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Donc je dois commencer 'a pratiquer mon francais. Je veux que vous sachiez que vous etes super dela de la croyance. Les rabat-joie francais ici? Comment ai-je fais? Je suis en train de devenir a l'aise dans de nombreuses langues. Et vu que je prenais francais pendant trois ans, je de savior quelque chose.

Bien au dois au revior!

*LoneStar se sent brilliant*

Comments!!!!

for you all

You will never see the same side of me twice,
What youll catch more than once will be greed.

So if if see me happier than ever, capture it,
Because the next will make you bleed.

My faces are of many, about that ill never lie.
Ill try to make you proud, but in the ill just make you cry.

My doings are not regretful, i dont have the ability to guilt,
But i can and always will make your smile wilt.

Beware because this is a warning, of my motives and my deceit.
That when i show my beautiful side, my love is just as sweet.

*LoneStar Out*

the male gender

They seem to hate me. The first glance theyll be all nice and sweet and "understanding" if you will.
Then the more they get to know me it starts to disappear.
And oh jeez, everbody run if they find out im a virgin. Or that im bisexual.
Its like because im "pretty" and crazy they think i have the sexual drive of a rabbit.
They get mad at ME cuz im not the general whore in the school or on the street.
All the bfs i ever had always used to think im "teasing" them or "leading" them on.
And it makes me feel horrible, because all my life ive been the miserable piece of everyones rainbow.

introducing me

So im back.
Not sure anyone has even noticed.
Ive gotten over my depressing state of mind.
And i want to thank the people whove helped me through it.
Self pity doesnt solve problems, yea.
And i realize i cant let everything people say to hurt me, get to me.
I can feel my suicidal toughts underneath the surface.......
Ive just been going on a cycle for the past week.
Honestly i dont think my parents POV has changed about me.
It wont get any better than it has now.
But hope doesnt kill.
Thank you Killjoys.

Comments, Advice, Miscelaneous. Feel free.

*LoneStar Is Back*

the end

So i wanted to say bye to you all. This will be my last blog. Its weak of me to say, but i think ive given up. Even my dad wants me dead. Beautiful huh? I love you guys till the end.

the end

So i wanted to say bye to you all. This will be my last blog. Its weak of me to say, but i think ive given up. Even my dad wants me dead. Beautiful huh? I love you guys till the end.

wtf

My ex keeps calling me even though i told him to stop.
He told me to stop being stupid a month ago.
So i stopped texting him all together.
And yet he continues, acting like im really gonna speak to him.

Im not one to share emotions. Why does that seem like a bad thing?
Does that make me a sociopath?
I have a feeling no one will accept me for who i am.
Its these quirks that make seperate from the people around me.

my nightmares.

Every night I get these nightmares about a teen boy covered in blood kissing me and then ripping my throat out. Then hed give me this emerald necklace and tell me to "stay alive and be aware". Now i dont look deep into dreams and meanings but this scares the hell outta me. I already have this fear that im not going to make it past 25. This nighmare seems to hit something in my core that ive ignored for years....

Help?

my nightmares.

Every night I get these nightmares about a teen boy covered in blood kissing me and then ripping my throat out. Then hed give me this emerald necklace and tell me to "stay alive and be aware". Now i dont look deep into dreams and meanings but this scares the hell outta me. I already have this fear that im not going to make it past 25. This nighmare seems to hit something in my core that ive ignored for years....

Help?

really

Why is life so hard to live?

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