Lara Lee Way's blog

Last night my friend Bri and I went all the fucking way up to Fort Dodge to see our friend Jacob's band, Steel 'n' Candy, and Dead Horse Trauma. The performances were great, made some friends, and bought some merch, and seeing as how the concert included a bunch of local bands it wasn't packed. All in all it was an epic time and I can't wait to see Jake again.

Yesterday i went to a Black Veil Brides concert and it was AMAZING!!! I met jinxx and he signed my cd and hugged me. I also met the singer of a band called Stand by your Anchor. I got a pic with him and he man-handled me leg when I asked him to sign my shoe. Stand By Your Anchor are a new band from Iowa and are pretty good. During the show I moshed and head banged pretty hard. All in all it was an amazing experiance.

The last thing I talked about that involved that guy? Yeah. Forget I said that. Turns out that he's just a dick that deserved me cheating on him. He can go fuck himself. The funny part is right after me he got a new girlfriend and in under 2 weeks they were OVER. Not to be self centered or anything like that but I was the best thing that ever happened to him AND the girl he has had his longest relationship with. But fuck him. I'm done being nice

Well killjoys, I fucked up. I made the guy I love hate me because of the stupidest thing ever. I cheated. I didn't mean to or want to but that doesn't change the fact that it happened. I regret it and I miss him. The saddest part about it was he was going to get me back but then he found out what I did...I love him so so much and want him back so bad. But I guess I love him enough to let him go.

If anyone ever needs someone to talk to for any reason you can talk to me. I won't judge you. I'll just listen and give you my support.

Love always

Lara

PS. I need a new Killjoy name. any ideas?

so I wrote this song and I'd like your guys' opinion on it. Thanks a bunch!

sitting in my room
it's not a typical night
what just went down
was no where near a fight

starin' at the mirror
tears have filled my eyes
cause when I see myself
alone just isn't right

(chorus)
don't leave me standing here
all alone with shit to fear
i am not okay enough
to stand alone and give a fuck
how am I supposed to be okay without you here
am I supposed to stay alive without you by my side

looking at the mirror
seeing you next to me
looks like my imagination's
got the best of me

I feel like im crazy
this feelings just not right
I can't stand another thought
of not texting every night

(chorus)

congratulations boy
I know it's not your fault
I just need someone to blame
that's why I poor my heart into a song

(chorus)

sooooo 4 hours and 25 minutes later I have Gerard! hope you like it

Hello MCRmy. I've missed you. I've been hating a lot for the longest time and I have found love out of my hate. I met the most amazing guy that loves me as mush as I love you and that is A LOT of love. MCR saved my life and now I'm here to save his.

Keep running killjoys.
xoxo Lara

She's in my heart. She's in my dreams all the time. taunting me. tearing me appart. I just want the pain to stop. For life to be normal again. I want to worry about a test I didn't study for. not how seeing her is gunna make me feel. it might just kill me. be cautious in you travels killjoys. you never know who might be a drac in disguise.

Love always

The Lost Relic

tomorrow I'm goin to the mall and other places with my best friend. we're gunna see Winnie the Pooh and probably go to Hot Topic. I hope this outing helps me forget some of the pain that SHE caused. I hope the dracs don't bother us.

Keep your mask on
Lara