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So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right? No. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you’re fooling around. Then they’ll start shaking you. Why aren’t you breathing? They’ll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your bestfriends? They’re not going to care. Right? No. What’s the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you’re not alive. While your bestfriend sits there in tears. That girl that you’d smile at but never talk to? She’s now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He’ll be shocked. He’ll be devastated. He’ll blame himself. What about your teacher?

1. How old will you be in five years? 18
2. Who did you spend at last two hours with today? my mom and myself..
3. How tall are you? 5'4"
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? my birthday! Only a week away!
5. What’s the last movie you saw? MASH the movie
6. Who was the last person you called? my motherr♥
7. Who was the last person to call you? My friend CJ
8. What was the last text message you received? " I will when I get home" lol (:
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? my momm
10. Do you prefer to call or text? calling for deep conversations, text for flirting
11. What were you doing at 12am last night? sleeping!
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? divorced
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? 10 minutes ago
14. What colour are your eyes? grey blue
15. What time did you wake up today? 6 am.
16. What are you wearing right now? Jeans and a very pretty shirt(:

Heyy everybody. I'm cutting this blog short. So here's the point. Today is 11/11/11 and it's my Best friends birthday. so At 11:11, I'm making a wish. I want all of you guys to make a wish. Think of the biggest thing you want for yourself or a family member and wish it. Keep the faith, always. (:
xo,
secret sunshine

fuck.it.all.

So, I'm sick. I think I'm actually sick. Like, not just a " I don't want to go to school sick" but really honestly, SICK. Wow, confusing. Anyways, I really have nothing to do. I really want to watch M*A*S*H. If you don't know what that is, look it up. It's one of the best television shows ever. No lie. My Grandpa used to watch it. It was his favorite show, and now it's becoming one of mine. Speaking of my Grandpa, I've been missing him a lot lately. It really sucks because I know I can never see him again. I really just want to go to his grave and sit there for awhile. He was a soldier so he's buried in a military cemetery. Camp Butler to be exact. It's just gorgeous out there, it's also kind of sad, because it's just row after row after row of dead soldiers and their family. I guess that's what all cemeteries are anyways. Going back to MASH, it's about this Mobile Army Surgical Hospital, and it's during the Korean War I'm pretty sure.

Bottom line, creeps keep finding me, talking to me, getting on my sweet side, then BAM. they ask me out. AND THEY ARE ALL IN HIGH SCHOOL. what the hell? Boys, I'm not going to fuck you, when I still have braces. Get real, PLEASE.
this always happens. it's weirdin me out.
xo, secret sunshine<3

I'm writing this with Stella (my dog) in honor of Frank because he loves dogs!(:
ANYWAYS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANK IERO! He's only 30. WOAH.
Stella says happy birthday too Frank(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
♥

That's Stella! She's so adorable! I love her to death(:

I have a new 6 month old puppy(:
Her name is Stella and she's a Pomeranian.. if that's how you spell it!
SHE IS ADORABLE! I'll try to post some pictures(:
Anyways, HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY FRANK IERO!!!!
Damn, how old is he? I swear, he doesn't age.
Love you guys!
xo, Secret Sunshine

[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness...
[ ] Acrophobia - Fear of heights...
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain...
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds...
[] Agyrophobia - Fear of crossing the street...
[ ] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects...
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car...
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men...
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers...
[] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society...
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched...
[XXXXXXXX] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders...
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers...
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning...
[X] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness...(I lose things a lot so I get freaked out when things are not in place)
[X ] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection...
[X ] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure...
[ ] Aulophobia - Fear of flutes...
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone...
TOTAL SO FAR:3