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Pulling My Strings (Stitching Me Shut)
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Oh Honey, was the grass greener in heaven
Hope not, ‘cause you have to leave at seven
Eyes shut, stick out your tongue
Kiss so deep it’ll reach your lunge

So romantic in the most murderous ways
Darling, you’re a casket begging me to stay
Do I look down on love, since you hit my face
Falling from the sky, and I don’t know MY place?

Ashes to ashes, they’ll all fall down
We’ll turn this lively city into a ghost town
Bones and dust are all that remain
But I just need you for it to be a sunny day

Angels falling from the sky
You’re part of the apocalypse
Put on a pretty “no, not I”
Oh Darling I am “hearting” this

We go together like motels and beetles
Sex stains all over the bathroom wall
Oh you give me pins and needles
Baby, I’m your voodoo doll

Now you’ve treated me badly enough
But somehow I’m still madly in love
Romance blinded, all I see is rose red

Open Wide (It’s A Lot To Swallow)
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“Don’t want you seeing anything too bright…
LIGHTS OUT! LIGHTS OUT! LIGHTS OUT!!!!
But if you want me to keep em on tonight…
Let me hear you SHOUT! SHOUT! SHOUT!!!!”

Stuck in a silent coma…
It’s not over, don’t cry, oh Ma…
Can’t you tell the heart monitor is fake!!!
Wake me up!! Wake me!! I want to be awake!!!

Forgive me but we live to die!!!
“Nice try but you’re still alive”…
Kill me off and bring in the flies!!!
“How hard could it be to survive…”

These stained tiles are my memories
Scars are my reoccurring nightmares
Feeling at home only in the mortuary
“There, There, Honey…No one cares”

“Don’t want you seeing anything too bright…
LIGHTS OUT! LIGHTS OUT! LIGHTS OUT!!!!
But if you want me to keep em on tonight…
Let me hear you SHOUT! SHOUT! SHOUT!!!!”

Don’t mind what I did
I’M ALIVE!!!
Behind these eyelids
I’M ALIVE!!!

No one here beside my bed…
Oh Dear, I’m as good as dead…

Homeless…
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LET ME IN! LET ME IN! (I’m just a beginner)
“So sorry, no one’s home” (I smell the dinner)
The thinning will begin
‘Till I’m just skin an bone

Dreams are a distant memory
Look, there go my whole family
I wonder if they remember me
I bet, here comes the Wet-Willy

Starving but nothing to eat
Frozen bones with no meat
No place to go, “GO HOME!!!”
Goes to show, I’m all-alone…

Feed me! Feed me!
Fill me! Fill me!
Bleed me! Bleed me!
Kill me! Kill me!

No place for a stray to stay (SLEEPING AT THE BLOOD DRIVE)
Vacancy leaves me on the street
I’m the all you can eat buffet (FEEL “FREE” TO EAT ME ALIVE)
Sorry that there’s not much meat

Comfy with my crowded cardboard house heat
No room for company, ain’t enough Mouse meat
If I’m thirsty, I just need an empty cup to bleed in
Life hurts me even more then the knife I’m needin’

When Bleach is free I’m the first in line

F.M.L. ("Friends" Murder Lives)
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“How much time left”
“He doesn’t have long…”
“I CAN ALMOST HEAR DEATH!!!”
“WELL THAN LET’S SING ALONG!!!”

“We never agree”, “O.M.G.”
“WEIRDO”, “No, Unique”
“Freak”, “FREE SPEECH”
“SHUT UP”, “Don’t speak”

While I suffocate in this doctor prescribed plastic bag
See me, Pre-corpse! OH HERE WE GO! HERE WE GO!
Don’t wait! Don’t worry! This is your chance to brag
“I HATE TO SAY TOLD YOU SO!” “I TOLD YOU SO!”

Report card came in the mail
“Needs improvement” by my “F” in health
Teacher’s note: YOU WILL ALWAYS FAIL
Proven by my “A” in hell-

Unlike me, the heart has not been rejected
It’s fake, but one bit of me has the legal I.D.
Biology teachers suggested I get dissected
To take the only successful part out of me

“How much time left”
“He doesn’t have long…”
“I CAN ALMOST HEAR DEATH!!!”
“WELL THAN LET’S SING ALONG!!!”

“How much time left”
“He doesn’t have long…”
EVERY BREATH!!!

(A song originally made for school)
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DON’T FAIL ME
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(A Letter To All The Respected Teachers Of BIRMINGHAM STATE For Focusing On The Initials)
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If you fail me
I’ll get to say I told you so! I told you so!
“Can’t pass if you bail”
I know! I know! I know! I know!

This slip’s a lot to swallow
A detention to leave me in sorrow (I will remember this)
But tell me what’s to follow
I’ll stop procrastinating tomorrow (no! no! no! I promise!)

Mrs. Teacher I’ll be good!
You knew I eventually would!
It could only be a matter of time
“Heard it all before just get in line!”

If you fail me
I’ll get to say I told you so! I told you so!
“I sent an email”
I know! I know! I know! I know!

Poisoned apple and a mini guillotine
You handed them both back to me
Saying “so sorry but I’m allergic”
Oh please just take one lil’ lick

Might be the teacher’s pet

Born(ed) Alive
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Side Effects include “Nice” Dreams…
Happiness may seem so far away…
Just grab a bowl of Ice-Cream!!!
Welcome to life!!! Enjoy your stay!!!

