Skip directly to content

iamnolongerafraid's blog

[{"parent":{"title":"Get on the list!","body":" Get exclusive information about My Chemical Romance tour dates, video premieres and special announcements ","field_newsletter_id":"6388094","field_label_list_id":"6518500","field_display_rates":"0","field_preview_mode":"false","field_lbox_height":"","field_lbox_width":"","field_toaster_timeout":"10000","field_toaster_position":"From Bottom","field_turnkey_height":"500","field_mailing_list_params_toast":"&autoreply=no","field_mailing_list_params_se":"&autoreply=no"}}]
Syndicate content
Happy Early Self Harm Awareness Day<3

This day means alot to me (Along with the Day of Silence.)
I used to constantly cut myself in 6th grade. Constant cuts crosshatching the other, covering my arms completely.
It was my only way to cope.

I had to talk to the school therapists, teachers, official therapists, and go to the local hospital to make sure I was "okay."
I'm never going to be okay, actually. But that's okay. ( I'm noooooooottt ooookkaaayyyy!!! )

But I won't cut anymore.
Because I have faith.

I still have some scars on my arms, hands, and legs.
Everytime I look at them, I smile and think "I've come a long way."
One time,

Traumitized..

Ohfuck the blood... It's my fault...

Fuck fitting in.

I've always been a dark person, and I was dark before it was cool.
Nobody I knew was dark in 6th grade...
Now that being dark is accepted and fucking "cool" and shit, and it's mainstream, and everyone's dying their fucking hair black, I finally said "Damn, I need color."
So I'm waiting another ten minutes before I can wash out the bleach in my hair and see how it looks. My mere dyed the tips and underlayer.
Fuck fitting in. -3-
It's really bothering me how everyone's dying their hair black now.
It really is.
A few weeks from now, the bleach will now be... red, maybe? Blue? :3
But, hot damn,

OMFG

BERT MCCRACKEN RESPONDED TO ME ON TWITTER. YESSSSS.

Coincidence? I think not.

So I slept over my girlfriend's house, right?
We were watching the Amanda Show, and on the Judge Trudy bit, the kids in the background,
I swear two kids were watching Party Poison and Fun Ghoul masks.
At the same time, my girlfriend and I just sat upright abruptly, and went "OHMYGOD!"
Ahhhh, love<3

EPIC- YESSSS!

IN SCHOOL, WE HAVE MORNING ANNOUNCEMENTS, RIGHT?
WE HAD TO WATCH A POWER POINT ON MUSIC/POETRY CLUB.
THEY SHOWED A PICTURE OF MY CHEMICAL FUCKING ROMANCE.
IN THE FUCKING BULLETS ERA.
I FREAKED OUT AND SCREAMED "OHMYGOD!!!!"

MY NIGHT IS MADE.
Congrats!

Congrats to the Killjoy who won the contest!
Geniunely happy for you.
Genuine is like my favorite word now... XD Used to me Irrelevant, Reluctant... uh... Legit. XDDD

-- Fatal Threat aka "Ashwivia Geweird" (My friend morphed my name -Olivia Girard. XD)

MOTHERF---

MIKEY WAY TWEETED.
APOCOLYPSE.
ASDFGHJKL

Home from school today +art

My mother forgot to wake me up in the morning so I'm staying home from school. I've been using GIMP again. Black Keys is on the radio, so I'm half listening to that while Mama is playing in my earbuds.
Mama might be my favorite My Chem song... but I know if I just turned on like... Zero Percent or something I'll just be like OJGGTR I CAN'T CHOSE.
But anyways. x3 Here's some artwork.
You can find more of my artwork/ stories at deviantart.com/bvbnmcrfan :D YAY!

Pages