Skip directly to content

iamnolongerafraid's blog

[{"parent":{"title":"Get on the list!","body":" Get exclusive information about My Chemical Romance tour dates, video premieres and special announcements ","field_newsletter_id":"6388094","field_label_list_id":"6518500","field_display_rates":"0","field_preview_mode":"false","field_lbox_height":"","field_lbox_width":"","field_toaster_timeout":"10000","field_toaster_position":"From Bottom","field_turnkey_height":"500","field_mailing_list_params_toast":"&autoreply=no","field_mailing_list_params_se":"&autoreply=no"}}]
Syndicate content
I'm trying to write a song... FEEDBACK? c:

Her hand in mine, I never thought I would get hurt again.
I always thought she was my shield, but it was only an illusion.
We’ll always get hurt.
Didn’t ever suspect it,
But it was all a joke.

A swarm of clustered bodies,
all their eyes staring at me.
I am the joke.
Curling my arms around her,
it only attracted more people
That I hoped would drop like flies.
Can’t find a friendly face,
Everyone who was on my team fled.

Shaking now, anger growing like a disease.
She had to hold my arms back,
keep me from strangling their throats.
They’re only cowards.
One step forward, they take ten steps

My immune system is SHIT. x[

I'm sick.
I'm hot and my head hurts.
I took two pills today, and I ate some soup, but I had to stop eating cause I felt like I'm gonna throw up.
I didn't get great sleep...
I'm arguing with some bitch on Facebook that talked behind my back.
Today is not good :(
At least Harry Potter is on...

My immune system is SHIT. x[

I'm sick.
I'm hot and my head hurts.
I took two pills today, and I ate some soup, but I had to stop eating cause I felt like I'm gonna throw up.
I didn't get great sleep...
I'm arguing with some bitch on Facebook that talked behind my back.
Today is not good :(
At least Harry Potter is on...

New hybrid! XD

Me, my girlfriend, and her parents were at this little old fashioned place outside today.
And from afar, we saw something move.
We thought it was a cat.
Me and my girlfriend came closer to it, and it looked like tortoise... Then as it turned to hide under this hole made between these two cement blocks, Laura said it was a groundhog, but I said it was a beaver... because of it's tail.
But there was no water around o.O
So... she called it the... -Drum Roll pleace, Jarrod!!!!-
... The Ground beaver.
XD
Oh, the pictures on the side are what I messaged to the girls that were talking behind my back

Fuck. The. Whole. Wide. World.

On Friday, in 8th period Math, we had to stand up to do the pledge of allegiance because we didn't do it in the morning, and me and this kid didn't stand up.
My Teacher: Okayyyy, now Olivia and Duane have to do the pledge by themselves!
Me: It's not required.
Duane: Yeah.
Teacher: What?
Me: It's not required.
Teacher: You don't have to say "under god" part.
Me: I don't believe in god.
Teacher: So you're not being patriotic??
Me: No! It's not thaaaat...

So the entire period, 48 minutes, I got mad fun of for being Athiest, and for being 'goth' and 'emo' by like, five different kids.
Then after

Anticipation! :D

My best friend, Tyler, he suggested that me and him should start a band. x3
He knows how to play three instruments but is best at drums, and when I get my bass, I'm gonna learn it. And I have an acoustic guitar, so might as well try to learn some of it c: I also know a few piano chords. XD
So, if we ever do this [He's had experiences with playing live and being in a band. c:]
our band will most likely sound like a mixture of My Chemical Romance, Falling in Reverse, Black Veil Brides... Devil Wears Prada. XD
I don't know, I just mixed our favorite bands O3o XD
So, yeah, I'm excited. x3
Oh, I

Bittersweet day...

Today is the first full day my girlfriend is back from the hospital <3 YAY!
But she wasn't in school cause she couldn't sleep there in the hospital cause she was so scared of everything there. :[
Happy x3
But in school this black dude said "Titty tap tuesday!" and tapped my fucking chest.
I got so mad.
He then asked if I was goth and kept saying I was "Confused" and not bisexual.
I got sooooo maddddddd.
Then my friend keeps thinking it's "cool" to be "emo" (What is emo, really???)
And I got mad...
And he plans to beat up this kid for saying him and his friend fuck all night long.
One thing

Bittersweet day...

Today is the first full day my girlfriend is back from the hospital <3 YAY!
But she wasn't in school cause she couldn't sleep there in the hospital cause she was so scared of everything there. :[
Happy x3
But in school this black dude said "Titty tap tuesday!" and tapped my fucking chest.
I got so mad.
He then asked if I was goth and kept saying I was "Confused" and not bisexual.
I got sooooo maddddddd.
Then my friend keeps thinking it's "cool" to be "emo" (What is emo, really???)
And I got mad...
And he plans to beat up this kid for saying him and his friend fuck all night long.
One thing

JAYSUS CHRIST.

MY GIRLFRIEND. SHE TEXTED ME FROM HER MOTHER'S PHONE.
BUT SHE HAD TO GO.
OHMYGODDDD
IS SHE COMING HOME SOON?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!

-Psych commercial plays... New episode-
Jamie: Oh look your favorite show.
Me: Oh cool.
....
Me: *SCREAMS* 8D
Jamie: *Flinches, clutching her book* ..What?!
Me: 8D *Screeches*

I DON'T WANNA GET EXCITED, CAUSE WHAT IF SHE DOESN'T COME HOME SOON???? BUT OHMYGODDDDDDD.

I don't know if I can cope.

Long story... but to make it short, my girlfriend has been getting depressed and suicidal and she went to foundations (mental hospital) for god knows how long... and our one year anniversary is on march third, so she'll be spending it surrounded by patients, and I'll be spending it bawling my eyes out... I haven't hurt myself yet... I'm really trying to hold my promises to her: Don't hurt myself. Stay strong. Do schoolwork. Only love her (Though that's a promise I could never break. Ever)
And she could be gone as long as June...
It's only been two days, but I haven't see her in four.
To my

Pages