Infernal Red's blog

Okay, so every time I try to add somebody to my friend's list on here, it says the request sent, but it actually isn't. Am I the only one who is having this problem?

So, I finally wore one of my new MCR shirts today. And I love it! I'm just surprised I haven't gotten in trouble for it.... We usually can't wear shirts that have guns on them, but so far, all is good!

So, today, my parents took me to Hot Topic so I could spend my Hot Topic gift card that I got for my birthday, (which is tomorrow). I spent FOREVER looking around in there. I saw an MCR shirt that I had seen in there before, but hadn't been able to buy, and a NEW MCR SHIRT as well. I bought both, and now I have 5 MCR shirts. Two more, and I will have one for every day of the week!

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Lately, I am saying less and less. Not only in person, but online as well. I find I don't always have something to say, and sometimes, saying nothing is your best option. At least, that's how I see it...

So, I was reading an update on a story on some site, and the chapter was... Disturbing to put it mildly. I read it HOURS ago, and I am still freaking out. I keep having panic attacks, I can barely type right now, I have NOBODY to talk to, and I need someone to listen. To help. To make me feel like someone cares. I don't know what to do... These panic attacks are coming every day now and the tears are falling so thick and fast right now that I can barely see the screen and keyboard...

Well, even though I got lost and wandered the deserts, killing the enemy at every chance, (which loosely translates to me forgetting my password and struggling through the first semester of my senior year), I am back!

I'm gonna try and get on, and honestly, what I want to do, is try and help anybody who needs help. You know, give advice, listen to people when they need to be listened to, etc. So, for all of you out there, I am here. <3

So, I got out of school on Friday, and am on Summer Vacation (WHOO) and was wondering if I am the only one. And omfg, I AM A SENIOR NEXT YEAR!!!! I can not even believe it! It seems like not that long ago, I was in like, elementary school! Oh how time flies...

Well, it has been a long hot day, and I do need sleep. So keep those boots tight and guns close, and die with your mask on if you've got to. Goodnight tumbleweeds, and don't stay in one place too long! keep running and make it hell for those we oppose.
~Infernal Red over and out

So... Today has definitely not been the best day for me today. It started okay I guess... It went downhill when I took a shower after helping my dad with the yard work. While I was in there, the water randomly started pulsating. When I asked my mom about it, she said that has never happened before, to her or my dad, so I'm kind of like.... Uh... WTF?! After that, I got of my bed, and an earring got stuck in my foot! Like, it was literally in my skin! Somehow, I didn't bleed. But it sure as hell hurt! After that, so much happened, I can't even tell you guys it all because it is TOO much... -sigh- I really hope tomorrow is better... I need a good day for a change.... At least I am on summer break! SENIOR YEAR NEXT YEAR!!!