Skip directly to content

lonestar's blog

Syndicate content
fuck everything

Im officially done. Im done. I even went so far as to call my aunt and let her know. Im tired of living. Im so fucking tired of it. I cant be happy for shit. I cant make anyone happy. Im tired.... i hate myself. Im getting what i deserve. Im motherless and fatherless now. I just hate myself.... im done. Im done. Officialy. Dont bother messaging me. Or commenting me. I dont have my phone.

Bye guys. Im finally going to die the youthful maiden of my dreams.

fuck everything

Im officially done. Im done. I even went so far as to call my aunt and let her know. Im tired of living. Im so fucking tired of it. I cant be happy for shit. I cant make anyone happy. Im tired.... i hate myself. Im getting what i deserve. Im motherless and fatherless now. I just hate myself.... im done. Im done. Officialy. Dont bother messaging me. Or commenting me. I dont have my phone.

Bye guys. Im finally going to die the youthful maiden of my dreams.

its past my doing #7

Im not really excited about turning 17. Its surprising my crew wants to do anything for me anyway. Im not what you call a "team player". But my dad seems to treat me like im becoming more and more of a jerk with every passing year. I highly doubt ill get into a college, and i need to get back on learning my languages... i seem really pointless...

Ugh my blogs are getting mediocre these days......

its just you #9

I have officially tested fate more times than allowed. And while i do have a slim chance of crawling out of my abusive enviroment alive. Im just digging my grave.... And i guess....

Ill see you on the other side.

where did i go wrong. #10

One can only dream the same dream so many times before it is shot down in a bloody, gruesome mess of compensation, fustration, and exhaustion.
And in the the vigorous journey of life, your ups and downs simply become the same thing as your lefts and rights.
Your memories become a dusty file cabinet, unaccessable in todays technologic world. And your eyes which used to observe, become the mirrors of everyone elses happiness.
Youve grown to the routine of your own making, the lights of your creativity have long since died, along with the burning desire to reach for more.
The blood within you

#11

Complete fuckery to the max and beyond.

#11

Complete fuckery to the max and beyond.

so how goes it... #12

So according to my bf im not allowed to wallow in my self pity, be depressed, be suicidal basically feel any type of sadness because it is my fault that i feel these emotions. I dont change myself, nor my situations, so its my fault. But guys PLEASE DO NOT feel sorry for me. Itll go against the rules im supposed to abide by.

Anyfuckinway i was just pissed all day. And its funny cuz my ex bf decided to seize the opportunity of my anger to talk to me and cheer me up a lil. I noticed he does that alot. So yea just sitting here.

I do have bad news, i will not be able to make a video, but i will

ya know what?? #13

Im going to die and be forgotten. And it doesnt matter because no matter who or how many times i try to save someone, be there for someone, care for someone, i just shoot myself in the foot. And when i give up and try to take care of myself, i get bombarded for being selfish and arrogant. Im going to die a slow and painful death and be trapped in Limbo like i am now. And honestly i dont care anymore.

******************
The only thing absolutely great that happened to me today, was my extremely best friend and "bro" came back from college to come hang out in school with us.

r.i.p to the many and happy birthday to you #13

We all remember and comemorate the lost in the 9/11 attack, the families, the workers, the friends and the brave ones. We miss you deeply.

To MCR happy birthday 13 year bithday. Hope everything is well in your worlds.
Everyone please remember we have one more day of WWMMB to go so lets make this good.

*LoneStar Out*

Pages