready for me! I have decided that to keep up my walking, I will walk the loop that makes the street the house is on. I'll let you know how all of that goes.

On the next matter, at my last doctor appointment I was weighed and I lost an additional 5 lbs! I now weigh 173! I've lost 14 lbs! I'm trying to get down to the 160s now...My aim after that is to get to 150.

Next on the list is that I was in my first serious-cops-had-to-be-called car accident last Wednesday. Thankfully nothing was fractured, broken, bruised or cut. But my neck did get a jolt and when I went to lay my head down, my neck hurt on the right side- where the seat belt came across my body, so I got whiplash and I'm borrowing a neck pillow that supports it while I sleep or lay down. Hopefully I'll only need it another couple nights.

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It's Been One Year... :(

Hey everyone,

It's been one year since my parents rushed to the hospital after my uncle's phone call. It's been one year since we lost a close family member. It's been one year since my dad lost one of his parents. It's been one year since my mom lost an in-law. It's been one year since my brother called and offered to listen if I needed someone to talk to. It's been one year since we said goodbye. It's been one year since my paw paw left us for Heaven.

Today was the one year anniversary of his death. We went to the cemetery today and placed some bluebonnets (Texas' lovely state flower) where we laid him to rest. I went with my parents, aunt, uncle and granny. We bought his marker today as well. We stood around the flowers, held hands and said the Lord's Prayer. This time I actually shed a few tears, though not enough for me to start sniffling. I didn't cry at the funeral.

At least it was a sunny day today.

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Sad Day For Me

Hey,

Tis a sad day for me. Today was the last full day and night my brother and his family spent in the States. We got to keep them one last evening. It was spent watching Bolt and Tinker Bell. I will miss my niece and nephew. It was one of the best times I've had since they've been in Germany. It's always been either just my sister in law, my brother and sister in law or my sister in law and the kids. My brother was never able to come except for Jonathan's funeral and one or two prior visits before my nephew was born.

My mom is giving them a ride to the airport in the morning and it will be so early I won't be going with them. There wouldn't be enough room in the truck anyway. So until they are finished with their time in Germany, we will continue with Facebook and Skype on Christmas. This Christmas was excellent since they could be here. It kind of lifted the veil of bittersweetness of it being the first Christmas without my paw paw.

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Number 2 and 3

Hey,

I've been a bit busy with my brother and his family being in town, but I managed to order Number Two from Amazon. Stupid pricks made me get an account in order to do so, but whatever. I went ahead and just bought Number Three on iTunes since I got a card for Christmas, but I still plan on ordering a vinyl copy from Amazon next month.

I wanted the box set but I needed to save my money for Christmas shopping, so I was out of luck since apparently everyone else didn't.Oh well. I've listened to a couple of the songs on YouTube(aside from The World Is Ugly since I've heard that one before) and I wish they still could have released this album as a whole but hey, I get to expand my record collection. I'm more than happy with that.

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Moderate-Level Exercise Shortens the Time You Are Sick

Hey everyone,

Since I have heard that if you do a moderate-level exercise 5-6 days a week for about 45 minutes, you can get better faster! Since that is what I am, though not severely quite yet, hopefully doing some dancing on my Dance Party 3 mat will help reduce the severity of the cold-like symptoms I will get.

Oh, and when I was weighed at the doctor, I learned I lost 9 pounds (for those who use kg, that is around 5 kg)! I am now 178 pounds!

Here's to getting better sooner,

-AJ