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Just Saying Hi.

How are we all doing? Is everyone good? If not, feel free to inbox me.

~ Laura xx

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B.F.F...

Frankie's song!!

It's so perfect! He really does deserve the title of 'Best Dad' because of the amount of effort he goes to for his kids. Bless him. I have masses of respect for him.

~ Laura xx

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Fake Your Death...

I just heard it. It feels like it's really over, now. But I think I'm ready for it. Granted, it had me in tears, and the concept of them being finished upsets me, but I feel like I have closure. What about you guys?

Laura.

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I Think I'm Ready For Some New Scenery...

I really don't know who I am, anymore. I'm a juggalette. But outside of that, I've completely lost myself. I find myself painting up on most days now; because once I have my clown paint, I feel like I am someone. That's what's great about the Juggalos. They make it known that you fit in somewhere. MCR and the fandom will always be my home, it's just that with ICP and the Juggalos, I have my identity. Painting up helps with certain... Habits that I have. Bad habits.

This loss of who I am is doing no good to my mental state. I have different masks that slip in place... They seem to pop up when I don't want them to. It makes me confused as to what's actually real... If there is anything real.

I'm in a stupidly bad place at the moment.

Laura.

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An Update That Is Long Overdue...

Let's see... Why have I not been on here for so long?

Well,

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I don't even know what to do anymore.

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I Don't Even Know Anymore...

I just... Can't. I've got into Death Metal because words aren't enough anymore. If i don't know what they're saying, they can't hurt me. That's how i see it.

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Creeping Up Inside

I think all my 'friends' are waiting to kill me.

I don't feel like i can trust them. It's killing me because i can't let them know or they'll kill me faster.

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Another Day In This Carnival Of Souls.

I love Five Finger Death Punch. They are one of my favourite bands other than MCR. Their music is amazing and the lyrics speak to me.

Also, i broke up with my boyfriend. It turns out, i'm not the relationship type.

~Laura xx

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I Bumped My Head And Now I'm In Wonderland.

I'm in that stage where i can't really decide if anything's real or not. I have an idea but then something happens that makes me change my mind. I'm just getting more and more confused. On the bright side, i had energy drink and was super hyper and NOT DEPRESSED XD

~ Laura xx