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that's something I need to do... maybe I will sometime ;P it's lyrics from one of my favorite bands called neverstore =)
I'm just bored at the moment... and kind of hungry, but too lazy to fix something to eat ;P
and not in the mood to do stuff, but I need to.... *sigh*
anyway, at least it's saturday, and no need to wake up early, so I slept till 11 am ;P
take care everyone!
xoxo

Bored... as usual... so I'm online trying to find something to do...
I think I'll post my poem again.... cause I only got one comment about it last time, and it was a good comment ;P as I said then as well, it's not really good, casue I usually don't write poems, or other tings either, this is the first I've written that isn't a school assignment ;P and I did it during alecture today =) it's pretty depressing I geuss... but that's my mood at the moment, so it kind of fits ;P
here's the poem:

The voices goes on and on
but means nothing
why am I here
why am I trying
don't understand
the world is slowly dying

Around me people go on
not caring, not looking
what is the point
what are we doing
destroying, erasing
Everyone's stopped caring

No one knows, no one cares
the world keeps falling
and left is nothing
the shadow comes
cover it all
and nothing is left to be cared for

leave a comment if you want ;P
take care everyone!!
xoxo

yeah, I think it's a chance it will =) I'm going to a party at my friends place tomorrow, and I hope it will be fun =) other than that I really just have to study, cause I have an exam next week =/
for once, I'm actually gonna post a poem I wrote today during a lecture... I know it isn't that good, cause I usually don't write poems, or anything for that matter, this is the first one that I've written that hasn't been a school assignment, and I know it's really depressing as well, cause I'm in one of my depressed moods, but yeah, people seem to be pretty nice on here, so no need to tell me it's a bad one, cause I already know that ;P
xoxo

The voices goes on and on
but means nothing
why am I here
why am I trying
don't understand
the world is slowly dying

Around me people go on
not caring, not looking
what is the point
what are we doing
destroying, erasing
Everyone's stoped caring

No one knows, no one cares
the world keeps falling
and left is nothing

I wish school never started before noon, it would be so awesome ;P okay, sometimes we only have afternoon lectures, so that's good, but it's not often enough... cause I'm just such a night person xD
anyway, the majority of today have been pretty good, my cousin, who's my best friend, came over to my place and we went to the mall and just had a pretty good time =) but after her bf had picked her up I got back my depressing feelings... not that I'm suprised, but it's annoying =/ at least I got a new psychologis now, I just need to call and change the time, cause I can't go to the appointement I've gotten =/ It's during my first day of practical practice in a nursinghome, so I can't just skip that =/
so, I should really go to bed now, cause it's midnight... but I'll probably watch some tv first, cause right now it's criminal minds, and I like that show ;P but I'm going to be deadly tired tomorrow as usual....
solong and goodnight!

So I woke up at 11am, and then my cousin messaged me and wanted to do something, so after watching tv, taking a shower and having breakfast she came over and we went to the mall and just wondered around abit ;P then we went to a store where her bfs brother works and talked to him while he had his lunch/dinner brake ;P then we went home to my place and had dinner and now she's brushing my crazy cat that behave really strange all the time xD while I'm on here and watching vampire diarys at the same time ;P what I should have done today is, I should have gone training, gone to a weightwatchers meeting, and should hav been studying, but I haven't done any of that xD wich isn't that good... and I'll probably feel bad about it later, but not at the moment ;P
tale care everyone!!
xoxo

an other day is over... and geuss it's the best one so far this week... except that there's this crazy french woman in my class that calls my friend a barbie, thinks she's better than everyone else, is just plane rude, and she goes around talking french to people even tough no one understands her just cause she thinks everyone should now it.... and we had presentations in small groups today, and of course this woman is in my group... *sigh* and when I'm already tired and in a bad mood to start with I don't have much patience for idiots like that... and I've disliked that person since the first day I met her! I slept about 3 hours last night, so I've been really tired all day, but now when it's soon time to go to bed I'm starting to wake up, as usual...

Earlier I wrote about a treath against the university on wich campus my school lies, and that it was this guy that said that he would shoot as many people as he could til the policed killed him, and that he would kill more people than in the finish scoolshootings, and I just can't understand how you can be as stupid as this guy!!! Cause after thaey caught him, he have said that he never ment to treathen anyone, and that it was just a joke, and that he really regrets it... I mean, what kind of idiot does that as a joke!!! You never joke about that kind of stuff!!! fucking stupid idiots!!!!

it's 1:22 am and I can finally go to bed... I'm just done with a presentation thing I have tomorrow... it's not good, but at least it's finished... now the only problem is that I have to wake up at 6:30am and it always takes me at least 45 minutes to fall aslepp and I'm not in bed yet, so I wont get that much sleep toighgt, so I'll be dead in school tomorrow =/ and that wont help my depression either, cause when I'm tired I get more depressed, so tomorrow will probably be a pretty bad day =/
anyway, solong and goodnight!
xoxo

I'm as depressed today as I was yesterday... I had decided to skip my lectures today, cause I just felt like staying in bed, but a friend from school called me and got me to go on the afternoon lecture... and I don't know if it did any good... =/ I talked a lot to the friend that called, and since she has borderline (almost out of it) she understand how I feel, but I still don't feel much better after talking to her... I still just feel like giving up on everything... I need to go to school tomorrow, since we have presentations, but I'm even not prepared for that yet.. so I probably do an awful one =(

I am... I just feel lonely and depressed, and that I'm walking trough life without anyone notice it enough to care if I'm gone... honestly... I just feel that I'm no ones best friend, I'm no ones girlfriend, I'm no ones anything, I'm just here, and for what reason... and I just kind of feel like giving up on my education as well, cause I have no energy to do anything anymore... I just want to stay in bed and give up on life, cause everything just feel so pointless... so yeah, I'm just depressing....