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mentally broken...

Almost everything is perfect in my life right now. And I am happy, right?


But I DONT KNOW WHY. I seem like I'm happy, I even smile and laugh genuinely. But I'm hollow inside. My life is a game. I'm winning. I'm a liar. I'm an actress who has perfected her art. And now, now nobody likes when I'm being myself. I don't like myself when I'm lying. Its fraying the ropes that hold my heart together. I need to stop. I need to love myself.

its been a while....

hey beautiful motherfuckers! how are you? i have been having issues with finding the charger for my kindle lately, and its making it very hard for me to post anything. its kinda slapping my mood a little cuz i dont get to talk to Tay as much! in other news ive decided im gonna write a fanfic! its gonna be difficult for me because my procrastination is terribly frustrating, and i can only write at night (the pill i take for my ADHD takes away my artistic side, so i have to wait for it to wear off). also, im not a very comfident person. so im only gonna post it if i KNOW i will finish it.


Random pica that I like:)


My friend is SOL when it comes to guys!!! Help her!!!!!

spitting out the blood and screaming;

I am just another girl.

Life is never an easy thing to work on. You all fall, you all crash, you all die inside, you all feel fucking insane, you all have nowhere to run, you all feel shit. I'm no different.

I'm just a girl who lost the people who loved her the most, and who she loved the most, who lost any sense of happiness, who lost any sense of dreaming. This girl whom text you're reading, she only knows the feeling of disappointment, of feeling like shit, of numbness, of indiference. Well, that's me who we're talking about, right?

Nothing comes easy

more stuff from mibba

Interviewer: free michael or free martha?
Frank: Kindersex
Gerard: free michael
Frank: Who?
Mikey: michael jackson
Gerard: oh neither, how about that?
Frank: Lock 'em both up, together.

Interviewer: cat or dog?
Rest of Mcr: dog
Bob: cat ... oh shit

Interviewer: New York of LA?
Frank: New Jersey

Interviewer: Vampires or wearwolves?
Gerard: Vampires
Mikey: wear wolves
Frank: pirates
Ray: actually i like wearwolves too
Frank: ah, you traiters!

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday.

stuff i found on mibba...god i love mibba....

FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: Is the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr / Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRIENDS: Never seen you cry
REAL FRIENDS: Cry with you

FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back
REAL FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours

FAKE FRIENDS: Know a few things about you
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you

FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds butt that left you


my lables

IM SKINNY,so I MUST be anorexic. IGOT SICK so IMUST be bulimic. IWEAR GLASSES so I MUST be a nerd. I'm BLONDE,so I MUST be a ditz. I'm NOT POPULAR so I MUST have no life. I'm FRIENDLY so I MUST be fake. ISPEAK MY MIND,so I MUST be a bitch. I ACT DIFFERENT so I MUST be a show-off. I'm TALENTED so IMUST be a conceited show-off. I'm IRISH, so IMUST have abad drinking problem. ILIKE A "LOSER" so IMUST be one too. IWEAR MAKEUP so IMUST be a slut. IDON'T WEAR MAKEUP so IMUST "think i'm all that". I'm an ACTRESS so IMUST be a liar. I'm A WRITER so I MUST be crazy. ILIKE SCHOOL so I MUST be a loser.

i miss u guys:(

HEY EVERYBODY!!!! I was reading fanfic on my bed, when I remembered something. What did I remember? I remembered my kidnapping buddies from youtube!!!! I also remember telling them bout my account on here. Just curious.......ARE MY LOVELY MOTHERFUCKING KIDNAPPING BUDDIES OUT THERE READING THIS???? DID U EVER KIDNAP THE YOUTUBE PEOPLE???? IF NOT, LETS GET IN OUR FUCKIN VAN AND GO!!!!!!

i wanna find some vegitarians and vegans¡!!!!!!!!

Tay already knows this, but I became a vegitarian a few days ago. I'm just curious if anyone who might be reading this is a vegitarian or vegan. And don't be shy! That's my job!