Ms. Body bag had an Easter egg in it (surprise)
Mother gave birth in the casket (deep inside a grave, oh joy…)
Nobody knew she was pregnant (ew, my eyes)
Just too bad no one would ask it (congratulations, it’s a boy!!!)

As you enter this world
The Delivery Doctors say
If it’s “A baby boy” or “A baby girl”
“Now go away” or “Enjoy your stay”

An are you near my skull
Look deep into my eyes…
Can’t you hear my pulse
IT’S ALIVE! IT’S ALIVE!

By the curb waiting for a siren
‘Cause could really use a laugh
“Operated on the Siamese Twin
…But we could only save a half”

“So sorry about your mother”
“Even if you never loved her”
“But you finally got a brother”
From one suicide to another

Side Effects include Bad Dreams…
Happiness may seem so far away…

CLEAR!-CLEAR!-CLEAR!!!
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LIVE?! Knowing any second you could be deceased!?
Having dropped dead during a game of hopscotch?…
Give me paranoia to the tenth degree!…
BUT YOU WON’T DIE ON MY WATCH!!

But on an ambulance drive
“CLEAR!!”
“She’s dead…”
“CLEAR!!”
“SHE’S ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“CLEAR!!”
“…She’s dead.”

Honestly, I Promise I’m on your side
There’s no way I would’ve let her die
An If I find out God’s been torturing her
When I get up there I’ll make him BURN!!!

I don’t care what they say or swear
“CLEAR!!” (THEIR PROMISES MEAN NOTHING!!)
Oh, I know you’re still alive
“CLEAR!!” (PLAY DEAD! YOU WERE BLUFFING!!)
You’re smiling somewhere out there
“CLEAR!!……”
You had to have survived…
“CLEAR!!!!!!!!”

When they told me “so sorry, she’s dead”
“NO! NO! PLEASE TAKE ME INSTEAD!!”
Can’t be true! Lying! Lying! Aren’t you!
Liar! Liar! My pants are only fireproof!

No! I’m being lied to! Being lied to!

Brand New “Wrist Tattoo”
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“KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK”, “NO ONE’S HOME”
“Mom wants you in bed by twelve o’ clock”
“It’s locked, just let me die and leave me alone”
“Open up”, “I’m dead”, “Well that’s no shock”

If you’re happy an you know it clap your hands
And everyone goes deathly quiet
So much for the party’s predestination dance
Suicide cult slogan: JUST TRY IT!

Bedridden in the casket as an advertisement
Wrists leaking company ink, a surprise event
Asking me, “Honey what the hell did you do…”
MOTHER, DON’T WORRY! IT’S JUST A TATTOO!!

It’s my abortion, life sold half-price!!!
Suicide? Why not? We all die anyway…
Plenty ways to live until the end of days!!!
We wont give in, we’re like the world’s lice…

Life ain’t easy, so Death shouldn’t be very hard…
See, brought back with just a little bit of CPR!!!
Everyone at the party who’s still alive
Gets to drive home with a high five

All’s well that ends well!!!
Here I come Hell!!!

BLANK’s A Bitch
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NEW!! Depressed-Barbie!! (“Dressed in sleeves stained with…juice…”)
Call now while there’s no waiting list (“Even bruises for you to abuse!!”)
Comes with pre-slit wrists (“Plus free accessory: gloves, glasses, an a noose”)
To Activate: Just Love It Hardly!! (“An Emo for you to use, use, an then reuse!!”)
(“ORDER NOW OR YOU’LL MISS OUT”)
(“CUTS ARE WHAT IT’S ALL ABOUT!!”)

Adolescent Black Magic works much better with a Guillotine
Need a massacre? JUST GET A SCHOOL STUFFED FULL OF TEENS!!
Put a kid in the middle and he’ll go crazy
“DID HE REALLY PLANT ALL THOSE DAISIES?!”

Gave all I could at the blood drive
But right now I need to be saved
They’ve already dug my grave…
But Dear Diary, I’m still alive!!!

Old time teens on screen on movie night
Staining the floor in black and white
Half empty buckets stuffed with popcorn
Warning: hot teen torture porn-shop

A Suicide LIVE on channel five news…

AWAKENING (The Casket In The Corner)
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[YOU SLIT MY WRISTS… BUT I’LL JUST PUT ON A BANDAID…]
[TELL ME, WILL YOU MISS ME?…WHEN YOU’RE DEAD?…]
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Ashes to ashes we all fall down!!!
Mister, I want you to wait in the hall, NOW!!!
Talking about your feelings Dear?...
Honey, that’s SO LAST YEAR! SO LAST YEAR!!

Strangled by the stress!!!
Life’s the anxiety test!!!
Mirror, Mirror on the wall
Sorry for making you fall…

DON’T WORRY!!! DON’T WORRY!!! I’M FUCKING FINE!!!
“-Press NINE for suicide hotline-”
…Please stop staring at my phone
WILL YOU PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!

Why does everyone stare?!
Sexy spit wads fill my hair!!
Hate me, Sure kid, Hate me!!
But god forbid you mate me!!

Got a Three A.M, Text: “U R SO HOT”
On my chest an “X” marks the spot
: “Guess I AM starting to be pretty sun-burnt”
I “HEART” when they get the wrong number