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Rambling Stream of Consciousness Time

So i've been thinking. I've been thinking a lot lately, but this time my thinking was spurred by a blog i read. I don't remember who by, or else i'd say who, but it got me thinking. Music inspires you, but at the end of the day it is you who saves yourself. Music can inspire you, it can touch you, it can teach you, but it can't save you. At the end of the day, it is you that saves yourself. The band has hinted at this a few times, too, i think.

Made more progress today

I never thought i'd be *happy* to know that i get anxiety attacks. Not that ive been to a counselor or anything cuz i havent, just i did some research on some good, reliable medical websites and i match a lot of the symptoms and i talked to a friend who has similar issues and a family history of it and she agreed with my conclusion. Anyways, i never thought i'd be happy to know that i get anxiety attacks! But by the looks of it ive been getting them since sometime during highschool (probably a few years now, then) but i just never realized what it was.

I HATE SHORTCUT KEYS!!

i had a blog all written up, venting about something i am rather pissed off about, and then i hit the wrong key and my computer whent back a page! is there a way to fucking disable that?! cuz when i come on here to vent usually i am close to my wits end and just want to get it all out in a blog, but when i come on here, type it up, and see it get deleted like that all it does is get me all keyed up and when i've had two anxiety attacks in the past week that is not a good thing!

Hey guess what?!

[Post edited: Please refrain from posting about self harm as it is against the rules you agreed to when you signed up for the website. Unfortunately due to serious legal issues we cannot allow posts of this nature on this website.]

 

3. No self harm posts

If you are feeling like you may harm yourself please contact someone who can help.

 

Call 1-800-273-8255 or visit suicidepreventionlifeline.org or twloha.com/find-help. You can also contact The Trevor Project at thetrevorproject.org or by calling their Lifeline at 866-488-7386.

 

 

So anyone who knows me that i trust knows that i have issues

Of Ramblings and Musings 2

[Post edited: Please refrain from posting about self harm as it is against the rules you agreed to when you signed up for the website. Unfortunately due to serious legal issues we cannot allow posts of this nature on this website.]

 

3. No self harm posts

If you are feeling like you may harm yourself please contact someone who can help.

 

Call 1-800-273-8255 or visit suicidepreventionlifeline.org or twloha.com/find-help. You can also contact The Trevor Project at thetrevorproject.org or by calling their Lifeline at 866-488-7386.

Of Ramblings and Musings 1

Okay so i've debated doing this for a while now. I like writing diaries, i've always kept one since i was young, but as a 21 year old that feels like an incredibly immature thing to do so instead i've decided to keep a blog because a blog isn't exactly a diary, its a blog! Plus if i''m being way too hard on myself, or if something's wrong, or whatever you guys can say something about it and correct me or help me or whatever.

Can i ask you guys something?

Okay so i've been thinking on and off about trying to go to therapy. I'm not all for yes or no atm, i'm just trying to get a feel of things i guess. I've heard people i look up to like Gerard, as well as people i know personally like my second mother figure, say that it helps. But at the same time i've had my mom and brother tell me that its a waste of money and that all they want to do is drug you up not help you. What have your guys' experiences been with it? Good or bad? By therapy i mean like regular you go talk to someone therapy, not like you get hospitalized.

i hate shortcut keys.

So i'm super stressed out and wanted to come on here and type up a blog and get some shit off my chest cause my friends are all busy today. I had it half done and i liked how it was going. then, i had to press the wrong key and the computer took me back a page! Now i'm even more stressed out than i was before and thanks to that its reached the horrible all consuming level that usually triggers me. So what am i doing? writing another blog and blaring music through headphones, ignoring the fact my roommate sleeping on the other side of the room can probably hear it by now.

Today shall be a *good* day

Like the title says, today shall be a good day. Why? Because i fuckin said so! =D It might be cold as fuck in my dorm room this morning, and i might have a super long day of classes till 7pm ahead of me, but i am determined to keep it positive. POSITIVE ENERGY!! Now, i'd better get off the computer before i end up late to class. Hope you all have a good day!

Keep running,
~ Kari

Totally random quote of the day!

"Not every day is good, but there is good in every day." Idk who said it, for some reason i think Andy Biersack said in an interview while quoting someone else but i can't be sure. I'll let myself think that, though. Lol. Anyways, HAVE AN AWESOME DAY EVERYONE! Having a positive attitude changes everything, too. I've discovered that recently courtesy of the new band The Relapse Symphony. Positive attitudes change everything! That and morning mental pep talks in front of the mirror. Which i am embarrassed to admit doing a few times this week. Anyways, mac n cheese calls and so do my textbooks!

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