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I just feel like crying... I never expected this day to come so early. MCR saved my life countless times. This band changed me, it gave me the courage to be who I am, and not be ashamed of it. It was thanks to MCR that I decided to be an artist, even though other people would discourage me, MCR gave me hope to do what I love. It was thanks to them I finnaly had friends, I stopped being so shy and started to don't care to insults. It gave me happiness and promissed me everything would be okay whenever I just wanted to end with my life, everytime I was alone, Gerard, Mikey, Ray, and Frank were there for me. And the biggest gift they gave me was you guys, the MCRmy, I can't thank enough for the support a lot of you gave me when I was having a bad time.

I just don't know what to do anymore, I just want to run away from home, from this hell and never come back. My mom is yelling at me again, this time because I asked if I could stay a bit more at school with my boyfriend, she said no and I asked why..she just answers me that i'm an idiot, that my boyfriend is just using me, that i'm a loser and will end up in the street all alone... she does this everytime i ask if I can go out with my bf, i never leave the house except to go to school, i'm so afraid my bf will leave me because of this... i barely have any friends, and she doesn't let me go out with them either. People are starting to exclude me, because they think i'm lying.. I can't stop crying, I just can't keep this way any longer :'(

So yeah, I can't even smile today. 2 days ago, the guy of my dreams told me he liked me and he just wanted to be with me.Today I asked if he wanted to hang out, and he just texted me saying "i can't, i'm going out with someone. ow and hey this isn't going to work, let's just be friends"
Besides that, I got mocked again for the clothe I wear :( I like to wear baggy jeans and shorts like guys and just to wear simple t-shirts. And I'm also learning how to skate so I brought my skate to school today. And some guys just passed by me and started making funny of me, calling me weird, stupid and poser :'(
I'm also thinking on giving up on school...Everyone just keeps telling me I will never be anything, to give up and that I'll always be a failure, even my family tells me that...
I don't really know what I'm still doing alive...

Hope things are better with you fellow killjoys, xoxo
- Electrik Sunrise

I pretty much hate my life right now.... My boyfriend broke up with me a few days ago, we were together for 6 months, and now he just came and told me he just wanted me as a friend =( I tried to smile these past days, I tried to be happy, I tried to be just his friend, but he lied to me. Everytime I go closer to him he just ignores me, pretends i don't exist, and tells me to let go of him when I try to hug him. I don't know what to do...he was my life and now he's gone...I just want to end with my life, I feel like I don't deserve anyone, like I will never be happy ever again... =( I can't sleep, draw, pay attention in classes... I don't know what to do next... =(

I hope all of you are feeling better than me =)
xoxo Electrik Sunrise

I just heard about a 17 year old girl named Skye that was beaten to death for wearing a My Chemical Romance shirt :( What I read was that she was walking home from her friends house when some kids were teasing her about the shirt, and then said she didn’t deserve to live for it. They kicked her to the ground, pinned her down, and beat her repeatedly to the head. She died later that day in the hospital. I can't believe it :'( How can the world come to this..
In honor of Skye, please wear a MCR shirt tomorrow and/or write "Sing it for Skye" somewhere on your body. We are a family, and no one deserves to have to go through what she did. Rest in peace Skye, you will be forever in our hearts ♥

Do you ever get that feeling that the world is unfair and your life sucks? Well, I'm having one of those moments right now. I just got grounded. Last Monday, I didn't had the last class, so I stayed 1.30h with my boyfriend, I didn't tell my mum because I thought it wasnt important. But now she found out, and she grounded me for not calling her on the cell to come pick me up. I mean wtf -.-'
Now I'm gonna be days without seeing my boyfriend and my friends :'( I'm gonna be stuck at home, without seeing daylight, just studying and making homework -.-
And to make it worse, I just hit my arm on the wall and now it hurts so bad, I can't barely move it :(

Btw, Happy Ray Toro Day! He's so talented and brilliant :)

- Electrik Sunrise

Do you ever got that feeling that the world is unfair and your life sucks? well, im having one of those moments right now :( I just got grounded. Last Monday, I didn't had my last class, so I stayed 1:30h with my boyfriend. I didn't tell my mum because I thought it wasn't important, and now she found out, and she grounded me because I didn't call her on the cell to come pick me up. I mean wtf -.-
Now im gonna be days without seeing my friends and my boyfriend :'( I'm gonna be stuck at home, without seeing the sunlight, studying and making homework -.-'
And to make it worse, I just hit my arm in the wall, and now it hurts so bad, I can't barely move it :(
The only thing that's keeping me alive right now is listening MCR and all you killjoys :)

Btw, Happy Ray Toro Day! He's so talented and brilliant =)

- Electrik Sunrise xo

So today was the first day in school in the 10th grade.....I'm quite sad because I lost all my friends and now I'm in a new class where I only know 3 people... And the worst part is that every girl in my new class was whispering the way I dress.. I was wearing a band t-shirt, black trousers, black sneakers with MCR stickers on it and I don't wear make-up, but I like dressing this way, I feel comfortable. The others girls were dressed like.. well take a look at the picture (it wasn't me who made the picture, but it's true about me) I want to keep dressing like this, but it's a bit hard when people are whispering in your back :(....Anyone have an advice?

xo Electrik Sunrise

Well of course you have all heard bout Pedicone... I was really shocked when I read the news. The MCRmy trusted him and made him part of our family.... I don't really understand why he did that, but I just wish him good luck finding another excellent band as MCR where he can play.

On more happy news, Happy Anniversary to Gee and Lyn-Z!!! They make such a good couple ;D

PS: Got twitter? Wish Bob would go back to MCR? Let's make this a trend #BringBackBob and hope the Fabulous Killjoys see it =)

Hi fellow Killjoys!

So I've been hearing some rumours about the third and final Killjoy video release. Some people said it was last Monday, some said it was today, and others say it's going to be in September. There's also some confusion about which song is - "Bulletproof Heart" or "The Only Hope for Me is You".
So you see I'm a bit confused with so many different informations xD
If any of you know something about the final video release please tell me ;D

This is Electrik Sunrise,
Signing off