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love is dangerous

How do you tell somebody that you love them? Even if you don't really know if they love you back? They mean a lot too me, she saved my life, and I don't want to lose our friendship but I don't know that I can take her as just a friend anymore...

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I need to start using this site to vent my feelings again... things have gone on this summer that have changed me alot... Im more broken than ever, and I don't know how to fix myself.
It hurts...
-Desert Angel

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Adding on to what Lonestar said

This community needs to become a community again. I'd like to add on to Lonestars challenge, and challenge every one of you to leave at least comment on someones blog every week. People have been so unactive! I know you're there killjoys, I know you can hear me!
-Desert Angel

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The Light From Frozen Graves

"But I just want to stop feeling."

"As far as I can tell, there's only one way to stop feeling and that's to die."

"That seems a bit drastic."

"It is drastic. Perhaps the most drastic thing there is. There are other ways to kill feelings, like drinking a lot or working hard, constantly, pushing those around you as far away as possible until there's no way for you to reach out to them but ultimately, the only way to completely stop feeling, forever, is to die."

"I'm not sure I'm ready for that."

"Good. You'll be a better person for it."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that the most interesting, amazing people I've ever met, the ones who influenced and shaped the universe itself, are the ones that felt too much but lived through it."

"That sounds hard."

"It is. It involves living."

(This is a poem from "I Wrote This For You", I really suggest checking it out www.iwrotethisforyou.me)

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Favorite Gerard Way quote

“Life is very, very short, and you can choose to live it how you want. You can choose to dumb yourself down and not express yourself just so you can fit in, just so people won’t dislike you. Or, you can f**king live.” -Gerard Way

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A song I wrote for MCR/the mcrmy: "We Will Carry On"

There was a few left in mourning,
While the rest were untouched,
When you left with out warning,
With no goodbyes and such.

And the broken down children
hope that you will return
and the jeers of their classmates
only make their hearts burn.

But we carry on,
March on to the end.
And we might, just, die,
but you can't kill the thoughts we defend.

There's another day out there,
there's still one whole world left,
We will make this our fanfare,
We will make this our best
We will pledge to keep fighting,
We will promise you this;
Although you may be dusted,
Your memory still lives.

And we carry on,
March on to the end.
And we might, just, die,
but you can't kill the thoughts we defend.

We will carry on...
(I'll post a video w/ the guitar part soon)

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Damn it heart...

I've gone and done it again... I've fallen in love... with my best friend. God dammit. I know this is just going to lead to me being hurt. I mean... she has a boyfriend but... she doesn't usually stay in relationships very long. I've been friends with her since preschool... but... I don't even know. I hadn't seen her all this year because she was going to a different school...but there was this honor's night this week and when I saw her there, I didn't even know what to say. We just stood there staring at each other for a minute and then smiled. We're going to the same high school next year at least. I miss her... I miss her as a friend. I don't know, I just miss her. I had never thought of her this way before... I'm in love again...
Keep Running.
-Desert Angel

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found this song

These guys are new and I think they're pretty good.
Idk, not enough meaning. Like there's not enough message. idk.
-Desert Angel

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Lies of the Uselessy Hopeful

I wrote this poem today, let me know what you think,

Do the lies of the uselessly hopeful,
Hold more weight than the truths of the scarred?
Is it better to live with a dead soul,
Or to lie 'bout who you really are?

Everybody wants to see me buried,
All my peers only wish I were dead,
There's a thousand and one thoughts I've carried.
And depression lurks deep in my head.

Is there light at the end of this pathway?
Sometimes I find it quite hard to see.
But I continue living through each day,
I don't need approval to be me.

Go ahead, live you're life with a mask on,
But deep inside you know who you are,
Even when all your hopes and dreams are gone,
The Black Parade is never too far...

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This thing...

1. Any scars? 1 on my finger(accident)
2. Crush? somewhat...
3. Kissed anyone? no
4. Coke or Pepsi? Coca Cola
5. Someone you hate? sort of
6. Best friends? all my Track friends :D
7. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? no
8. What's your dream job? musician and songwriter
9. Ever been in love? yes
10. Last time you cried? lwhen MCR split up
11. Favourite colour? Orange
12. Height? 6'0
13. Birthday? April 20, 1998
14. Eye colour?Blue
15. Hair colour? Blonde
16. What do you love? Music, video games, art
17. Obsession? My Chemical Romance
18. If you had 1 wish, what would it be? meet MCR
19. Do you love someone? yes
20. Kiss or hug? idk, both
21. Nicknames people call you? uhm...idk. Spence.
22. Favourite song? Demolition Lovers
23. Favourite band? My Chemical Romance
24. Worst thing that ever happened to you? :/ idk, too much to pick from
25. Best thing that ever happened to you? going to this canoe trekking camp