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Leave it to Jackie

Leave it to Jackie to screw up everything. Tomarrow we have a half day so me and Jackie are going to Taste ( a local coffee shop). And I thought, "Good, its good to not be on the bus every once in a while, then Kevin will think I have a life" well not all of the fucking sudden, Jackie's coming to my appartment. Not only is Jackie coming, but so is everyone else. They're all riding the bus with me so now if I talk to Kevin all the time they'll get suspicious and it's very important that I keep it a secret that I like him. But, it will be painful if I don't talk to him.

I. Hate. People

I really hate people right now, yep, thats typically me, sitting at my computer hating life. But I just keep thinking of how restrained I am to express my feelings. I want to go goth, yes I know it's a weird thing to say, but my mom says that if I go goth, I'll end up at my dad's. HE"S A FUCKING DRUG ADDICT!!!!!!!!!!!! My mom would rather send me to live in a dangerous drug environment than ruin her "Oh look at me, my kids are normal and successful" image????? What a bitch. And I hate my home ec teacher. She's a fucking idiot. She spelled my name wrong, my first name.

Summary of the past few days

So In the past few days Kevin was on the bus and he was only on the bus this week. We're basically best friends now... Well no, I don't want to be one of those people who thinks everyone is their best friend. But he manageed to get my cell phone number and texted me a few times and I was happy but yesterday he didn't text me and I was all sad and stuff but he finally texted me and I screwed it up by using the word whore in one of the text messages and he hasn't texted me since so his parent probably read his text messages and now he'll never text me again... Am I obsessing?

Happy Halloween Killjoys!!!

After I posted the blog I just posted, I got really upset... I though, why should I ramble on about myself on Halloween?!?! FRANKS FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I decided to end my blogging session about Halloween and Frank.
Frank, Happy birthday you Guitar playing, Gerard Kissing Bastard!!!!!!!!! I hope you and Jamia do something special.
HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!! THIS HOLIDAY IS MY GODDAMN RELIGIOUS HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I'm basically denied as a Catholic because of the music I listen to, I got a tarot card reading which is bad for catholics, I haven't been capitalizing catholics

My Monstrousity Continues

It won't stop!!!!! My Voodoo Doll has a flat spot in it's chest from all the times I've wished Kevin would ask me out already and from all the times I've wished Jackie bad luck. Kevin is in a serious sport week, I plan out steps in my head about how I will make him like me. My thoughts get more sick and twisted... Images of blood and disturbing horror film faces swim across my mind. Kevin took a feather out of my costume (I was dressed as an angel with giant wings) and he had his hand nearly touching my back and I got chills.

I've Turned Into a Monster

I am deeply ashamed of myself... I'm a monster. This guy, Kevin, I like (You already know how me and my friend both like him if you read my blogs but nobody does so...) has turned me into a monster. I use my voodoo doll on my friend who likes the same guy for bad luck, and I use the good luck pin on him and I, concentrating on him asking me out and imagining myself managing a stunned yes... I can see Jackie's hurt face in the backround as tears develope in her eyes. I dream about me apoligizing to her and her just ignoring me. She bugs the fucking shit out of me but she's still my friend.

Friends that just piss you off

So I have these TWO friends now and they are so rude!!!!!! On Thursday I got a haircut and I came to school and I didn't want to tell anyone... Let them figure it out. I took everyone 5 periods to figure out I got a haircut... And I got a good 3 inches cut off! It's not like a got a trim or something.

Lip Piercing Question

Okay, so if you have a lip piercing... Not like a ring but a stud type thing (I don't know exactly what they're called), is there a possibility of biting the piercing while your eating or something and riping your lip open or chiping a tooth? Just wondering because I was thinking of getting my lip pierced.

I am sick of characters

Yes, this is a confusing title but it's true. I just recently read a book about some girl who got everything she wanted and she was just perfect... I fucking hated it. She was really clumsy, but the book made it sound like it was cute that she was clumsy. So I got thinking about reality and divised a list of traits I have, because hopefully, I am a REAL person who:
Isn't adorably clumsy
Doesn't have boys drooling over me
Only had one boyfriend who didn't even really like me (Thanks, MCR for giving me the courage to end it)
Isn't beautifly graceful, either
Is socially awkward
Has an

I am sick of characters

Yes, this is a confusing title but it's true. I just recently read a book about some girl who got everything she wanted and she was just perfect... I fucking hated it. She was really clumsy, but the book made it sound like it was cute that she was clumsy. So I got thinking about reality and divised a list of traits I have, because hopefully, I am a REAL person who:
Isn't adorably clumsy
Doesn't have boys drooling over me
Only had one boyfriend who didn't even really like me (Thanks, MCR for giving me the courage to end it)
Isn't beautifly graceful, either
Is socially awkward
Has an

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