Lady Sparrow's blog

I thought I'd tell you all. For no reason.

Does anyone know anything about the horoscope?? My girlfriend knows a lot about it. She's a Scorpio and I'm a Cancer, and what I've read about Cancer is accurate for who I am and same with Scorpio and her. Is there anything we should expect from this relationship because of the horoscope?? Most of you probably don't believe in that stuff, but I'm starting to...
She writes the cutest notes ^^

--Summer Cyanide--

I get paranoid about everything.
For example:
Whenever I go out with someone, I'm afraid they suddenly won't want me.
I'm always afraid people are out to get me or are plotting behind my back or even trying to kill me.

Also has anyone seen the movie "Life is Beautiful?" It's about the holocaust, we're watching it in school, and it's fucking DEPRESSING.

--Summer Cyanide--

I haven't felt so happy for so long. Not just funny happy, but genuinely good with life. It's sunny outside, and the person I like likes me back. (By the Way, I'm bisexual) She wrote me this note and it's really cute ^///^ It totally made my day. I have my phone subscribed to facebook so I'm talking to her that Way. She and I are going to cosplay as Kadaj and Yazoo from Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. My song is Famous Last Words currently. It sums up what I'm feeling, as far as my happiness goes. Usually when I go out with someone I feel really awkward, but now it's just awesome. We're not going out yet but I'm gonna ask her out in a sec, and I already know she likes me ^^. I have a new motivation to go to school just so I can see her.

Only problem: My mom doesn't support me being bi. Oh fucking well. Nothing can bring me down right now. =^.^=

~Summer Cyanide~

So the person I like says they like me, but the problem is my mom thinks they're "confusing me" and doesn't want them over if I go out with them. My mom is prejudiced about my sexuality, it seems. (BTW I'm bi.) And this person is a girl. All day I've been angsting waiting for her to get online, and now that she has, I'm freaking out. I told her I liked her. I thought she didn't like me but she said she does... If you don't know what I'm talking about, read my blog from last night "THIS SUCKS."

--Summer Cyanide--

I want someone sooo much
Last night this person kept implying that they liked me, but I'm pretty sure they don't.
They still want their ex back.
But they're acting like they like me... And it hurts.
They usually don't go out with people.
I told them how I felt and they said they were shocked. And they usually reject people who ask them out... I thought I wasn't sure about my feelings, but I know I am. And I want to be with them.
Oh, and I have a BF who's kind of obsessed with me and IDK how to break up with him.
This sucks.

--Summer Cyanide--

Killjoys, can I trust you??

Basically my mother has become a huge gossip and flirt around all of my friends. She'll talk to them on the phone, about them behind each other's backs, sympathize with one of them then turn against her to another friend...For example:

"(insert name here) told me this... But don't tell them I told you. I'm not supposed to."

To one of my friends: "Yeah, (insert name here) needs to get her story straight. She didn't need to ditch you to hang out with her bf."

To the one that was hanging out with her boyfriend instead of us: "What (the one she sympathized with) said about you was unacceptable. She needs to get over herself."

And she's all strict at home, but when my guy friends are over she becomes a giggly party animal that likes to drive around at 3 AM. And she only does it with the guys.

My friend came into school today all sad but acting like nothing was wrong... Or trying to... She was just listening to her ipod and talking really quietly... I really love her and I want to help her...
She went into the library so I followed her, she's sitting at a computer in front of me totally ignoring everything. Usually in the mornings she's really funny and we talk about things...
Great... I'm one of those people who gets depressed if their friends are that Way...

-Summer Cyanide

Put your iPod on shuffle and answer the question with the name of the song. Skip to a new song for each question.

If I had a band, it would be called: Over and Over

When I die, my headstone will say: Sending Postcards From a Planecrash

At my wedding, in my vows I will say: This Ain't a Scene, it's an Arms race

If i could kill someone, I would kill them with: Save Me

When I leave high school, I will be most rremembered for: Patiently

When my boy/girlfriend makes me mad I tell him/her: Fuck the System

When I party I like to: IDGAF

When People send me annoying forwards, i scream: Fever

When I go out, people look at me and think to themselves: Wheel in the Sky

When hanging out with friends, we like to: Ddevil

Now... answer these with the first line of the song:

Just a Little Story about you =]

This morning your alarm went off at 5:00 AM. you say: "I'm good to go, and I'm going nowhere fast"

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS
[x] Talked back to a teacher.
[x] Been kicked out of a class.
[x] Worn your pajamas to school. (spirit day)
[x] Had your tooth fall out during school.
[x] Gotten yourself lost in your school.
[x] Broken the dress code in your school.
[x] Completely and utterly failed a test. (ZERO PERCENT)
[x] Left your class without asking anybody.
[x] Missed a whole week of school for something stupid. (I had the flu I think)
[] Thrown up your lunch in school.

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS
[x] Argue with your parents a lot. (my mother nonstop)
[x] Argue with your brother a lot.(I fucking hate him)
[] Argue with your sisters a lot.(no my sister is really cool she's 2 years younger than me
[] Do your own laundry.
[x] Cook dinner once in a while.(cannot cook however)
[x] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[x] Wear pajamas when you are not going anywhere
[x] You sleep in very long. (Listened to Disenchanted 14 hours straight while I was at it)